The first time I left home to participate in group life was in a boarding school in junior high school. When a child's innocence was betrayed for the first time and he was at a loss, Xiao Liang appeared. As the name implies, A Liang looks cool and looks like an unfamiliar stranger. However, in the end, it was only because they were all young, childlike, and not long, or because of the same dormitory, they played together. After quarreling with Yi Jie Jin Lan's sister, I was silent for a while. She didn't try to comfort me, but stayed with me. Looking at such a girl, studying hard and living hard, how can she not seriously continue the next road? A Liang's parents are very busy and seldom take care of her. She said that she didn't believe in heaven for a long time, but she still lived a hard life. She is a very distressing child, sensible and determined.
Every school holiday, we always go home together. The ancient urban and rural public transport, therefore, carries a warm period of time. I always let her sit first when there is a vacancy in the car. She will hold our big schoolbag with her little arms. There is no place. When there are many people, I pull the crossbar and she hugs me. When there are not many people but there is no place to stand, she will rest on my shoulder. In order to alleviate her carsickness, I will read her story. A car full of hometown dialect, mixed with a little girl's serious Mandarin. At that time, I always felt that some things would be engraved in my memory forever. Maybe it's because of the holiday, or because of taking care of her. Every time I go back to my grandmother's house, I always feel that the rapeseed on the roadside is particularly beautiful and golden, which makes people's eyes smile like a crescent moon. Later, I went to school and left the small town, but she stayed there and went to the local high school. In the era without instant messaging, we can only send plum blossom fish to lay a ruler, but we still can't get around the flood brought by time and gradually lose contact.
New journey, there will be new encounters. For three years in high school, I was entangled with Pettitte for three years. In the end, no one can figure it out, but they are inexplicably intimate. I don't remember why I approached and why I had a cold war for a year. I only remember that she was angry and didn't go back to the dormitory. At nine o'clock in the evening, I called her name all over the campus and forgot to be afraid. I'm afraid I can't find her, and my voice is trembling. I remember, because of an unknown thing, after the quarrel, she went home angrily without waiting for me to be on duty. Walking into the alley, I saw a girl wearing headphones under the last street lamp. Her short hair quietly covered her side face, and the MP4 light went out obviously. At that moment, I saw a beautiful silhouette that was usually scary in the night. I remember the afternoon before the college entrance examination, I stayed at her house for an excuse, lying in bed with her, and reading different books. Until dusk, she was unusually quiet and didn't abandon me. On the whole, we all predicted the coming of the fork in the road. At that time, we could not accept the difference, but tacitly chose stubborn strength.
Unexpectedly failed in the college entrance examination. Before leaving, she said to me, Come on, I don't have the courage like you to do it again. I never think about how many people have been hurt by this unexpected stay. Because, the biggest influence is the proud self all those years. That summer vacation, I was unusually silent and fragile. I thought it would be a different gray year, but I became very excited because of Bin's appearance.
Bin is the most careless girl I have ever seen. We are almost the kind of "love at first sight", and the magnetic field cannot be combined. She is like a little sun. Seeing her is always full of energy. I went to school, she stayed, studied for half a day at the weekend, and the two of them began to rampage in the town. The playground is in a daze, the bookstore reads books, chats by the lake and opens letters to each other. The life of two people will not be too lonely. Many times, I like to stand on the balcony outside the classroom after lunch break, basking in the sun, and then watch her fly like lightning and run into the teaching building five minutes before class begins. It's good to see her panting in her seat. I always smell full of fireworks.
On one occasion, Bin did badly in the math exam. After the evening lessons, I looked at her at my desk. I am so poor that I can only be silent. I had to secretly put a box of her favorite candy on the dormitory bed before I went home. After the New Year, we care more than anyone, but we never say that we are afraid of the scores on those examination papers. From the day we decided, all this became the weight we had to bear after the choice. On the same day before the college entrance examination, I accompanied her to the supermarket. When I was about to break up, she handed me a can of coffee and said to me seriously: Come on, at that moment, I saw hundreds of millions of stars shining in her eyes. My tears fell on the physics paper. She persisted in the exam despite her stomachache. We swore to ourselves in the moment of silence lying on the playground and finally ushered in the final decisive battle. On the day I left, the wind was light and the clouds were light, and everything was normal. Usually, I thought it was just a dream to give up that year and try my best.
The college entrance examination completely faded out of life, and Bin and I also ushered in a space distance. Although we are all studying in Nanjing, Nanjing is too big to be a county town where we can go around by bike. We also began to get busy. Who said that the position in our hearts is limited, and now some people occupy the corner, and some people will leave.
God seems to have played a joke on me, but the result of the second college entrance examination still makes me very depressed. So I remained silent in the university, isolated from the crowd. Once proud, I began to restrain my curiosity. Living a life of 3.1, stuffed with headphones all day. I have never rebelled and started my later rebellious period. Stubbornly draw the ground as a prison, unwilling to be presumptuous and unwilling to work hard, just willing to muddle along. At this moment, I met Zhen Zhen, who is two years older than me. She is the assistant head teacher of our class.
In the ancient capital of the Six Dynasties, it was always rainy in summer. The night before the final exam, I really shouted in the group whether anyone would get wet after tomorrow. Then, my heart moved. In fact, I have planned this matter for a long time, but I just don't know why it has been put on hold. The desire in the heart, once ignited, is the trend of starting a prairie fire. So, the next night, we indulged for more than two hours, and our clothes were slowly soaked. The summer rain hit us, and the refreshing room was a bit cold. Heavy rain, pouring on my face, shortness of breath, but my body and mind are unusually smooth. Every deep breath is like a self-release. In the end, I can't tell whether it is tears on my face or rain, and my grievances are completely vented with the rain. Two people were standing on the playground treading water and cursing each other. Few students pass by and occasionally look around. We didn't care, but we still didn't know whether to cry or laugh. Finally, we were tired and lay barefoot on the playground with our fingers clasped.
After that, I really stopped being just a passer-by in my life. She is always crazy and heartless, and there is nothing to worry about with her. It is really a meaningless happy time for two people to bully each other's world, spit out people they don't like, spit out things they don't like, and always go back to Mars to call people. When we went to Xiamen to play together, I fell asleep unconsciously every night when I was tired. When I wake up, I will find that she has made a good strategy. Our clothes were hung on the balcony of the inn yesterday. This should be the first time since I grew up that I felt taken care of by my friends when I was a child. I've always been self-reliant. When I meet my friends, I try my best to take care of them. I am very grateful. I like children in the sea. It was the first time that she stood by the sea with me.
After graduating from work in a blink of an eye, I picked up contact with them one by one, worked in the same city as Zhen Zhen, and often got together, watched movies and learned to swim together. The children's circle still teases each other, meets occasionally, or talks endlessly. Bin has returned to her hometown. When she is unhappy, I am used to giving her candy. A Liang is still alone, stubbornly and seriously alive, and I just played her occasional audience. But that's it. I'm satisfied. I am happy to participate in their lives and give them some energy once in a while.
After all, in hundreds of billions of earthly lives, I met too many people and too many stories, which could only be drowned in the huge torrent of time. What I can leave behind is not the guests, but the indispensable starlight in my life. Today, I can still write and listen to songs. I want to always convey my goodwill to the world, because once, when I was ready to give up, they gave me the motivation to continue to warm up.
Some people are a flash in the pan and there is no trace to be found. It doesn't matter. We are treated gently by time, and the goodwill we convey will warm them sooner or later. I like myself very much now, no matter what kind of predicament, I will look at myself with a smile. A Liang said that because of the family atmosphere, I can live like this all the time. But I know that without her, 13-year-old girl has long lost the direction of sunshine because of her friend's betrayal.
Because I happened to meet you, and I am me.
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