Anxious Xiaomi ushered in his happy life early. She got married on camera and got pregnant in a hurry. Then, like a neighborhood aunt who has experienced many vicissitudes, she advised me: "Girl, life should be early! Don't wait until menopause, then do what you should do when you are young! " "Of course you don't have to wait until you are old, but you don't have to work for middle-aged people when you are young, do you?" I retort. At that time, I felt that life needed to make all preparations in order to do what I could. Otherwise, it is impossible to bring happiness to children, but only disaster. So I went on to ask, "What about the children?" She smiled and replied, "The young master has his own arrangements, but I am a master who can have children but can't raise them! The fate of the child has been decided. Either let him take care of the elderly, or throw him back to his hometown to care for him! " This is actually the choice of most working mothers, and it is far from correct. In the process of choosing to give the children to the elderly, some people are helpless, some people are secretly happy, some people sigh, and some people are relieved. I firmly believe that Xiaomi is more suitable to be a romantic accessory designer, and the role of mother is definitely not suitable for her. Even if she tries to perform, she will be full of loopholes. When brave Xiaomi gave birth, he was sent to the monitoring room because of excessive blood loss. The child was also locked in the incubator of the hospital because of lack of nutrition. Xiaomi looked at the child's feet through the glass window and suddenly burst into tears. After leaving the hospital, what made Xiaomi sad was that her mother was ill and her mother-in-law didn't want to look after the children. Xiaomi, who once proudly said that he would leave his children to the elderly, suddenly faded. After thinking about it for a day, she grinned at me, pointed to the parent-child books on the shelf and said defiantly, "Honey, don't worry. With the help of these experts, I'm sure I can do it." When she submitted her resignation, it was enough to shock the unremarkable boss and all her colleagues. When she left the gorgeous office with something, the boss said earnestly, "Your decision is too hasty. One day, you will regret it! The company welcomes you back at any time. " Xiaomi proudly lifted his head back and left. Although her pace is firm, I can see a trace of anxiety from it.
Xiaomi went home and lived with the baby for a week, and then he understood the meaning of the boss's last sentence. I also believe that every novice mother will encounter many thorny problems: changing diapers, making milk, bathing the baby, cooking, cleaning ... these seemingly trivial problems test a person's patience in constant repetition. Learning to take care of a person is a process of tolerance and growth. What's more, you should always be vigilant. How do you know that kind of hard work without experience? For a time, Xiaomi often cried to me about the hard life after having children. I used to think, is it more difficult to accompany children than to deal with harsh bosses in foreign companies? Maybe she is not complaining about the hard work of raising children, but what should surge in her heart is the endless sense of loss after unemployment! Especially when learning that the company's New Year trip was to Holland, Xiaomi was even more remorseful.
During that time, Xiaomi was very depressed and even gave up on himself. I don't want to be negative about her, emotional contagion. Every time I answer her phone, I will silently watch the phone ring three times. I'm afraid I won't answer it when her mood eases. This lasted for a year and I was busy all day. I heard from the front desk that Xiaomi's favorite tropical fish died on the balcony that day! I realized in a trance that Xiaomi hadn't contacted me for a long time. I specially took time out to see Xiaomi, prepared a tissue and wiped away her innocent tears while listening to her story. However, when I opened the door and looked at Xiaomi's neat home, I was really shocked. This shock is far greater than the shock when listening to her resignation-Xiaomi in front of me is so calm and carefree, which is quite different from what I imagined. The cute little guy next to him is even more clever, although he is covered in paint. There are two easels on the balcony. It turned out that she was teaching children to draw. God, isn't it too early? Looking at me dumbfounded, Xiaomi said that in the past six months, he will accompany his children to play games and read books during the day. When night falls and the child falls asleep, the world truly belongs to her. She will pack everything quickly and devote herself to painting. Stolen time is especially precious. She thought that after a long time, she would definitely not be able to persist. In fact, she never feels tired when she walks on the road of creation. Countless nights, she painted and fell asleep. After waking up, the sky turned white and her heart was full of joy. A new day is always full of expectations. All this is completely different from Xiaomi at work. Every time a colleague punches in for her, she is still struggling with which color lipstick to use. Now, she has learned to please herself. Even if she doesn't wash her face, she feels beautiful and moving. What she regrets is no longer her resignation. What makes her infinitely sad is that when she knows how to cherish time and find the direction, she has reached the post-youth era of life. What is really worth fighting for is always at our most confused moment; Life that needs us to cherish again and again is often ignored and missed. What is even more frustrating is that this magical cycle will control us until the end of our lives.
When Xiaomi's children went to kindergarten, she specially brought her friends together. At the party, she picked up the glass and gulped it down. Sadly, it turns out that life is not just when you graduate from primary school, when you graduate from middle school, when you graduate from college, when you work, and when you are a novice mother. She boldly asked, "Is my graduation report card excellent, qualified or failed?" I looked at the illustrations she drew, and then at the clever child, and a sense of happiness suddenly struck me. This silly girl, your income comes from your inner tenderness and warmth, from your love and enthusiasm for life. Everything in front of you is every woman's expectation and life's reward for you. Why care about boring graduation grades? In life, we care too much about grades and other people's opinions; On the road of life, we toss and turn, uneasy, just to perfect ourselves in the eyes of others. I used to think that by torturing myself and smoothing my edges and corners, I would appear quieter in the crowd. It took us a long time to realize that we were not calm, and our hearts were still rolling with tenderness and expectation that others could not understand, and these can only be realized by our own choices and efforts. Standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows, looking at those people who shuttle on the viaduct, they look indifferent, like machines, keep pace, never look up and feel sad. I thought life was my choice, and I thought I could stick to my posture. Unfortunately, the shadow that everyone can't escape is how others look at themselves at this time. So from small to large, we are all studying hard, striving for better grades, better opportunities, more people's praise and more people's applause ... when will we live only for ourselves? No longer tired of these fetters, no longer live for the glory of life.
At that time, the light we emitted was just to reassure ourselves and just to relax ourselves. Perhaps, after many years, we will understand that a simple life and inner peace are far more important than any honor in life. When we come to the end of life, that is, when we graduate from life, I hope you, me and everyone will smile and thank the people around us for every detour life has taken. I hope at that time, we have no regrets, only warm memories. At this time, the only thing we can cherish is to take every stage of life seriously and cherish every sunny or rainy day when we graduate. These are the times that can't be returned, and there is love.