The company is located in the suburbs, and I have to rely on cars for my life and travel, which is a nightmare for me who doesn't know how to drive. Working from nine to five is a routine of life. I seem to be alone on weekends, so I often ask myself if I made a wrong choice in the dead of night.
Ever since I received a job invitation from Tokyo, Japan at the beginning of the year, I have been stuck in an emotion called anxiety and trouble, hesitating and repeating, but every time I make up my mind, I will always roll over. I delayed my decision again and again, escaped from reality, and finally stepped on the brakes at the last step and made a decision. It's just that I'm weak and easy to go back on my word. Every time I do nothing, I regret it. This time, although I am compromising with reality, it seems very calm. In fact, unexpected things are coming, and the emotions in my heart cannot be completely resolved.
Just today, I suddenly realized that such a simple truth has long been known, but I have never understood it.
You can't have your cake and eat it. Few things in life have the best of both worlds, and the root of my unhappiness comes from my desire to have both. It's impossible. Instead of trying to have it both ways, why not accept the reality and just stand aside? Too greedy, if you want to have both, I'm afraid you'll probably return empty-handed
I was suddenly enlightened and remembered my inner struggle in the past six months. For a moment, I cried. I can't wait to go back in a time machine and tell myself the truth. But on second thought, it was after half a year of thinking and precipitation that I finally chewed the real taste between the lines on this paper.
Thinking of the dribs and drabs of these years, I suddenly feel that there seems to be a misunderstanding in my way of thinking-I always try to take two different paths and don't want to miss every opportunity. However, at the crossroads of life, you can only take one road forever. You can only choose one of the two separate roads. If you choose one road here, even if you look back, the other road may not still be there. Even if it is, the scenery may not be the same anymore.
You just passed the college entrance examination. When choosing a major, you want to choose international politics, be a diplomat with high spirits to safeguard the dignity of the motherland in the future, and also choose to develop in financial management and guide the country in the stock exchange. To learn international politics, you may need to learn a lot of literature and understand contemporary current affairs. Classes may be boring, not as exciting as you think, and you will not stand at the international negotiating table immediately after graduation, but experience one battle after another. Choosing finance, facing complicated mathematical formulas and a lot of data every day, maybe your little talent is useless at all, and the road to job hunting may be extremely difficult. The interview you won with your bare hands is probably a small role of ordering takeout and copying manuscripts. I understand your ambivalence and hesitation. It is true that you can choose two majors and spend twice as much time to finish your studies, but you can't choose two majors. Both sides have their own advantages and disadvantages, and it is impossible to practice thinking about the east and the west.
You have just graduated from college and are about to enter the society. You are faced with the choice of returning to a small town where you were born and raised, or staying in a big city with heavy traffic. Back in town, my parents are around, and my childhood friends still live in the red brick building next to the tofu shop. Silly strong, the next-door family who stole birds' eggs naked together, married a daughter-in-law and inherited my parents' pork stall. The clock in the town went slowly and lived a leisurely and comfortable life. Most of my classmates and friends were here when I stayed in this city. On weekends, all kinds of entertainment, movies, KTV, eating and drinking, wearing 8 cm high heels to knock on the spotless office floor. My face is perfect and my life is full of surprises and challenges. You don't want to bury your good years in your mother's creaking loom, in a cup of tea and a newspaper in a small town, but you are afraid that the city will eat people and not spit bones. It's really impossible to dress beautifully and live a challenging life, and still enjoy flowers, birds, fish and insects and travel leisurely.
You just stepped out of school and faced two OFFER from different companies; As a fresh person in society, you are faced with working overtime to complete unfinished work and the invitation of friends; You are the seed of love, you are the new father, and you are the child who entered the rebellious period. ...
When I finished my studies, I struggled in the face of Japan and Canada. Japan has left an indelible mark on my life. Its language and culture have deeply influenced me and have an inexplicable attraction to me. Canada gives me a feeling of openness and tolerance. I love freedom and don't care about other people's eyes. Take a step forward, even if it is an abyss, stay where you are, but you are not willing. Most of the ups and downs in the past six months have been spent on how to enjoy these two happy things at the same time. Greed requires both Japanese experience and Canadian work experience, but time waits for no one, and you can't have both. One step away determines the future direction.
The two choices are actually excellent opportunities and great happiness. Just happiness, if you have a choice, it becomes trouble. And the source of trouble is greed. It is unrealistic to dream of seizing these two opportunities.
My statement may be a little extreme. After all, many things are not absolute, and majors and jobs can be changed. I emphasize that when making a choice, there is often no third option for you to choose AB and AB at the same time. Don't be greedy. You want strawberry ice cream and mango pudding, but your stomach is limited and the thickness of your wallet is limited. If you want to eat strawberry, you can only give up mango. Even if you can get the care of your host, you can only taste it. What is the taste of dessert? Maybe you can't taste it.
Late at night, I just want to share this sudden feeling with you. This choice is a very important choice in my life, and I know there will be many such choices in the future. I just want to take this as a warning to remind myself: don't be too greedy, life is not the best of both worlds. Otherwise, neither side will please, and only oneself will suffer.