Then, it is: life is hard to find.
When you were 9 years old, your parents divorced. I don't know how your life was then. When I was 9 years old, my parents were no longer around, and I had gone to the fields to do farm work. My family condition is very poor. My advantage over you may be that I have been at school. Although my home is bitter, it is still warm.
Living happily is also very simple, just have a normal heart and a grateful heart! You already know this society, so try to adapt! A tutor once said to me: this society is very complicated and society will not adapt to you. You can only choose to adapt to society! It's old, but it's real, isn't it? I think your experience should be no less than mine.
I don't think there is anything hateful about the primary school culture you mentioned. In today's society, asking for help is only a part. You can have a career without a diploma, but you can't have the ability. I also have friends with primary school culture around me, but they all live better than others.
Weakness is about people and things. Some things say that weakness is appropriate, and some things say that weakness is inappropriate. There is a saying: He who knows the times is a hero. There is another sentence: not sharing the same sky. I think these two sentences, together with the above-mentioned sense of normality and gratitude, should be enough if you figure it out.
Nothing: now you, 2 1 year-old, are in the prime of life, which is similar to your age before you officially entered the workplace. Then I have nothing. But there is a saying: youth is our greatest capital. Of course, there is also a premise: hard-working youth! It's a long way to go, Xiu Yuan. It's too early to say!
As for your confusion, I actually think you are rich. You have been out of society 10 for many years. What kind of things have you never seen? Compared with people who have been in school for more than ten years, your experience is enough to be their teacher. Isn't there something worth learning from more than ten years' experience? Why don't you think about it? Think more about the things around you or what you have experienced, and I think you will gain something.
People who hate themselves dare not face it: you said something below: I don't want to live like this! That means you have enough courage. Since you said you didn't want to, you should have the courage to change your life and destiny! I am familiar with that sentence, and I will tell you so much because of that sentence! Because this sentence keeps me going, and I believe you do, too! Let me tell you something I told myself when I was a child: there are no eternal winners and no eternal losers in the world! Believe in yourself, change yourself and create capital for yourself!
I don't know what you did in your 10 years, but you are the best in your career. I think you should have more than one job in 10 year. You can learn from these jobs or useful things, think slowly and expand into your own things!
Finally, think more and work harder. Even if it fails, it is also a kind of gain. Staying in a confused state will only make you more helpless!
Normal heart, grateful heart, I hope you will find your fighting spirit as soon as possible!