20 18 The late-night ethical drama "Double Fantasy" tells the story of TV writer Gao Yuan Naijin, from being willing to accept his old life to leaving her husband and growing up independently. Women's hidden and repressed desires, after an opportunity, are like water burst its banks and can never return to its original position. Gao Yuan Naijin made a new interpretation of his life through this passage.

Gao Yuan Naijin has two strong mothers. One is to give birth to his own mother, and the other is a husband who has been married for many years. The former is harsh on her and ashamed of being infertile. Define women's responsibilities in a traditional and ancient way. Due to years of education, Naijin has never been able to break free from her mother's bondage. And her husband Shingo is another controller. Tender and affectionate, she quit her job as a director and took her to Saitama, willing to be a housewife. Take care of her diet, but at the same time interfere with her writing. The idea that he is a man was forcibly added to her works.

Under the double bondage, she can hardly breathe. Only with the help of the characters in the TV series can she interpret the rich and burning desire in her heart. She jumped into the abyss like a moth when her university teacher Ichiro seduced her into being too naked.

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The antique mirror she bought in London is like Pandora's box. When she gently opened the box behind her husband's back, crows, bats, poisonous snakes, witches and all the dark things blocked inside rushed out, looking for their prey, subverting the world and heading for complete darkness.

The door of her desire has been opened.

The first episode of TV spent a lot of pen and ink describing Naijin's preparation before having sex with teacher Zhize. Go running for fitness and buy clothes and shoes. Glow every day until your skin shines. That night, after receiving the teacher's instructions, she was ready to go, put on a white lace skirt, sprayed perfume and put on high heels. Never had a grand dress, at this time only for teacher Zhize.

Her piety and admiration for the teacher, accompanied by this naked physical integration, reached the climax of her life. This is complete indulgence, and there is no turning back. She knew that once she set foot on this road, there was no turning back. However, she has lost her way in the ecstasy and dizziness. Even if there is a cliff ahead, she is willing to take a gamble, close her eyes and jump. To be or not to be, may God know more.

But she was soon abandoned. There are countless women around Mr. Zhize. After pestering her several times, she gets bored. In desperation, she met Ryosuke Iwai, a university senior, and asked him to make a love affair only about friendship.

The relationship between Naijin and Iwai is very special. The former has a husband, while the latter has a wife and children. They maintain a friendly relationship, but they are daily sexual partners. Naijin doesn't care about Iwai's family, and Iwai is also willing to listen to her and teacher Shizuzawa's story.

But such a relationship is doomed not to last long. Once you put your mind into another person's life, you will want more. And they seem to maintain pure friendship and sexual relationship, and gradually move towards love and control. I went to visit him in Iwai Company, but I met my wife and children who also came to the company to welcome him home. She went home alone when she got lost. As a friend, Iwai, after listening to the story of her and other men, finally could not be calm and indifferent.

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Naijin and Zhize are teachers, as well as Iwai's predecessors, the cowherd found online, and the monk Matsumoto Xiangyun who read her eyes. When she crossed this ethical boundary and explored a new road with her own body, she had abandoned her husband Wu Sheng. I can't talk to him, hug him or do anything between husband and wife.

In the past, it was unthinkable to divorce my husband to save me. Teacher Zhize abandoned her, but he also guided her to live her own life: divorce her husband, write excellent works, and be equal to him as soon as possible.

Under the impetus of teacher Zhize, she can have the courage to ask her husband for a divorce, face her mother's orders and be unmoved. What she thinks is important is not important now. What she fears can't stop her now. She began to criticize other people's works directly, defended the monologues of her TV series, and challenged and questioned Iwai's feelings. She will no longer suppress herself, say what she wants to say and do what she wants, and she will be honest and be true to herself.

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On the trip of Iwai and his wife to Bali, she met the dramatists Kobayashi and Yi. He is young, handsome and enterprising. After several meetings, they had physical relations. For Naijin, desire is an exit, and body is a way for her to explore her feelings. She gave Xiao Lin her address and let him live at home. At the same time, Iwai, who returned from his trip, was fired. Between single Kobayashi and married Iwai Yoshisuke, she chose the former as the development object.

Once, because of the divorce, I hugged her and wanted to restore the previous relationship, but she ignored it. Now, the plot is staged again. Iwai hugged her and refused to let go. Like an angry child, she can't sleep without candy. On the contrary, Nagin grew up. Once she has made up her mind, there is no room for negotiation. Because she knew that if she changed her mind, everything would fall into a cycle again. The old problem has never been solved.

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At the end of the fifth sentence, Naijin wore a newly bought bathrobe and took Xiao Lin and the wild duck by the hand to watch the fireworks show. Fireworks exploded overhead and bloomed in various ways, just like meteors in the dark night sky. She looked at the colorful fireworks everywhere, as if she saw her life, saved my life, worked hard and rocked well. These men who appeared in her life once gave her meaning. But for her, they belong to the past tense after all. No matter how beautiful the fireworks are, they are finally cold embers.

And she, even though I don't know whether happiness beckons ahead or tragedy, has no way back. All she can do is get up the courage, climb the cliff and cross the sea. Even if thorns hurt her, even if blood drips, she will go forward bravely.

Go, go straight, and walk a long way.

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At the end of this article, it is particularly necessary to mention Mizukawa Asami's acting skills. I used to hate that she was old-fashioned and didn't have enough charm to attract my attention, but I really recognized her acting skills. In Tokyo Women's Picture Book, she plays Saitou Aya, whose facial expression alone can be extremely rich. Desire, envy, jealousy, contempt, disdain, resentment, depression, sadness, embarrassment. In particular, the contemptuous expression on her eyebrows really fits a woman who came to the city from the countryside.

In Double Fantasy, her acting is another scene. Physical desire, emotional desire, can be completely released in this face covered with faint light. In the face of my husband's rescue, she only felt tired and boring; When facing teacher Zhize, she looked humble and melancholy; In the face of Iwai, she is relaxed and calm, with a smile on her eyebrows; On Xiao Lin and Yezi, her brow began to have a calculation. As an adult woman, make a rational plan for her future.

I fell in love with Mizukawa Asami from this play, but I also believe that she must be a strong person. People who don't know the world can't express deep feelings. I believe this sentence also applies to Mizukawa Asami.