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He fell asleep, his cell phone was on the bed, and it turned on at midnight. Wechat played several messages. I was curious, so I took it.
A female classmate of his master's degree told him in an excited and lovely tone that her tutor had let one of them work.
Looking up, I found that they had been chatting every day for the past whole year.
She will send him a song, saying it is very nice and affectionate. He will take a photo of lunch and tell her that this takeaway is too sweet to eat. Don't order. She also mentioned me. The girl said that your girlfriend is beautiful and gentle, and she envies you very much. Oh, he said dad would help you find someone.
After the tutor's regular meeting every week, two people will go to the restaurant around the school, another boy, one person, no classmates, barbecue once a week, hot pot once, with almost no exceptions.
On his trip to England, he bought me my list and made great efforts to find out what was in it. She also made him a small list, and he bought it all for her. However, he confiscated the money I transferred and he accepted the money she transferred. In addition, he refused all requests for his help in purchasing.
He helped her repair the computer, occupy the seat and even spell the chair bought on Taobao. She helped him with the food, the express delivery, and sorted out the data in his course paper.
Even in the two weeks when he ran the data with his tutor, we didn't even contact for four or five days, and they still pushed a song to each other every day to make a joke.
We started dating in our sophomore year. At this point, the eighth year of the university, successfully spent four years in different places. Both parents have met. The master's degree is the city and school negotiated by two people. We went to graduate school in the city next door and settled in his place after graduation.
I always thought that we both had principles and knew the boundaries, and we would never engage in girlfriends of the opposite sex. You can have friends of the opposite sex, but you must definitely stay at the level of ordinary friends. You can chat and call if you have something, and contact less if you have nothing to do.
I always thought we were all like this. I even told my mother that I thought he was very sensible and responsible, and the possibility of cheating was almost zero.
I sent you my congratulations, and there was a cute expression pack right away, saying that you must arrange dinner at once! Just tomorrow! Please rub it alone, in the same place, make yourself at home, I am very happy!
I put my mobile phone back on the bed and got out of bed to pack my backpack. He didn't open his eyes in a daze and asked me what I was doing. I said that I went downstairs to buy some oranges to eat, and suddenly I wanted to eat them, and my tone was still very calm.
He muttered indifferently that I would go to the one downstairs to buy it. Don't go far.
After going out, my sense of calm suddenly disappeared. I squatted at the door and wanted to cry, but I couldn't. I think it's ridiculous. I can't laugh. I don't know whether to question him or just break up, and I don't understand why. Boyfriend began to share life with another girl, began to accept the joys and sorrows of other girls, and began to become soul mates with other girls.
He didn't react until the early morning, called me and found that all social software had been hacked by me. He looked puzzled. He probably clicked on the girl's unread message and didn't understand what it was until he saw the sentence of congratulations.
Drove to my house overnight, blocked the door early in the morning, confessed to my parents in tears, and got my mother. My mother called me for no reason and asked me to go home. By the time I got home, he had sincerely shown his mobile phone to three parents, sincerely admitted his mistake, swore to God that he really didn't have an affair, admitted that he did not handle his work properly, and then asked me to forgive him.
Although my parents are angry, they think it's no big deal. They think that boys are wrong, but the chat content is normal and they often don't have a baby wife, and they don't cheat in their behavior. This is a piece of cake. If you are angry, give it a step, and your mother is still laughing here.
So it became, he repented alone, three people advised me, and I sat on the sofa alone and looked on coldly, with no waves in my heart.
It's been five months since we broke up, and he's trying to save me every day. He and his tutor took a long vacation and came to have dinner and class with me from time to time. When I returned to the dormitory, he just sat on the sofa in the lobby of my dormitory and waited for me pitifully.
Unlike my parents, he knows very well how serious this is for both of us, whether the boundary between men and women should be like this, and he knows that he agrees with me from beginning to end, but even so, he has done it.
He knew exactly what he was thinking, whether he was addicted to that so-called friendship, and so was I.
We both know that our relationship can't come back, and neither can I. It's over between us. But he didn't dare to face up to the consequences he knew from the beginning. He refused to accept all the facts.
Does my heart ache? Am I making a mountain out of a molehill?
One night in senior two, the class was noisy. He finished the physics problem for me. I went back to continue my homework and was poked in the back. He suddenly asked me, do you want to fall in love?
I looked at him blankly. He suddenly spoke very fast and his voice was very low. I'm serious. I want to fall in love with you.
I still can't forget his expression at that moment, serious, nervous and persistent. I can't forget volunteering for the college entrance examination. I slipped to a city far away from him in Qian Shan. I cried on his shoulder, and his mouth comforted me, but his eyes were red. He was admitted to the ideal school as he wished.
There is also New Year's Eve in senior year. I just finished my postgraduate exam and flew to find him without telling him. His roommate cheated him. I suddenly ran out at the moment when the fireworks were set off. He looked at me for a long time and asked me in particular if I would get married after my master's degree. After graduate school, we went to see the house together. The agent asked him what kind of apartment he liked. He shook his hand and said, don't ask me, I like whatever my wife likes.
He has always been very kind to me, even though he has been in frequent contact with that girl this year, he is still very kind to me.
My mom said he didn't cheat again. After so many years of love, you two rarely even quarreled, and finally broke up because of chatting with other girls. Can you give up?
I just don't understand, obviously nothing has happened, our feelings have not deteriorated, everything is moving towards the future smoothly and happily, and our future is almost clearly printed in front of us. As long as we move forward normally, there will be a happy ending. Why did he suddenly stop to hold someone's hand?
He looked at me so seriously. In the noisy classroom, we stared at each other for a long time. I nodded, and then he smiled with relief. He raised his chin while turning the pen, and proudly told me that next time, don't be shy to ask questions. Feel free to ask your boyfriend questions.
I really want to go back to that time.
Eight years of love ruined everything in just one night. Half a year has passed, and I still feel in a trance. Up to now, I occasionally feel unreal, and I will ask myself, did I really break up? Isn't all this a dream?
In fact, many things have a clue in retrospect. For example, he hasn't mentioned that girl in front of me for a year. For example, on Sundays of the weekly group meeting, he always replies to my messages very late. For example, when he chatted with me, there were many expression packs of cocoa sex that he had never seen before. It's just that I've been too stupid and confident about the emotional foundation of these eight years, and I woke up overnight.
On his way back from England, I casually asked if anyone else asked him to buy it for me, but he said no, just brought it for me. He also complained that he couldn't tell the essence water from the essence dew at the counter. He won't want to waste time on another person except me.
The girl asked him on WeChat, can you figure out what I want to buy? If he answers her, he has to figure out how he can buy you the wrong one if he doesn't know. I still want to mix.
Last autumn, on my birthday night, we had dinner face to face in a restaurant. After the candle was lit, I closed my eyes for half a minute and made a wish before opening my eyes. He looked down at his mobile phone. I asked him what was wrong. He pressed it and told me it was okay. The tutor sent a message in the group, and he took a look. Then smile and let me blow out the candles.
Later, when I looked through the chat records, at that time that night, 30 seconds after I closed my eyes, it happened that the girl sent him a message, and the library suddenly lost power. I'm so scared of 0.0.
On New Year's Eve, I curled up under the bed to contact him. At zero, there are fireworks outside. He suddenly asked me to go out. He is in front of my house. I jumped out of bed happily, put on my down jacket and trousers and went out. I didn't wear a sweater and went out happily in an empty shell down jacket.
Within two minutes after I hung up on him, changed my clothes and went out to see him, the girl sent him a Happy New Year and went to bed early. Oh, he called her back. Happy New Year and good night.
The night I checked his cell phone, he drove me to my school to pick me up for the weekend.
Just after class, I walked out of the teaching building with my roommate. He stood under the osmanthus tree in front of the building and waited for me. The male students who came out of the class one after another heckled me, and my classmates greeted him. He stood there staring at me with a smile. I walked over and he naturally took my bag and bowed his head to talk to me.
Just ten minutes before I saw him after class, he was still sharing a song with a girl. The girl asked him what he was doing, and he said he was waiting for his girlfriend to finish class. The girl sent a full stop, and he sent a clever expression pack.
I looked through his mobile phone to see the chat records of that night, but I can't remember many time points, but when did these four time points happen when we got along, what gap, and how did he get distracted and reply to the news? I am very calm.
I sat by the bed and turned over the records, and he slept next to me. I can still clearly remember how sincerely I wanted him to be healthy and safe and how sincerely I wanted us to be together forever in those 30 seconds when I closed my eyes. I can still clearly remember the excitement of jumping out of bed and putting on my down jacket outside the window, and his gentle and considerate eyes when he smiled and watched me step by step out of the teaching building.
What is the reason for breaking up? Just because he has a speech act that can't be strictly defined even by cheating bosom friends?
No, it's because he inserted too many pieces belonging to others into the gap between our feelings. His heart has been free, and his feelings and even love have given half to others. The first person he wants to share is often not me.
We acquiesced in the emotional principles and bottom lines for so many years, but he quietly erased or even deviated.
I've been thinking about it for a long time. What is the reason? What happened to our relationship a year ago? What I find most unacceptable is that there is no problem and no reason. If we have to find out the reason, it is that we have been together for too many years, and our relationship is too smooth and quiet. There was no wave, and he was a little tired.
After breaking up, he pestered me for a long time, until his tutor couldn't accept that he had deviated from the core topic for a long time at school and called him back. But on my birthday, Monday, he still came and accompanied me for a day's class.
I haven't talked to him for a long time. I asked him after class that night, do you want to eat? He suddenly looked up at me. I took him to a soybean milk shop nearby.
With the heat of soybean milk, I asked him, what were you thinking after I made a wish at this time last year?
He doesn't understand me.
I asked him with tears, is she worried about the power failure in the library or does she want to spend her birthday with me every year?
Actually, I didn't want to cry. I've been calm since we broke up. I didn't cry in front of him, nor did I show any weakness. I always thought that I handled my emotional control and breakup process well and rationally, but it was not until I cried that I realized how much I cared about his wandering heart at this moment last year.
Don't I have a roommate? Don't I have a group meeting every week? Aren't we going to have a meeting for dinner together? Won't I have frequent contact with my classmates because I am in charge of the project?
But I always have three people having dinner together every week. If another girl from the same school can't go, I won't have dinner with boys. We also stayed alone to discuss the same topic after class because we were in charge of it, and went to the canteen to eat and continue our conversation because the discussion lasted too long. But after the discussion, they will leave separately, and they will not go back to the dormitory in the same way after dinner. When you finish this matter on WeChat, send an ok, and the chat will stop here.
It is raining. I was trapped in the library without an umbrella. I asked my roommate for help. The computer is broken. In the alley at the school gate, it can be done for 20 yuan. Why ask the opposite sex who is not my boyfriend?
I can. Can't you? You can't. Is it really because friendship lasts forever?
After breaking up for so long, I finally cried in front of him. The moment he finally understood what I was talking about, I felt his endless regret and pain. I believe that during the time when we broke up, he thought about this question countless times, and he might even be confused. Why did his temporary friendship lead us to the end of breaking up? Am I too harsh? Should I at least give him a chance?
But I also believe that at this moment, he really realized what he had done in the past year.
I agree that human nature is fragile, love is not eternal, and feelings cannot be pure forever. I can understand that he will have a moment of freedom. But I can't understand his connivance and acquiescence in the development of this so-called friendship for a long time after he left, and how he treated me and my love for him as fools for a whole year.
Even now, I still want to believe that after we are over. He will never have any unnecessary involvement with other girls, let alone start a new relationship with her.
I just once believed in his prudence and singleness, but now I have begun to feel vague and suspicious. Is the tacit understanding I thought really a tacit understanding? I thought he was really like this? I don't understand and I don't know.
After the birthday, we completely lost contact. In the past two months, I hung up the small house my parents bought in his city and prepared to sell it.
I'm not going to settle in that city. My school here is also quite good, the water is good, the economy is good and the living expenses are not too high. I haven't decorated it yet, and he has been blocking my decoration. He is angry about why he also has a house. We are only one step away from getting married, and I have to decorate my little house. It doesn't matter. This saves me the trouble.
I never thought that marriage would be a shackle that bound me. I intend to get married, because I am willing to spend my life with him and be his lifelong companion. But now that it's over, marriage is no longer a necessity for me.
Therefore, there is no possibility that the man I meet next is far behind him. I won't forgive him because he may be the best person to get married, and I won't have to make do with finding someone to get married because of my age and traditional ideas.