2019165438+10.2, I received a mysterious letter from 2027.
"Rinrin Bell, Rinrin Bell, Rinrin ..."
Dad, turn off the alarm clock and stretch.
Date: 2019:1.2, time: 5.50am, temperature: 1 ~ 16℃, cloudy to light rain.
Getting up in the morning, dressing, washing, going out and running are the opening ways for me to start a new day, and they are also the opening ways for me to stick to the 57th day. At the moment, I am running on the playground, and the cold wind is whistling across my cheeks, but I don't feel cold at all. From the first step of running, I have been saying, "When you slowly open your eyes and look around, pay attention to where the light enters your room ..."
Oh, by the way, I forgot to introduce myself. My name is Wang Dahua. I am currently studying in a non-ordinary undergraduate university. I am a junior majoring in tourism management. I am an Aries girl with an external age of 20, a psychological age of 37 and a soul age of 1 10. Everyone says that I am a reliable friend in life, a representative of narcissistic professional courses, high flyers of the Theatre Academy, a wild horse looking for grasslands, and a bird that never lands. (Ahem, that's beside the point. Self-introduction can't stop the car. )
I have been studying hard at the cold window for twelve years, and I have no hobbies or specialties. Because I like eating, drinking and having fun, and dream of traveling around the world, I chose tourism management as my major when I applied for the university. When I was a freshman, I participated in student unions and clubs crazily. I was keen on all kinds of activities and socializing, so I often chose to skip classes. Without the nagging of my parents and the supervision of my teacher, I am like a caged bird. Suddenly, the door was opened and I desperately wanted to spread my wings and soar in the sky. My study has long been forgotten by me, but the wisdom of "as long as you are brave, there will be winter and summer vacations every day" comes casually.
At that time, my daily routine was basically chasing dramas, visiting Taobao, brushing Weibo and gossiping. If you ask me which page the teacher talked about in class today, I may not be able to answer, but if you ask me which star is having an affair and which cosmetics store is engaged in activities, it is no exaggeration that I can tell you for an hour without stopping. I don't get up until I get to the classroom every morning, I am in a hurry to make up, and I have no time to eat breakfast; Sometimes I overslept in middle school and didn't go to the afternoon class; Chasing plays with roommates every night, the library hardly sets foot. At the end of each semester, I open a brand-new textbook, except for a name written on the first page, with no strokes, scratching my head and ears in the face of those unfamiliar knowledge points. While reading a book, I opened QQ and told my friends, "Which subject is so difficult that I can't finish reciting it." QQ space keeps forwarding all kinds of quiz gods, koi fish, YCY, for only 60 points. Then put up a flag: "I will study hard next semester, and I will listen to lectures carefully every day, and I will …". Then next semester begins, whether I fail or not, I will repeat my old life and set up a new banner at the end of the term.
This kind of life didn't come to an end until the second semester of sophomore year. When my roommate and I were still indulging in the old-fashioned story of "car accident, cancer, incurable disease" in Korean dramas, we suddenly found that there were a group of people outside my familiar circle who had obtained various certificates early, such as tourist guide certificate, CET-4 and CET-6, computer level 2, teacher qualification certificate, junior accountant and so on. They took an active part in various competitions in the school and won soft scholarships. Everyone who has a tour guide certificate has started to work as a part-time tour guide, but I said that I like eating, drinking and having fun and chose the major of tourism management. I still don't know anything about my major, and I don't even have the skills to take the exam. Some of them not only have beautiful faces and excellent makeup skills, but also have slim bodies. They are keen on sports and travel between the playground and the gym all the year round. But I still don't change the self-consolation that "I can lose weight only when I'm full", and I spent nearly half my college time like salted fish. Suddenly I feel that this is not the life I want, this is not the university I dreamed of since I was a child.
I began to be dissatisfied with my present situation. I hate such a disappointing self, and I'm tired of such an idle life. Everything around me makes me at a loss. Like a drowning child, I began to struggle desperately in the water, trying to catch a life-saving straw and surface to breathe the long-lost fresh air.
I began to make up my mind to change myself and my present life. However, people always have to be punished for their mistakes. Because freshman and sophomore are in a fog, they don't care about learning at all. It is painful to pick it up again now, and it is not good to start all over again. I study by myself every day when I am free, but the learning efficiency is not ideal. I haven't studied English well for two years. Now there are only some remaining knowledge points in my mind, even the CET-4 is extremely difficult. Not to mention advanced mathematics and linear algebra, this is the trouble of most people, and I am no exception. Every time, I will open the textbook and cheer myself up in my heart. I must finish reading this chapter today. But I only read two pages, and I have been struggling. A bunch of formulas and deduction processes slapped me as if laughing at me. Don't look, even if you don't understand, you won't be able to do the problem. I think, besides sleeping pills, if I have to choose one thing in this world to make me fall asleep quickly, I will not hesitate to open the textbook of advanced mathematics. Tourism management is a very strange major. Not only do you have to learn the specialized courses of this major, but you have to learn everything else. Economics, accounting, finance, financial management, marketing, etc. And the most troublesome thing is tourism planning and development.
The difficulties in learning have hit me from the beginning and made me very depressed. It is psychological pressure that breaks my last line of defense. Because I go out early and come back late every day, I no longer chase dramas, gossip about celebrities and visit Taobao buy buy with my roommates. They began to crowd me out and almost ignored me when they returned to the dormitory. I have heard them say more than once that "Dahua studies so hard every day, what's the use, and his grades are not that bad." Yes, I work so hard every day, not as good as those who got high marks on cheat sheets at the end of the term. I began to doubt myself. Am I really useful? Roommates never call me when they go out to eat, go shopping and watch movies. I go alone every day and try to reduce my return to the dormitory, but this still can't reduce their cynicism. As soon as I got back to the dormitory, they began to say, "Yo, our headmaster is back". They seem to be looking for trouble on purpose. Although I get up quietly every morning, they still say that I disturb them. And when I get ready for bed after the lights are turned off at half past one every night 1 1, they still huddle together to watch various variety shows, giving out barbell-like laughter and screaming, "Ah, ah, ah,"? It's so handsome. I like it. I can. "
In the later time, after reading a book all day and doing a bunch of questions and Band 4 papers, I finally collapsed and gave in. What's the use of me doing this every day? So I began to return to my original idle life. Roommates found that I no longer got up early to study by myself, and also extended an olive branch to me. We started a happy life of endless drama chasing, shopping, Taobao and Weibo. "I am no longer lonely, and I am very happy now."
This kind of life lasted about a week, and the book I pressed under the table was not opened for a long time, and a layer of dust fell on it. Living a leisurely and idle life every day seems to be very happy, but I always feel empty. I can't sleep every night. I don't sleep until the early hours of the morning. Then I sleep all day and never eat breakfast or even lunch. I am like a soulless puppet, repeating such a boring life every day, just like the life of a retired old man (the old man still walks, plays chess, dances square dance, etc.). Life these days is like a nightmare. I knew it was time to wake up. This is not the life I want. Slap yourself, then climb out of bed, dig out the books under the table and run to the library. That's where you should spend more time.
"Although you work hard, God has his own plans."
I am no longer afraid of being isolated by my roommates, and I am no longer afraid that my efforts will be fruitless. I no longer envy the Excellence of others. There is never a shortcut in life. Others are quietly working hard for their dreams, but you just can't see them. Don't make excuses for laziness, and move forward bravely towards your dreams. What your future looks like is hidden in your present efforts.
Gradually, my wake-up time gradually went from 7.30 to 7.00, then to 6.30 until now 5.50; I am no longer just visiting Taobao and Weibo every day, and I am no longer keen on the gossip news of stars; I began to appear in the crowd running on the playground, and I was also in the crowd learning to close the library. I left my trail in the English corner; I began to try to ask the best students in this grade for their study experience. I will always sit in the front row in class, and the teacher will answer questions enthusiastically in class. I actively completed all kinds of homework assigned by the teacher, actively participated in all kinds of competitions, and began to study hard to prepare for the certificate of failing freshman and sophomore; In my spare time, I will also volunteer in welfare homes, take part-time jobs in hotels and other places, and go to the gym to practice yoga.
I am no longer lonely. I carried the lamp all the way until it was brightly lit. I finally realized the significance of hard work, the pleasure of solving problems, the sense of honor of getting a certificate, the sense of accomplishment of busy life, and the sense of belonging of a group of like-minded people. At this moment, I am happy. This is the life I want. I understand more and more that the higher I climb, the more beautiful the scenery is.
"Bang bang bang"
Jogging for 30 minutes, listening to the rhythm of my heartbeat and blowing cool autumn wind on my face, I have long since lost my sleep and become unusually energetic. Then the phone rang and the screen said "You have a mysterious letter from the future".
Dear Ms. Wang Dahua,
? Hello, I am you in 2027. First of all, thank you very much for your original efforts, which made me who I am now. I dare not tell you what I am now, because of your efforts, I now have unlimited possibilities; Because of your persistence, I have many choices now, and I am very grateful to you.
? In fact, you have worked hard these years. Although your face is light, no one knows how tight your teeth are. You walk with the wind, and no one knows that there are bruises on your fallen knees. You smile mercilessly, and no one knows that you can only cry silently. To make people feel effortless, they can only work extremely hard behind their backs. But I know all your sadness, because I am you with infinite possibilities in the future, so I am very grateful for your constant efforts over the years.
The best way to love yourself is to make yourself better. Life will never treat you well because you are weak. I am working hard now in order to live the life I want in the future. You don't have to envy others' love, you have to believe that you deserve the best in the world, but the one who deserves you hasn't appeared yet. Don't worry, you should read the books you want to read and watch the movies you like first. One day, there will be someone with you, reading the same book and watching the same movie.
You don't have to envy the friendship of others. Low-quality gregarious is not as good as high-quality solitude. Don't flinch in the face of others' doubts and taunts. Shut up, you just grow up quietly. Don't say anything or complain when you are not good enough. Change yourself little by little, when you say goodbye to your old self. You can say to yourself, "Wow, great, you finally got through it", and then your mood will clear up and your life will be clear from now on. We have no future that we can't change, only the past that we don't want to change. Growing up quietly is the best way to counter all our unkindness to life.
? Remember, when you run, the beluga whales in the Arctic are constantly pounding the glaciers; When you recite the words, Alaska cod is jumping out of the water; When you are doing math, seagulls on the other side of the Pacific flap their wings over the city; When studying by yourself at night, the night sky on the polar map is colorful. Today is the 57th day of your persistence, so please stick to it and always be a girl with a clean and tidy language, a love of reading and sports, and a smile on her lips.
Text: Wu Xingwen