Just like a lonely person, all life has a lonely taste.
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People who write are lonely.
I said that for a reason.
Because I can only write it myself, others knock down the emotions word for word as the story, and you dare not express the sadness and joy between the lines. I said that I am a contradictory person and I am also a much ado about nothing. I don't know when it started. I don't like to reveal my thoughts to others. Even my circle of friends sent out the most unforgettable things in my life. But I'm honest with words. Only the true self and the lonely self are talking. The story written is a story in the eyes of others, but in my heart I can't say it publicly in front of others.
Therefore, we always feel sorry for ourselves, knocking down the plot in your story on the cold computer, and our darkness surges at night.
A person's way home is lonely.
The noise of the city has stopped and most people are asleep. Only that person is still awake, the street lamp is still on, and there is no lamp for himself among thousands of lamps. I always feel that the road back to the rental house is too long to say, the wind is cold and the lights are lonely. I have seen such a sentence before: "The house is rented, and life is my own". I have never denied it, and even want to turn "just a life" into "just a life", and I don't want to live for the sake of life, even if a person goes home really lonely.
So what's going on? Have you ever thought that there are countless lonely people like you in this city who live and work hard, even though life often gives them a pot of cold water and a slap in the face? No one encouraged them, no one helped them, and they started in the same place again.
Single people are lonely.
Most people will feel the same way when I say this.
You may be fed dog food while eating, and you will see two figures snuggling together in the library and even downstairs in the dormitory. After all, a person's life is hard. After all, no one is thirsty, no one cares about getting sick, no one shares happiness, and no one comforts you when you are sad. You must learn to know yourself well.
Tell the truth, have you ever been afraid of someone?
I feel horrible. I am afraid that loneliness will suddenly come, and that feeling seems to be particularly strong.
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Since college, communication tools are really just communication tools. I don't like chatting with others. Occasionally, I will briefly talk about work on WeChat.
In fact, I tried not to go to WeChat for a few days, and no one looked for me. Sometimes I even feel as if I have left a normal group. Lonely people always feel that they are out of place with the busy crowd.
Most of the boring time is spent in the library and dormitory facing computer code words.
I'm not always in this state, and everyone I know is stupid and talkative.
For example, today, I can chat with my deep brother and boss Kang all night, and live far apart.
I wrote a lot about loneliness in my article, including feelings in loneliness and metaphors that may not be understood, hoping to understand the truth of loneliness.
Later, I said less and wrote less.
It's not that I'm no longer lonely, but that there are so many lonely moments that I don't feel lonely and numb that I can't feel the cold when loneliness strikes.
I also gradually found that we all have a deep misunderstanding of loneliness.
For example, I wrote a very satisfactory article in official website today, and I read a lot as a result. At this time, I feel a little lonely and feel that my efforts are in vain.
I wrote some golden sentences in the article, which were hidden in every corner of the article like hide and seek, but few people found them. At this time, I feel a little lonely and amuse myself.
Lying in bed alone at night, watching a movie, I was moved to tears by the plot inside. I feel a little lonely at this time, because there is no one around to share my feelings, and I feel a little pitiful.
It's really lonely to play games with your head down, because unlike others, you have a very important person to accompany you. Even in the game, you can only be your own hero and protect yourself.
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I often feel lonely, all in the details of life.
I think you will probably have such a moment.
I get up early to catch the early subway. When I went downstairs, I inadvertently looked up and found that most of the windows were still black, and only your bedroom was bright. First, I was annoyed that I had to go upstairs and turn off the lights, and then I felt vaguely lonely.
When I came home from work late at night, I looked up again. Most windows are bright, but only your window is black. At this time, I will feel lonely and feel that I have no branch to follow.
Listen to a song when you are sad, be loved when you are in a bad mood, be disturbed when you want to be alone, go to the restaurant alone, go to the movies alone and live alone.
Very melodramatic, true, too melodramatic to admit, too real to be used to.
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Do you think these are really lonely?
No, you are afraid of being alone, of getting used to being alone, and of being alone in the future.
In fact, to put it bluntly, we are not alone, we are just worried about one person.
We are always worried that we are not understood, that we can't find true love, that our work and life are not smooth, and that we are worried about all kinds of emergencies.
However, after being disturbed by these things, when the mood fell to the bottom, we were all labeled as lonely.
When you write an article that no longer pursues reading and is no longer eager to be recognized by others, you become more and more aware of the reasons for your writing. You are just sticking to one thing you like, regardless of other people's eyes and recognition. I don't feel lonely without being understood.
When you squeeze the last subway home alone, when you walk on your way back alone and everyone around you is in a hurry to catch the last train, so many people like you are struggling, persisting, falling down, getting up and starting over in this city.
Do you still feel lonely?
A person goes to eat what he likes, says he will leave, and a person goes to the library, reading and writing. You are as free as the wind in the eyes of countless people. No one sleeps at night, and there is no life in my heart. It's really cool.
All loneliness is a prison that we draw for ourselves. We always lead an exaggerated dog life. If we get sick, we will get sick. Isn't it just as good to take medicine and drip yourself? Don't you feel tired of not being recognized by others and understanding what you think is right?
For a change, there is not much mutual understanding in this world.
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A person's life is a bit lonely, but not necessarily lonely. The days of two people sometimes feel lonely.
People who make do with loneliness will become more and more lonely.
Because that person may not live in your heart.
You don't lack company, there is a gap in your heart.
What you need is something that can really fill the gap in your heart.
So what you are afraid of is not loneliness, but fighting alone.
However, the real solution to loneliness is not to find a companion casually, but to like someone you really like, do what you like, and associate with your favorite circle.
You only enrich your life bit by bit, and that sense of fullness won't make you feel lonely.
It's 1 20 in the morning, my old friends are asleep, and I am typing these words on the computer alone. Now I don't feel lonely. On the contrary, I think I had a good time. I don't have to worry about my writing not being appreciated. My only worry is whether I will die suddenly if I often stay up late.
Life should have all kinds of joys and sorrows, enjoy the wonderful life and complain about the misfortune of life at that time.
Having said that, I just want to tell you.
You're not alone. You're just worried about someone.
But don't worry, you are never alone.
Because, with me.