First of all, I want to say that everything is fine. Your sensitivity will only make you feel irretrievable. Actually, you don't want to be mediocre yourself. Or those games, books and other things that you think are too mediocre are just wasting our time. You need something detached, you need that kind of sureness. In fact, there are many mysteries in life. Our life has no end, and death is just a small stop! After that, there is a deeper life! The purpose of our life is not to get anything, but to work hard. We should live naturally and live every moment! Of course, we need to think about what we really like to do, think quietly, and then start doing it! There is nothing useful and useless, just like yourself, doing these things silently. Life is not empty, but we care too much about the external environment and lose ourselves. I think a person who can be himself is powerful. Can you do what you like without feeling useless? Can you devote yourself to playing games and stop thinking about being bad for yourself? Can you give more love? Can you tolerate others? Can you be yourself? . . . If you can, if you can control these balances in your life, do your own thing and play games instead, then you won't feel empty again! The above is my personal opinion! Think about it!