In the spring of 2009, on a moonlit night, my son entered a sweet dream. Liu Qin sat at her desk, and in the soft light, she opened her diary. Seeing the above words, Liu Qin smiled with relief, and her thoughts drifted back to her beautiful youth ten years ago.
0 1
Time is gone forever, and the four-year study time in college is coming to an end. Wang Lu, Zhang Meili and Liu Qin, three classmates who have been together for more than three years, will also say goodbye and go their separate ways.
"At present, the employment situation of our college students is not optimistic. I wonder if you two have any plans? " Zhang Meili is a talkative person. He asks questions first.
"No matter what the current situation is, I firmly believe that knowledge will always be the driving force for human progress. I don't want to waste this great youth. I also want to learn more knowledge, so I am preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination. " Wang Lu, who has always studied the hardest, said confidently.
"You bookworm will marry a book in the future." Zhang Meili joked that she stuffed snacks into her mouth.
"That's great. Ancient and modern sages said that the book has its own golden house, and the book has its own Yan Ruyu ... "Wang Lu's words haven't finished yet.
"Give me a tissue!" It was Liu Qin who suddenly interrupted them. She was in tears, but she couldn't bear to take her eyes off the book and reach for a tissue to wipe her tears.
"You are a spoony person, waste some tears to worry about the amorous childe spoony woman in that book. Who cares about your future? " As he spoke, he stuffed Liu with folded paper towels.
"You poison heavy not shallow! Immersed in the world of novels such as Peach Blossom Fan, Dream of Red Mansions, Butterfly Lovers, and Heavy Rain, the tears you shed for the hero and heroine in recent years can all be merged into a river! " Wang Lu also grabbed Liu Qin's book with a smile.
"Love is sacred and beautiful. Only when you fall in love with someone will you realize the magic of love. " Liu Qin answered seriously.
At this point, everyone fell silent, yes, which girl is not in love? Which girl doesn't want to fall in love with her prince charming, and which girl doesn't want to be with her lover for a long time?
02
Liu Qin said that he would accompany Yang Hao back to his hometown to recuperate for a period of time. Yang Hao went through the formalities of dropping out of school. Everyone looked at Yang Jie, a former senior, and now he is skinny and a little sad. The monitor handed over 6,543,800 yuan donated by the teacher and the whole class to Yang Hao. At this time, Yang Hao could no longer restrain himself and hid his face and burst into tears. Liu Qin accepted the money for him and made a deep bow to his classmates.
After Liu Qin left, the dormitory seemed a little deserted. Wang Lu and Zhao Qian said with deep feelings: "The love game is so magical that Liu Qin is willing to give up everything to accompany Yang Hao."
"This is stupid! What a fool! No matter how spoony a woman is, she will be destroyed by love. That's pathetic! Liu, one of the four talented women in the Tang Dynasty, is such an extraordinary woman. She must be beautiful and talented, and she has never really loved in her life. In the romantic arena, she has read countless men and recognized the essence of men. She sighed, it is easy to have priceless treasure, but it is rare to have a lover! Aren't the teachings of the ancients profound enough? Never believe in eternal love. "
It is deeply regrettable that Zhang Meili.
Of course, roommates understand Zhang Meili's mood, because they know that Zhang Meili is deeply hurt by love. When she was a freshman, Zhang Meili's beauty, as the name suggests, attracted the pursuit of her senior year. They fell in love at first sight, and many students envy your kindness and love.
The popular concept of love on university campus, which does not seek eternity but once had, also influenced Zhang Meili. In her boyfriend's sweet words of "I love you all my life" and "I will marry you if I succeed in my studies". Under her promise, Zhang Meili dedicated her precious virginity to her boyfriend.
Just when Zhang Meili had the deepest feelings for her boyfriend, her boyfriend was going to study abroad. Zhang Meili, who suffered from emotional distress, lost a circle. To make matters worse, her boyfriend who has been abroad for less than a year sent her a few words: I have found true love, and I hope you can find your own happiness. "
Why does a love only leave bitter memories? This feeling is hard to continue, and this hatred is hard to disappear! Isn't my relationship with him true love?
Zhang Meili, who was driven crazy, sneered at love from now on.
Zhang Meili, who used to dress up, dressed herself more enchanting and moving. She seldom refuses to ask out her boy. When she is eating and shopping, she always looks at the man affectionately. Once people have feelings for her, she will leave without mercy. It is her pleasure to make men suffer: this girl loves money, not you smelly men.
03
Bump all the way, Liu Qin accompanied Yang Hao to fall off the car three times, and finally sat on a donkey and pulled a cart over a mountain, and finally reached Yang Hao's house. She only knows that Yang Hao's parents are honest farmers, and they live a farming life that depends on the weather.
But what Liu Qin didn't expect was that Yang Hao's family was poor enough to be described by the walls of his family. Three shabby houses, two for sleeping and one for cooking. There is only a simple wooden table and two wooden chairs against the wall in the living room. There is a heatable adobe sleeping platform in front of the window. There is a bamboo mat on the kang, and there are two quilts lying alone on the corner of the kang.
Seeing this, Liu Qin is more admired and grateful to him! In such a family environment, Yang Hao can be admitted to the undergraduate university with excellent results! This proves that he is a hard worker, and he doesn't love the wrong person. Living conditions are so hard, no wonder he has stomach trouble. Although he has, it is not easy to study! At this time, Liu Qin had an unforgettable feeling for Yang Hao. She seemed to forget everything around her, holding Yang Hao's head and crying.
Yang Hao gently pushed Liu Qin away with tears and reminded her: "Don't scare your parents."
Liu Qin just turned my back and sobbed. Yang Jie's parents stared at their son with wide eyes. I don't know what happened.
Yang Hao held back his tears and smiled and said to his parents, "She is my girlfriend. I'll take her to our house later. "
My father just smiled happily, and my mother pursed her mouth and smiled happily.
Liu Qin helps Yang Hao's mother cook. The smoke in the kitchen hall made her cry, and she could hardly open her eyes. She imitated the dumb mother, took a deep breath and blew into the kitchen hall, only to find that a flame suddenly burst out and burned her bangs. She quickly rubbed her hair and eyes. Yang Hao's father went into the kitchen and said quickly, "Baby, you go to rest and I'll make a fire."
Liu Qin embarrassedly ran to the room to find Yang Hao. And lying in bed, seeing his girlfriend's mess, he couldn't help laughing. "Look at yourself in the mirror."
Under the guidance of her boyfriend, Liu Qin saw an irregular glass mirror nailed to the earth wall. His face in the mirror was painted like a singing face by black coal, and the hair on his forehead was curled up.
She also bent over with laughter, which made her stomach ache. Yang Hao looked at his girlfriend's pure and cheerful smiling face and couldn't help sitting up and holding Liu Qin in her arms. Her eyes looked at each other, two young hearts were beating wildly, and they kissed each other affectionately.
A few hot tears fell on Liu Qin's face, and Yang Hao, who was full of tears, suddenly pushed Liu Qin away: "You, let's go! You are going to school tomorrow. "
Liu Qin stubbornly said: "I am determined not to go, I will accompany you to fight the disease."
"I can't delay my studies or ruin my future because of me." Yang Hao pleaded.
"I have finished my suspension certificate, and it is not late to go back to school next year. I will wait for you to get better and we will go back to school together. " Liu Qin's attitude is very firm.
"What? You also got a suspension certificate? I don't deserve this! " Yang Hao said with regret.
"It was the children who made me make such a decision." Liu Qin took Yang Hao's hand and stroked his abdomen.
"children? No, we only tasted the forbidden fruit once. " Yang Hao was amazed.
Liu Qin's face is full of happiness: "It is our child, the crystallization of the love God has given us."
Yang Hao was so excited that he leaned his head against his girlfriend's slightly bulging abdomen and muttered, "I have a child!" I have a baby! I'm going to be a father! "
Yang Hao gently scolded his girlfriend. "Why didn't you tell me earlier? How many months has the child been? "
Liu Qin smiled smugly and said, "I should have told you earlier, but you must not let me induce labor. Can the baby stay in my stomach for three months? " ? I am his mother, and I have the right and obligation to protect him. "
Yang Hao blamed herself: "I'm sorry, I don't have the money to give you a valuable promise and a lively wedding ..."
Liu Qin held her boyfriend's hand and stroked the fetus in her belly: "This is the best promise. As long as I am with you, I am very happy. "
Two people who love each other are talking from their hearts, "Hao Hao, you two come out for dinner." It's dad shouting.
Yang Hao and Liu Qin came to the yard. The four of them sat around a simple wooden table. There is a big pot of steaming corncob, potatoes and pumpkins on the table, as well as bitter vegetables, shredded white radish and green peppers. This ordinary country home-cooked meal made Liu Qin enjoy it.
04
After dinner, Liu Qin asked Yang Hao to find some newspapers to put on the wall. The humble hut was much brighter and warmer. Yang Hao found some red paper to cut out a big double happiness and put it on the kang.
There are no new houses, new furniture, new quilts, festive firecrackers and new friends' blessings, but Yang Hao and Liu Qin are happy to have the whole world.
Liu Qin's innocent girl nestled in Yang Hao's arms: "I want to have a little Yang Hao just like you. When the child grows up, I want to tell him that your father is a good student, a good husband and a good father. Teach him to be as diligent as you and become a real man. "
"Promise me you won't leave me and my children. You have to be strong, live together and create a better life! "
"Don't worry, I feel much better after the recent treatment. You see, I am alive and kicking now, let you taste my power! " Talking, Yang Hao hugged her lover Liu Qin tightly.
A couple immersed in happiness are touching together, and at dawn, they will hug each other sweetly and fall asleep.
Yang Hao's parents got up at dawn, and his father ate some steamed bread and went to the mountain to herd cattle. Mother didn't bother them, so she quietly swept the floor to cook.
When they woke up, it was almost lunch time. They warmed up in bed for a while before getting dressed. After dinner, they chatted with their father for a while. Father told them with a satisfied smile that they would soon be able to live in a new house, and the government's dangerous house renovation policy had been implemented in their small mountain village with only nine families.
Yang Hao forced a smile at his father, and at this time his heart was extremely sad: he didn't want to make his parents sad, and deliberately concealed his illness. How sad his parents will be if one day he really can't persist! He dare not think about it. He pretended to go out to go to the bathroom. He is afraid that his father will see his sad tears.
Yang Hao took his girlfriend's hand and visited the mountains and rivers of his hometown together, telling the story of his childhood. He rolled on the green grass like a child, and then he ran around and picked a handful of colorful wild flowers for his girlfriend to stick in her head. They climbed the highest mountain, listened to the rushing sound of streams far and near, and looked at the green mountains and green waters in their hometown. Yang Hao shouted, "I love you!"
The echo of the valley floated: "I … I … love … love … you … you … you … us!" " "
Tears welled up in Yang Hao's eyes, and he waved to the trees and grass that accompanied him through countless unforgettable years!
Liu Qin deeply felt his lover's deep affection for his hometown. Excited, she also sang loudly: "Love what I love, no regrets! Yang Hao, I love you! "
Two lovers who love each other deeply embrace each other and let the world witness this sincere and passionate love!
05
The next day, exhausted Yang Hao lay on the kang, staring at the roof, quietly, not talking!
In the evening, Yang Hao said stupefied, "We should go!"
"But what about your illness?"
"shh! Go to sleep. "
In the dead of night, lonely moonlight spilled into the room, and big tears rolled down the corner of Yang Hao's eye. Exhausted, Yang Hao knew that his time was running out. He can't bear to let his parents live in the pain and despair of white-haired people sending black-haired people. He would rather let them live in a beautiful dream of lies and hopes!
The next day, Yang Hao told his parents that he and his girlfriend were going back to school: "Mom and Dad, our school is sending me to study in the United States at public expense, which is far away and may not come back for a long time."
Mother said worriedly, "How many years will it take you to go home?"
"Ten years is also possible!"
Mother's eyes were red, and Yang Hao quickly said, "This is a good thing, which shows that your son has a future. You can rest assured that your future daughter-in-law and grandson will take time to visit and take care of their parents in the future. "
Yang Hao pulled Liu Qin to his mother's side, and Liu Qin bowed his head shyly. Her mother shook her hand with joy: "That's good, good!" "
Mother hurried in and out, preparing things for them to take away: pumpkins, bacon and potato rolls, which are Yang Hao's favorite foods. Dad smiled and smoked while helping. Everything was ready. Father told Dumbo to drive the donkey cart to send them out of the mountain to the station. Father followed him to the station. Yang Hao insisted on not letting them go, but my father gave up.
Yang Hao bit her lower lip and hugged her father and mother tightly. He knows this will be the last farewell, and he will be separated from his parents by yin and yang! It took him a while to put it down, dry his tears for his mother and get on the donkey cart without saying a word. Liu Qin said a few words of comfort to the two old people. She climbed onto the donkey cart and sat down, then waved to the old man.
Until the donkey cart turned the corner and the two old people were out of sight, Liu Cai stopped waving. She looked at Yang Hao, who never looked back. He still bit his lower lip tightly, and red blood was oozing out.
Yang Hao stretched out his hand and patted Dumbo on the shoulder and made a stop gesture. He got out of the car, facing home, knelt down and knocked heavily: "An unfilial son can't give up his parents to support the elderly. Mom and dad, take care. May we meet in our dreams! I hope that I will have the opportunity to repay my parents' kindness in my next life! "
He can no longer restrain the voice of great compassion, as menacing as a flash flood! Liu Qin came and knelt in front of Yang Hao, who was crying bitterly, burying his head in his arms and sobbing!
06
In the provincial capital, they didn't go back to school, but rented a house near the school. After settling down, Liu Qin plans to go home and borrow some money to send Yang Hao to the hospital for treatment. Yang Hao stopped her: "My cancer cells have spread, so don't waste money. Don't disturb anyone, let me leave quietly. The future life of you and your children depends on yourself, and I will repay you in the afterlife! "
Liu Qin sobbed and hugged him tightly. Yang Hao calm as water, entrust the funeral: "You and your children should live a good life, visit my parents more often, and continue the lies of love for me. After I left, I secretly took the ashes back to my hometown and scattered them in the green mountains and green waters where I once lived. "
Yang Hao gently wiped away Liu Qin's tears, held her beautiful face and said with a smile, "You see how happy I am. I have struggled in my life, and I have no regrets in this life! "
Yang Hao quietly left in Chin Liu's arms. She was encouraged by Yang Hao's calm attitude towards life and death. She is getting stronger and stronger, and her lover still has many unfinished wishes for her to fulfill.
Thanks to her classmates' friends Wang Lu and Zhang Meili, who helped her in time, sent her money and hired a care worker for her, which made her feel at ease about her work.
The hard work of pregnancy in October gave birth to a chubby son in vain. Seeing that this little guy is getting cuter and cuter, two girlfriends compete to be his godmother and take turns to buy him food and toys.
When his son was one year old, Liu Qin weaned him and sent him to Yang Hao's hometown in the mountains. She told her parents-in-law, "Yang Hao wrote a letter. He is very good in America. Please don't miss him and take care of yourself and his son. "
The old couple were so happy that they scrambled to have grandchildren.
Liu Qin held the ashes of his lover Yang Hao and sprinkled them on the clear stream and green grass: "My love, you have finally returned to your dream hometown. You should take care of your parents and take care of your son's happy growth! "
Yin and Yang are separated. If you don't think about it, you will never forget it! Liu Qin, sobbing, sat on the ground, stroking the urn gently, muttering, "It's agreed that you will take care of me all your life. How can you have the heart to leave before me! "
She can't forget the stubborn and kind high school deskmate and the details of their acquaintance and love!
07
Liu Qin was born in southern Ningxia and grew up in a mountainous area. She is clever and diligent. 1992, Liu Qin was selected as the first in the town by the second key middle school in the county when the junior high school entrance examination was unified in the county.
Liu Qin was so excited when he walked out of the mountains for the first time, entered the city for the first time and sat in the bright teaching building for the first time! She is like a hardworking bee, constantly sucking the nectar of knowledge, ranking among the best in every exam, and being rated as a third-class student in the county.
Who knows that there are unexpected events in the sky, and people are doomed. Liu Qin's father suffered from severe dysentery, and the countryside was short of doctors and medicines. His 46-year-old father passed away forever. The pillar fell, and the sky at home collapsed. Only my mother supported this family.
In order not to increase the burden on his mother, Liu Qin tried to reduce the living expenses at home and only ate one meal a day. She was so hungry that she spent all her time studying to get rid of her unbearable hunger.
Hunger haunts Liu Qin like a shadow, tormenting Liu Qin day after day and making her dizzy. But her deskmate's home is in the city. This boy will insist on eating after self-study every morning. Hungry Liu Qin couldn't resist the sound of chewing food. She swallowed hard and couldn't study hard. No matter how cold it is, Liu Qin leaves the classroom to study outside every morning. Every night, she goes to the playground to recite English words. Whenever no one is looking, she picks up some dry steamed buns discarded by her classmates on the windowsill outside the dormitory. She escaped, hid in the corner behind the teaching building and munched. These steamed buns are either stale or moldy, but for Liu Qin, filling his stomach is more important than anything else!
When it was her turn to clean the blackboard on duty, she was weak from hunger, gritted her teeth and tried her best to move the blackboard eraser slowly. A cold sweat broke out on her head and her legs were shaking. She tried her best to persist! Hold on! At the sight of Venus ...
When Liu Qin raised his heavy eyelids, he found himself lying on the bed in the dormitory. The teacher and several classmates surrounded her and asked her if she wanted to go to the hospital. She shook her head and knew she was hungry. She was too proud to tell everyone!
In two months, the second year of high school will be over. Due to long-term malnutrition, Liu Qin's eyesight has declined greatly. She couldn't see clearly the geometric figures and formulas drawn by the teacher on the blackboard, and her memory dropped badly. She forgot the class the teacher gave her in the morning, and her hearing almost disappeared. Sometimes she only sees the teacher's mouth open and closed, but she can't hear what he is saying.
When studying at night, Liu Qin, who was hungry, took a crumpled apple next to the garbage dump by the light of a street lamp, and swallowed it without considering whether it was dirty or not. She curled up in the corner of the teaching building, leaning her head against the wall, and bitter tears could not help pouring out! She misses her father who is separated by Yin and Yang, her mother who works hard at home and her brother who studies thousands of miles away! What she wants most is the meal cooked by her mother. At least she has a full meal at home. Can today's hunger be exchanged for tomorrow's glory?
Hunger tortured her to lose confidence in the past, and she realized the cruelty of reality: it is difficult to live, and it is even more difficult to live alone! Especially poor people like themselves, if they want to change their destiny, they must pay a price that ordinary people can't imagine. Compared with the rich second generation, she thought of her deskmate who liked eating but didn't like studying, and said that she would take the adult college entrance examination, but she could go to any university of finance and economics as long as she walked, and even contact the employer who was employed after graduation, because her father was the director of the Municipal Development and Reform Commission.
After Liu Qin's deskmate left, the teacher assigned her a new deskmate, that is Yang Hao. They have been classmates since Grade One, because Yang Hao is tall and sits in the back row. Although Liu Qin knew him, he didn't talk much.
Yang Hao, a new deskmate, never eats anything in his morning lessons and studies hard. But Liu Qin still can't settle down to study, because she will find a big white steamed bun in the desk frame every morning. She swallowed saliva to satisfy her hunger and secretly put the steamed bread back on Yang Hao's desk shelf, but when she found it again, it returned to her desk shelf.
Once after a math class, Yang Hao said to Liu Qin before leaving the classroom, "You can't see the words on the blackboard, copy my notes." Before she could answer, Yang Hao had run out of the classroom.
In the blank of Yang Hao's notebook, a sentence with a larger font jumped into her eyes: Let me take care of you for a lifetime!
Liu Qin blushed and quickly put away her notebook for fear of being seen and gossiped by other students.
Since then, Liu Qin has never refused Yang Hao's kindness. Every morning, there is a white steamed bun in her desk frame, an apple in the afternoon, and several tickets for students to cook on the stove. Liu Qin, which is no longer hungry, is getting better and better.
Rural students who live far away from home generally don't go home, and often study and write homework in the classroom on Sundays. But recently, Liu Qin didn't see Yang Jie, his deskmate, coming to the classroom to study. One Sunday morning, Liu Qin and his roommate went out to deliver letters to their brother and passed by a sidewalk construction site. She overheard Yang Hao moving bricks: her hair was wet with sweat and stuck to her forehead, and her cheeks were covered with mud stains. This scene is deeply imprinted in Liu Qin's mind!
When Liu Qin was admitted to the university, his brother just graduated from the police academy to work and got his first month's salary. My brother hurried to school to get Liu Qin glasses, bought nutrition, and found a Chinese medicine doctor to recuperate for her. Liu Qin's body.
After recovery, she and Yang Hao discussed exercises together and prepared for the college entrance examination wholeheartedly. They got their wish and were admitted to the same university.
08
After appeasing the old man and children, Liu Qin went back to school and continued to study hard. After graduation, she found an ideal job. She knows that she has a responsibility to be a woman and a mother. She works harder than others, saving tuition for her son and pension money for her mother-in-law.
It is time for my son to go to school. Liu Qin went to pick up the children. Grandparents and grandchildren are inseparable. She promised to bring her children back to their hometown for reunion every year.
Wang Lu and Zhang Meili came to welcome her mother.
I heard that Wang Lu is still a postdoctoral student, and her lover is also a classmate. They are like-minded There are many men pursuing Zhang Meili. With the help of men, she started a company and became a rich woman.
The two girlfriends lamented: "You have only suffered in these years!"
"I don't feel bitter. I feel that my life is full and my heart is very happy! Because there is love in my heart. "
While speaking, Liu Qin gently caressed his son's head and looked at his son's face tenderly: "He looks just like his father. I am very satisfied that Yang Hao left me a son to accompany me, not him. Although we can't be together in this life, I really loved him and he will live in my heart forever! "