So you have to ask yourself sincerely whether you really love mathematics and are willing to spend a lot of time and energy on mathematics.
If you can't spend some time on math every day, then I advise you not to ask for trouble. It is meaningless to spend some time on math every day instead of making a plan to study math for 2 hours every day. Learning mathematics has completely become a task, which will soon make you lose interest; On the contrary, I want to play math. Whenever I encounter interesting math problems in my life or at school, I can think positively and use math when I think. If you are lucky enough to figure it out and come to an interesting conclusion, you will be very happy; If you think hard for days or months without a clue, it means that your knowledge reserve is not enough. In order to solve the problem, you have to force yourself to learn more mathematical knowledge and master more mathematical tools.
I love math very much. I am not only good at mathematics, but also can find beauty in mathematics. Someone asked me why I learn math so well. At first I thought it was because I was smart, savvy and talented, and so were others. But then I realized that I had reversed the cause and effect, and I was willing to think, which made me smart. The accumulation of a lot of experience has made me so-called "understanding" and "talent".
Learning mathematics, if I love thinking, I will play with any problems in my palm before I let go, regardless of whether thinking has any results, but I often encounter novel discoveries in such inquiry-this is the fun of thinking and inquiry. The whole scientific system is mostly based on accidental discoveries, and then the problems are carefully studied. But if you don't like thinking, what you have learned in mathematics is absolutely lifeless.
To learn mathematics, we must be diligent, reserve a lot of knowledge tools and accumulate a lot of experience. Because of my interest, I usually read some math books, study math problems and play math when I am free, and I have accumulated a lot of experience unconsciously (the most important thing is the accumulation of mathematical thinking methods and the solutions to some common problems). Only in this way can we be handy when thinking about problems, have extensive associations, find the connection between knowledge and problems, and think about problems from multiple angles, so that problems are more likely to be solved skillfully.
To cultivate your interest in mathematics, you can read some popular mathematics books. On the one hand, it broadens the scope of knowledge, on the other hand, there are many problems worth thinking about in the book, which can inspire people and inspire thinking. Among the popular science books, Turing's New Knowledge Series is my favorite, and most of the popular science books I read are in this series.
If you want to improve your math ability, you must study hard. At this time, a math course is necessary. You can also go online to find some online courses and teach yourself mathematics. The road to self-study will be long and time-consuming. Although self-study is inefficient, sometimes confusing and even painful, self-study is the most helpful. It exercises your ability to think and explore independently, and when you are tired of learning, you can always put it aside and pick it up when you are tired, so as not to be forced to learn by teachers, homework and exams (despised by schoolmasters) and lose interest in mathematics. Of course, there is another reason why self-study suits you, and that is almost zero cost.
As far as my current understanding of mathematics is concerned, I think that the highest level of loving mathematics and even science is to be able to understand beauty, and to be willing to sacrifice for the pursuit of beauty, and always feel that I have a mission to reveal the beauty of science for mankind. I am also struggling in this direction.
If you really love math, I'd like to keep in touch with you. If you have any doubts or puzzles on the road of mathematical exploration in the future, you can communicate with me and I will always try my best to help you. After all, there are many interesting conjectures and discoveries put forward by the majority of math lovers, and it is a good thing to have one more comrade.
Give you a word: where there is a will, there is a way.
Don't doubt your future, I believe you can and you will.