I don't know when I started, but I was very firm about my inner feelings, at that moment. As long as you give me enough authority to feel, I will choose the right one, which is most needed at that time. More importantly, I won't be busy. I think I have a pair of extremely sharp eyes inside, and I will tell what is the most real, natural and suitable for me.

I think I have really grown up. First of all, I don't follow blindly. I think it's really amazing.

Whenever I come into contact with a new thing, I always dabble in all kinds of things because of my fear of the unknown. Maybe I will follow blindly for a while, but in the end I will selectively absorb some that suit me. Instead of accepting it all, it shows that I really have myself.

I feel like a game. I liked all kinds of tricks at first. Then I just choose what I want and quit in time. I never obey anyone except my heart. I feel old and strong.

For example, the pregnant mothers I came into contact with in the third trimester actually seemed easy for me to join some groups, get to know a group of people, spend a stage together and finally quit bravely. I really want to praise myself for quitting bravely.

At first, we came together because of gestational diabetes, spent the difficult days of eating sugar-controlled meals together, and lamented the most difficult last few months of angry children together. After giving birth, we began to participate in the process of parenting, such as the baby's daily defecation, breastfeeding, confinement and postpartum emotions, and the contradiction between mother-in-law and daughter-in-law. We almost passed the most important stage together. As a novice mother, it cured our panic well. During that time, we polished our time by chatting and venting in groups every day and climbed the stairs for several days every day. Hehe, now 100 days have passed, and the baby is doing well in many ways. It's time to enter the next stage of growth.

To tell the truth, everyone in the group has a different state of consciousness. I've said enough, and I really feel there's nothing to say. That era is really over. In parenting, I want to get more free ways.

Later, I completely discredited the baby's early education. Maybe the black hole in my heart is at work, but I want to know everything about the baby's growth, and I want to know how I came over at that time. At first, I learned a lot about early education, even Montessori kindergarten, but the reality didn't meet my current needs as I imagined, so I quit.

Although I also want to use my baby's growth to start my childhood life again.

By chance, a sister recommended me a baby girl from Ma Bao. After a few casual chats, she added WeChat. Before that, she had always recognized Hills' way of parenting and felt very human. Later, she learned from him that breastfeeding is also very pleasant for me. Seeing him talking about his parent-child game step by step, I feel that people can take care of their babies so naturally, truly and lovingly, and it is very comfortable to see the state of mother and child. Ha ha laugh

These days, I also participated in their plan. Actually, I have no purpose. I wanted to buy a toy to solve my own problems, but I didn't expect to join the early education team again. It really suits me. In the afternoon, while the baby was asleep, I read a lot of information. Haha, it turned out to be early education at home. Haha, isn't it suitable for me now? I have been thinking about how to change the pattern before, and the baby is very happy to play with him. Haha, that's great. It's cool to see many mothers interacting with their babies, and I'm still fooling around.

However, I still don't quite agree with some ideas, that is, I even think they have a "training" component. For example, for big sports, I think there are some ways to play, but I have my own ideas about intervention training, so I don't want to follow them. It was my idea. I prefer to let the baby do it spontaneously, and I can give him freedom within a safe range.

Taking care of babies is a real chore. Mom, I will try my best to play with him, I will grow up in an interesting and educational environment, and I will resolutely put an end to "training".

Actually, it's more about my own reflection. I don't interact much with my classmates in the psychological astrology group now, but I'm still in class every week, and I may be recovering there soon, so I feel that I'm not so persistent as it is.

I think people are really interesting.

Suddenly, I feel that the process of people's growth is constantly choosing, constantly giving up, going a long way to meet some people, experiencing some current experiences, facing the lessons that need to be faced at that stage, and then bravely quitting, continuing on the next road, meeting some people, and continuing the next stage of homework. That's how I came. And I think every road is true and solid. I don't judge right or wrong, but I must be brave, true and inescapable, so that I can grow. It feels really strange.

I think it's like a monkey breaking corn. When I was a child, the book said it was a bad example, and the implication was not good either. Now, I just feel that I am such a process, constantly absorbing and decreasing. Choose what you want bravely and throw away what you don't like decisively. Because the feeling in my heart is the only standard. Nothing else.

This is what I want to say today.

Live in the world, but don't belong to any group, only belong to yourself.