Speaking of our story, I don't know why it has become like this. I still remember how much I love you. Well, it's just love.
In the third grade, our physics teacher, my aunt, suggested to the class teacher that she wanted to change my deskmate. That's it. It is you.
My aunt told me on the phone that she wanted to change her deskmate to you. I just froze for a moment, and then pretended to be particularly reluctant to say anything, hmm.
I'm really looking forward to my first day at your desk. I took a bath, washed my school uniform, took care of my hair and bought some nice pens. Just to impress you.
On the first day at the same table, the Chinese teacher tested ancient poems from memory. I find your Chinese is very poor. My former deskmate was super good at Chinese. I don't recite ancient poems every exam. I can copy them from my former deskmate. But now, I don't like reciting ancient poems all the time. Let me recite them for you.
I remember you always caught a cold. Not because of poor health, but because I can't wear clothes. How cold it is, you wear a thin coat. This is the north, not Jiangnan. I don't remember to bring a tissue every time I catch a cold. So every time, I will prepare a pack of cigarettes and a garbage bag for you.
I remember you liked playing basketball on the physical education class. I dare not look directly at it, but only occasionally glance at it. You've been sweating since you played ball. You love cleanliness and always forget to bring wet wipes. So every time physical education class finishes class, I go back to work early to help you prepare wet wipes.
I remember sitting at the same table with you for so long, as if I had never seen you bring a pencil case. Almost all of them are my pens. Besides, the pens I borrowed from you have not been seen since. Either you lost it, or you took it home for a while.
I remember you talking about math problems earlier. Your shoelaces are always like that, one is tied tightly and the other is hardly tied.
I remember that you answered the problem given by the class teacher correctly, and the class teacher gave you a piece of candy happily. You gave me candy. You said you had a sore throat and didn't want to eat sugar. The next day, during my only lunch break, I went to the pharmacy not far from school to buy medicine for you. Also, hurry you to eat. But when I got home, it was really a brain tonic. What if you are allergic to one of the ingredients of this medicine? What should I do if I take too much medicine? What if the medicine I bought for you just expired? All kinds of accidents. The next morning, I was relieved to see you come to school normally and nothing happened.
I remember preparing for the exam, and you always liked to sleep in class. I can only pay attention to whether you are sleeping when you are listening to the class. I can't help laughing when I see the way you nod your head when you sleep. Inadvertently found that your eyelashes are beautiful, not too long or too thick, just grow into the radian of my love. I nudged you, "Hey! Wake up, don't sleep. "
I remember you didn't like taking notes. So every time I take notes, I will remind you, "What are you doing? Take notes! " Sometimes, you are fast asleep and have important notes to remember. I couldn't bear to wake you up, so I made two copies myself. The other is in your book.
There was a mid-term exam, and we made a bet that whoever was in the front row would buy Tiramisu of Magado for the person who was about to be behind. As a result, I am usually in the top ten in my class, and I am still behind you. That's it. You bought me a margarita. But what I wanted was Tiramisu, but it turned into a chocolate mousse you gave me. I didn't complain, I just said "thank you"
You said you and, uh, it was over. I asked if it was because of me. You said no. I added, don't mention it again. I listened to your words and chose silence. I am afraid that when the evil wind blows, I will be scolded black and blue. Later, I learned that because of me, you and Er became the most familiar strangers. I feel horrible. I was scared. However, I have never loved anyone so passionately and timidly, and you happen to be the first one. I didn't choose to let go. Even if I was insulted, I didn't want to give up on you. I finally found it.
Once, we were chatting online and my parents found out. Actually, there's nothing wrong with it. My parents confiscated my mobile phone and cut me off from the outside world just because you are a boy. My mother cried, afraid that I was too young to understand the world. I think the reason why she cried is more because I quarreled with her for the first time, which has always been clever.
Once you took a one-dollar coin and said you would give it to me. I'm happy, but I don't want to show it to you. I said, "Do you think I am a beggar?" You laughed without saying a word, and I took the coin and put it in the pencil box. A few days later, you rummaged through my pencil box. I took it away because I still had the coins you gave me. If you have any skeletons in your closet, you must read it. I had no choice but to hand it to you silently. You found the coin. You smiled and said, "So you value what I gave you so much?" I replied helplessly, "Are you too narcissistic? I'm just afraid that one day I'll get lost, so I can take the bus and take the money home. " With that, I got the coin back and put it back in my pencil box. I want to tell you more, because you gave it to me. What should I do? I am such a Capricorn.
I remember a sentence I saw in Weibo. Capricorn loves a person and will tell him all her secrets. It suddenly occurred to me that I once told you in the second grade that I liked him in the next class. Unfortunately, he likes my backstage Joe. So Joe and I are like roses and gypsophila paniculata, so gypsophila paniculata has become my favorite flower.
When I applied, my parents insisted that I go to S high school, and your parents wanted you to go to T high school. I asked where you were going. You said you wanted to go to S high school, but your mother wanted you to go to T high school. I didn't say anything. Until the time of filling in the volunteer, you promised your mother that you would be admitted to S high school at public expense, so your mother cried and filled in S high school for you.
Take a political lesson after the exam. You hold your paper tightly and suddenly say, do you know what is written on this paper? I shook my head. Do you want to know? I just sighed and thought about how to answer you. Just say, you grab this paper ball and I'll tell you what it is. Well, I really got it, and you didn't expect it. "Can you be my female ticket after the senior high school entrance examination?" That's what the note says. I was speechless and just nodded.
You seem to have changed a little since I remember this. Especially for Joe. You've done a lot for her, and sometimes I even think you like Joe. I told these things to Mu Zi. Mu Zi is Joe's deskmate. She thinks you have gone too far, but Mu Zi said, "Don't think so much, it won't be what you think."
On the afternoon of graduation ceremony, all the students were busy taking pictures. Onion pulled me to take a photo with you, and I said wait until there are fewer people. The onion said, "Don't regret it if you can't shoot it." There are fewer people, even you are gone. I know, you went to the Internet cafe near the school to play LOL. I didn't complain, but kept saying "what a pity" to the onion.
After the senior high school entrance examination, I will be your female ticket. I was excited when I thought about it.
I was admitted to S high school at public expense, but you missed by three points to attend an international class at your own expense.
I send a message to comfort you. I don't know if you saw it, but you didn't reply to me.
Several days passed, and you said nothing, so you took an international class. You never mentioned that I was your female ticket again.
After a long time, you sent a message. I saw it was you, so I stopped looking.
After reading your news, I didn't expect you and Joe to chat so happily.
I choose to disappear from your world.
Mu Zi asked me why you did it.
I don't know.
Remember that coin? Then I put it in my wallet. I went to Jiangnan. When I was in Jiangnan, I occasionally took out my wallet and looked at coins. But the next day after returning to the north, I can't find it now. Perhaps it chose to stay in the warm south of the Yangtze River.
After school starts, you meet me at the school gate. I don't know what to do. I just left my peers' onions and wanted to run alone in the distance. It's raining. I heard you calling me from behind. I ran until I couldn't run. We met in a corner, and I dare not look up into your eyes. You just asked me, "Do you want an umbrella?" I shook my head several times and said no. Then he walked away alone.
In the evening, the onion sent a message saying that you wanted her to take a message.
You're not a monster, I am.
After that, we may meet occasionally in the teaching building, but that's just a meeting.
In the monthly exam, I was the last in my class. The ranking of the whole school was posted on the Internet. You are more than 500, and I 1000. Someone is whispering. Come on. I replied politely, well, thank you. I don't know if that's you, but it better not be.
A week passed, and someone sent a new whisper. It is you. You asked me if we could still be together.
I don't know what to do.
I sent the screenshots to Mu Zi, Onion and Surabaya.
Onion is the first to reply to me. If you don't like others, just say so.
I don't know if I still like you. I choose to reply to you after a while.
Mu Zi replied happily: "Together!" I actually replied, "I don't want to." Mu Zi told me that if you are happy, don't bother others.
Like water, I haven't figured out who crooned. I said it was you. She asked me how I knew it was you. I didn't reply. I know it's you, because I liked you after all, really.
However, it was only once. I finally know how to answer this question. There are too many stories between us, but not all the protagonists are us.
"The more I want to remember things, the more I can't remember. The more I want to forget things, the more I can't forget them. You have your way to go, and I have my dreams to pursue. Sorry, I can only accompany you here. Don't cross this fork in the road. There will be better people to accompany you in the future. I hope you can have a dream and work hard for it. Well, that's it. "
This is my last reply to you. I think you have seen it, but you just don't want to reply.
I know that's because of your immaturity. Now that you have grown up, you must be responsible. Don't be nice to other girls if you have a female ticket, because one will be jealous and the other will be moved. When I saw this sentence in Weibo, I thought of you first. Because I am the one who is sad and jealous. But I am distressed and worried about Joe, so I can only leave you.
I tell you, my dream is to be a professional writer.
You said I had to give it to you when I published the book.
All right, I'll give it to you.
Well, that's it.
I have always been forgetful, and I can't remember many things I have done and said. I just can't forget you and those stories. Occasionally, I saw your name on the advertisement wall of S High School, remembering that I was young and I loved you.
I am not writing this article for love, for remembrance, for remembrance.
Just to forget.
The mid-term exam is coming again, but now there is no one to bet with me.
Well, that's it.