However, Nash was withdrawn, didn't talk much, refused to socialize, and was incompatible with other students' lives. His primary school teacher said that he had two heads, but only half a heart. He devoted all his energy to mathematical research and neglected getting along with his classmates around him. His thoughts are far more than his feelings. When thinking breaks through rationality and occupies consciousness, rationality is excluded to the unconscious field. The things in his mind were expressed in the form of delusion, which formed a different personality and led to his schizophrenia. He has irrational fantasies, ideas emerge and delusions are exaggerated. The definition of fantasy in psychology refers to the perceptual experience when there is no corresponding objective stimulus acting on the sensory organs, which is an illusory perceptual process.
Nash constructed a roommate, Charles, in his fantasy. In his conversation with Charles, he said, "I don't like people, and people don't like me." "People don't like me" is actually a projection of "I don't like people". Nash is lonely, afraid of failure, and hopes to be recognized by people. Charles played a role in relieving his loneliness and constantly recognized and encouraged him. The fictional character "Charles" shows that Nash subconsciously wants friends and recognition. After he fell in love with Alicia, the lovely little girl Marcy appeared in his illusion. Nash's ignorance of women's feelings made him subconsciously eager to know about women. 1952, during the confrontation between the United States and the Soviet Union, Nash cracked the enemy's password and made contributions to national defense. After that, he longed for success and hoped to make a difference. So he fantasized about an official of the Department of Defense-William Parsell. William gave him a "task", which is related to the safety of 6.5438+0.5 million people and national defense security. Therefore, Nash is addicted to cracking passwords in newspapers and magazines. Here, his inner ideals and desires were satisfied. Imagined characters are often contradictory. When Nash realized the danger, he wanted to quit the "mission", but under the threat of William, he compromised again and again.
It can be seen that the content of delusion is closely related to personal interests, personal needs and sense of security; Delusion has individual characteristics, which is different from collective belief; The content of delusion is influenced by personal experience and background of the times. Delusion belongs to thinking content disorder, which is a distorted belief based on pathology and the result of pathological reasoning and judgment. It's not consistent with the facts, and it's impossible to achieve it, but patients firmly believe that even after full reasoning and strong argument, it's hard to shake their beliefs. When Alicia took out all the unopened so-called encrypted emails that Nash put in the mailbox in the abandoned building of MIT, Nash still didn't want to believe that all these were false, but his heart was questioned because of his trust and love for Alicia. So he dug up his arm and tried to find the lead tube implanted in his arm, but he couldn't find it. When receiving electrotherapy, Dr. Rosen said, "Now is his most painful time, because he can't tell what is true and what is false."
When Nash's schizophrenia recurred, he gave up taking medicine and electrotherapy. Rosen said: "No one can cure schizophrenia by will." He believes that Nash's mind is the source of mental illness, so it is impossible to overcome the disease by the will in his mind. His wife, Alicia, also stood by him firmly to tide over the difficulties with him. She said, "I need to believe that extraordinary things are possible." After consulting with his wife, Nash entered Princeton University again, hoping to learn more about interpersonal communication in a familiar environment. At first, there were many difficulties, and people laughed at him for being crazy. Imagined Charles, Marcy and William have been bothering him. But with the encouragement of his wife and friend martin hansen, he stuck to his will. He chose to ignore the imaginary characters, just like a hungry man controlling his appetite. He used his will to control his fantasy of numbers and his vision for the future. Nash said: "It's all the past, and everyone will dwell on the past." With his efforts, he became a professor of mathematics at Princeton University from 65438 to 0978. 1994, he got a pen from the teacher of Princeton University, and each pen represents people's affirmation of his life and achievements. That year, Nash won the Nobel Prize in Economics. In his acceptance speech, he said: "I have always believed that numbers, whether equations or logic, guide us to think, but after my lifelong pursuit, I asked myself what logic is, who decided my career, and my exploration ... made me wander back and forth from metaphysics to paranoia, so I made the most important breakthrough in my career and found the most important one in my life. Although Charles, Marcy and William in Final Fantasy have always existed in Nash's life, they have been unable to influence Nash's thoughts. Nash cured his schizophrenia to some extent with his willpower, his wife's love and support, and his friends' help and concern.