At that time, he was just a junior, and there were few classes in primary school, so he went to the driving school to practice driving with his classmates every afternoon. A week later, a girl with a simple face came, and her classmates hooked up with her, so they chatted. He is relatively silent, just as an unintentional observer, and then knows that the girl is from the normal university next door, one year younger than them. He ignored her at first, until one day it was his classmate's turn to practice driving, and she took the initiative to say something to him: You look like a high school classmate of mine. He snickered in his heart and thought it was a very low-level opening remark. He remembered a girl in Class Two of Senior High School who wanted to skip class and said to the teacher, Teacher, I have a stomachache. At that time, the whole class laughed. He replied with a smile, really? She said: well, it seems that one of my high school classmates studying art, fearing that continuing this topic would lead to silence, asked her a few irrelevant questions. When his classmates got off the bus after practice, he went. He is not good at words, and girls.
From now on, he will still be an observer when his classmates are here every afternoon, and the two of them will start chatting after his classmates leave. Later, when the students in this period went to take the exam and put them in the warehouse, they all took the bus arranged by the driving school. He got on the bus early, and there were many seats in the bus, so he just sat down. After his classmates got on the bus, they sat behind him, not next to him. When she arrived, the bus was full, so she sat beside him. They didn't talk on the way, until after the exam, he found that he and she failed, and they were still sitting together on the way back. Seeing that she was depressed, he began to appease her and said that I didn't pass either. I'll invite you to dinner when I get back. After getting off the bus, he politely called his classmates, who said something was wrong. So they went to eat boiled fish together and left their cell phone numbers with each other.
Later, the class became slower and slower, so he didn't go to driving school much, and the two rarely met again. When the National Day approached, she suddenly sent him a short message: 1 1 month 1 day. What are you going to do? He said he didn't know, so he probably stayed in the dormitory and became moldy. She said, "Let's hand out leaflets together", and he agreed.
They handed out leaflets on Chongqing Road, stood in the bustling crowd, holding a thick stack of leaflets and handed them to people in a hurry. Many people simply ignore it, occasionally reaching out their precious hands to pick up one after another, and most of them are thrown within ten meters. She would say something voluntarily, and he just stood there quietly. A little boy about eight years old came to ask her for one, and she gave it to the little boy happily. Five minutes later, the little boy ran back and stuffed the leaflet to her and said, I've finished reading it and returned it to you. She was speechless, but he was ecstatic.
Seven days later, they earned 500 dollars. She wanted to give him half, but he refused. She said that I am going to draw hand-painted shoes, so your money should be shares, and you should be my shareholder. So they went to buy paints and canvas shoes on weekends. He searched some beautiful pictures on the computer and sent them to her. Then she painted them on her shoes. After all the paintings were finished, they went to Guilin Road to set up a stall. Many people ask, but they buy very little, don't like the pattern on the shoes or the size is not suitable. Finally, one day, a young mother with a baby in her arms came to buy a pair. He and she were ecstatic and took out all the money in their pockets to find each other, but soon after the young mother left, they found that the hundred-dollar bill they received was counterfeit. The two began to lose heart.
He doesn't remember the first girl he met. None of the previous ones have been with him for more than three months. I don't like it from the beginning, or I don't like it slowly, until I finally part. He doesn't think he will please them or anyone. Everyone around him thinks he is a playboy, but he knows in his heart that he longs for eternity, but he can't. He didn't know how long he could stay with her, broke up too many times and had no confidence in any relationship. He believed it was true and false, but he was hurt when he was serious in the end, but he felt that such love was a waste of life when he was false. He feels good about her, which fits his own picture. The freshwater fish in Chinese painting is a bit unusual and quiet. He dare not talk about love with her. He is afraid that his love will end too soon, so he thinks it is better to be ambiguous. But the dog couldn't change his mind and finally kissed her one day.
At that time, it was easy for him to have a nosebleed for no reason. When he was surfing the Internet in the shower or even having dinner with his classmates in the restaurant, they all told him that you had a nosebleed. He touched it with his hand. It was a pool of blood. He used to have almost no nosebleeds. The only time he remembers is when playing basketball, the ball suddenly hit his nose. He is easily distracted on the court. He remembered Ji-sub in Sorry, I Love You, and wondered if he would die soon. Later, I felt that it should be the lack of exercise in universities and the decline of physical fitness. This nosebleed incident made him determined to start sports-running. So he sent a text message to invite her to run together at night, and she agreed.
They only ran four times on the playground of her school, and she didn't say anything. He panted that he couldn't run any more, and he couldn't run any more. So they began to take a walk on campus. When he went to a sparsely populated place on the moon with dark peaks, he suddenly kissed her. In fact, he is still a very shy little boy at heart. In the past, he used to kiss his girlfriend at night or in a sparsely populated place, unlike some boys and girls who are shameless on the bus now. She froze for a few seconds after being kissed, and then began to sob. He didn't expect this result, so he panicked and started shooting like a machine gun: What's the matter? What happened? What's going on here? I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm really sorry! After five minutes, she stopped crying and said to him calmly, let's find a place to sit.
So they sat down by the lake. She began to tell her story, which may sound more like talking to him. Her parents divorced when she was seven. At first, she lived with her father, who soon got a new wife. This stepmother is a duplicitous person. She was kind to her in front of her father and neighbors, but she was always embarrassed and ridiculed everywhere. It was not until she was in the second grade that her stepmother gave birth to a son for her father. She began to be left out and even rejected, so she moved to her parents' house. Who knows that her mother suffered from severe depression after divorce, and often abused her hysterically at home or locked her in her room, and then hugged her and cried when she returned to normal. She felt that she was about to collapse, and she couldn't stand this life for a minute, so in her third year of high school, she decided to leave home and leave the city as far away as possible. As a result, when she took the math test in the college entrance examination, her test paper was blatantly taken away by a boy in the examination room. The invigilator turned a deaf ear and began to perform blind A Bing on the spot. At that time, she cried like a tearful person but could do nothing, and the next exam was a complete failure. Then the results came out, and the difference was unimaginable. Her father arranged a poor school for her to study in this city, and she insisted on repeating it. It's hard to repeat this year. She goes home to review until two in the morning every day. As a result, she still couldn't sleep. She lay in bed, watched the sky turn dark for dawn, and then rushed to school. Fortunately, I didn't meet such students and teachers this time. Now she has been admitted to the free normal school in her present school.
She talked in a low voice for a long time, and he found some similarities between them from her story. He was also determined to escape, and he volunteered for the college entrance examination in the northeast. He even filled in all the colleges that were unnecessary to him, so that when he handed them over to their class teacher, the class teacher looked amazed. He also suffers from insomnia. He lost sleep for three years from the failure of the senior high school entrance examination to the end of the college entrance examination. He tossed and turned every night and couldn't sleep. The class teacher said that he had a nervous breakdown. Fortunately, he has never suffered from insomnia since he came to this city. His roommate exaggeratedly described that he would definitely snore in five minutes. Maybe something in my heart will be relieved when I put it down, and everything will be fine. He is still looking for similarities in his heart. She said, didn't I say that you are like a high school classmate of mine? He came to his senses and said, well, what happened? She went on to say that she had a crush on that boy from the second day of junior high school until the third year of senior high school. Later, the boy was admitted to Xiamen to study art, and he sent her a text message saying that we were predestined friends. It turned out that he knew very early that she liked him, but he didn't like her. So her heart for him died.
When she finished, he gave a cry, and she was a little embarrassed. She asked, then tell your story, I want to hear yours. He didn't know what to tell her. He was adopted by a peasant couple from a distant relative. The couple had three daughters, but they couldn't have children. Tell him that he has been living under the oppression of this family discrimination and all kinds of cynicism for more than 20 years? Said he had all kinds of accidents in his early twenties and had three operations, even almost disabled? Or did he actually have severe depression, from the second day of junior high school to the third year of senior high school, and then cut his wrist too deeply three days before the New Year's Eve and almost died and ran away from home? Her story is already heavy, and he doesn't want the atmosphere to continue to be so cold. So he began to perfunctory her and pulled the topic to irrelevant things. She obviously heard that he didn't want to talk about it, so she said it was getting late today. Please take me back to the dormitory. He said yes.
She was downstairs alone. Before going upstairs, she said to him, Did you cry when you were a child? Of course, he cried many times. She seems to be proud to say that I have never cried since I was a child except today. He looked at the back of her leaving and didn't understand what she meant, which proved that she was strong. At least better than him? On the way back to the hospital bed, he remembered the last time he cried, which was the moment when he was pushed back to the ward to lie in bed after the third operation in his life last summer vacation. After the operation, I stayed in the hospital for ten days and came home with a cut piece of meat without stitching and dressing. The reason is that the family has no money after paying more than 2000 yuan for medical expenses. I received a short message from her before I got back to the dormitory: I'm sorry, maybe I said too much today, which made you unhappy. He replied: No, thank you for letting me share your story. Let's live a good life in the future. Good night and sweet dreams. Live a good life, he thinks it's hypocritical to say so. Although he doesn't suffer from insomnia, depression or self-mutilation, he has degenerated to rot, and there is nothing but online games to pick up girls. He failed in many subjects, failed to make up the first one and then failed to make up. That he didn't even plan to graduate. He went to the driving school to practice driving, just to know how much money he could earn to make a living after he got the license.
After that kiss, he didn't know if they were boyfriend and girlfriend. Anyway, they got together like this, but as before, they didn't have close nicknames, and they went shopping, walking and watching movies. However, I only ran once after running. Later, she said that he was killed and stopped running, saying that he was too tired to run. Anyway, there was no nosebleed afterwards. Maybe the kiss cured him. Their most intimate act is kissing. According to his usual style, there will definitely be sex next, but after listening to what she said so much that night, he was a little scared, or to put it mildly, he felt sorry. Maybe having sex later can break up later, he thought. However, he is also very satisfied with the present state. These two people get along well together. She didn't dislike him, and he didn't find anything he couldn't tolerate about her. That's it.
The days passed quietly like this. He seldom stays with a girl for more than a season or even a year. He thinks they will be together for life. He got a job in the city where she lives because she wants to go back to take care of her mother after graduation. Her mother abused her or locked her at home for fear that she would leave. Now that she has been away for four years, it's time to go back and spend the rest of her life with her mother. At that time, his elderly parents had just separated, and he didn't know which family to return to. He has a beautiful vision for their future, what kind of house and car, and even thought that if she got married in the future, she would be called Zhang Xiaoyu, just like her.
However, the accident came as scheduled.
One day, a little fat, she found him stupid and said, maybe you'll never find out if I don't tell you. I'm pregnant, but I don't want to have an abortion. I am afraid that if this continues, people around me will find out that the school will expel me. I can't stay in this city any longer, and I can't go home. So, I want to ask you, can you take me away? He suddenly heard the news like a bolt from the blue. If something similar comes from him, it must be a prank, but it comes from her. Silly, he really froze, standing there as if he had no soul. She said she was sorry, and it may be hard for you to accept this reality for a while. I'm going back to pack my bags now. If possible, let's leave the city together at night, because I think you love me. She turned and left.
He stood there for a whole hour, then returned to the dormitory and sat down in a trance. He has been trying not to have sex with her. He always thought she was a very simple girl, but now he suddenly told himself that he was pregnant and asked him to take her away. Although he won't get his diploma as scheduled even now, he can't accept that she has had a relationship with someone else without telling him and is pregnant with someone else's child. What's even more ridiculous is that she still wants to give birth to the child. He is in a terrible mood now, and he doesn't know the proportion of anger and sadness in his heart at the moment. He took out his mobile phone and fell to the ground, which startled the three roommates next to him. He climbed into bed and went to sleep. This is a habit he developed after graduating from college. He sleeps when he is in a bad mood, and will be much better after waking up to avoid depression. He was very sleepy before he got up to see her. He didn't play DOTA with his roommate until two o'clock the next morning. But now he can't sleep, and no one can sleep when he hears such news, not to mention that the sun has just moved away from his ass. Later, he fell asleep like a paste in his head. When I woke up, it was dark. He was still in a bad mood, so he went out for a walk alone and walked straight along renmin street to the railway station. Suddenly, he thought that she told him to leave this morning, and his heart was trembling at that time, but he still had resentment, so he went back.
He ignored her for a week and suddenly began to worry about her. She's not really going to have a baby, is she? Although some unwilling, but he still loves her, after all, they have accumulated feelings for more than a year. So he borrowed his classmate's old mobile phone and installed his own card. After opening it, he first received a long-awaited message:
Will you leave with me tonight?
I called you to know that your phone was turned off, and then I understood.
I'm leaving. I'm sorry. I may have hurt you. Forget me.
I'm sorry
Forget you? How could I forget! ! ! He began to regret it, although he always thought he was a person who would never regret it. He called her immediately and found that her cell phone was turned off. He ran to the nearest business hall of the school and charged her 50 yuan phone bill. After a long time, he called again and found that her mobile phone was turned off. Open the QQ on the computer and follow the trace to find her QQ. I found that all the spatial data were deleted into blank and refused to add anyone as a friend. He ran to the roof of Yifu Building and wept bitterly.
In the end, he didn't get the diploma on time, but the company he signed was very tolerant and said it was acceptable within two years. He only went to her city for a month, but it was futile to try to find her, so he hurriedly submitted his resignation letter and left. He lived the life he dreamed of in senior three, working in one city for a short time, and then leaving for the next city after sightseeing. Network management editor, salesman, porter, receptionist, online game, internship for him. He tried to forget some people deliberately in his busyness, hard work and wandering, but he was doomed to fail as he hoped, as if she had become the indelible fourth scar on his body. Two years later, shortly after he arrived in a city, he planned to go to the mall to buy a pair of jeans to replace the one with some rags on his legs. While rummaging through a row of trousers in front of a specialty store, a shopping guide came over and said, Hello, welcome to Giordano. He was familiar with the sound, so he looked up at a woman with light makeup and bangs. After the two men looked at each other for ten seconds, he began to feel embarrassed and looked away in a hurry, much like her but not her. The shopping guide asked: What pants does Mr. Wang want to buy? He creaked and couldn't answer, blushing like a reborn Guan Gong. Almost two years after graduation, he is still so shy. After a while, he selected his trousers and went to the counter to check out. When he left, he went to the shopping guide and whispered, you look like one of my high school classmates. When he was ready to leave quickly, a word came from behind him: not like your ex-girlfriend? He stopped immediately. That woman called his name and said it was you, right? He turned to look, but it was really her. She asked for leave from her colleagues and went to the rice noodle shop across the bridge with them.
Two people used to eat rice noodles crossing the bridge most often. His mutton is a little spicy, and her fish balls are clear soup. Almost three years later, two people face to face again, separated by a pot of rice noodles and a bridge as if separated by Qianshan. The two men were silent for a long time until he couldn't help saying, how have you been these years? She said it's okay. He felt embarrassed again and asked carefully, Are you married now? She replied easily: no, I have been single. He summoned up his courage and asked, what about the child? She said: put it in my house for my mother to see. He began to be silent.
He didn't touch a spoonful of rice noodles, and the heat gradually disappeared. She broke the silence again and began to tell. The child is one of her teachers. She is a student union cadre. She once went to his house and asked something directly. At that time, the teacher had just divorced and the child was awarded to the other party. As a result, the teacher squatted down and began to cry before he entered the door. She hugged him like a mother holding a child and gently stroked his head. After the teacher stopped crying gradually, she began to kiss her crazily. She didn't resist until they had sex. The teacher assured her that she could wait until she graduated before marrying her. She suddenly remembered her stepmother and hurried away. Two months later, she knew she was pregnant and didn't tell anyone, but she didn't want to have an abortion. She began to stay in the dormitory as much as possible until she felt that she couldn't hide it any longer, so she went to him, thinking that he could leave with her.
Turns out he didn't.
She wants her child to be born like her. She doesn't want to see what her mother tried to avoid happen to her. She says it's genetic. They stick to what others don't like.
She smiled and said, my daughter's name is Xiaoyu. Sounds good. He doesn't know whether she forgot the origin of the name or told him on purpose, but now the name is like a dagger, which is stabbed in his heart and then cut off.
Don't you eat rice noodles? My treat. Mutton is a little spicy. It's cold now, and the soup probably doesn't taste good.
A bowl of rice noodles takes longer than a winter in the northeast. He ate the pot of cold rice noodles at sixes and sevens until it was cold to his heart.
She called his name and he looked up at her. She jokingly said, I'll let you take me away now. Can you still do it?
He doesn't know whether he has mixed feelings or a lot of thoughts now. At that time, he could only bite his teeth tightly.
She took out her mobile phone and looked at the time, saying that I should go back to work. I'll be off work in two hours. If you like, wait until I get off work. So she walked away, leaving him staring blankly at the leftovers. He felt that the bowl of rice noodles was mocking him.
After a long pause, he decided to get up and buy a train ticket and leave the city quickly. He hesitated while waiting for the train in the crowded waiting room. After starting to check in, he finally decided to throw away the train ticket and go back to find her. He thinks everyone makes mistakes, and besides, she didn't mean to. Love cannot die because of an unintentional mistake, nor can it escape from her life because of an accident. He ran back to the specialty store and rice noodle shop and found that she was not there. He took out his mobile phone and looked at it. It's been two hours. The next morning, I ran to the mall, and when I opened the door at nine o'clock, I found another shopping guide coming, but she didn't come. I didn't see her until noon. He summoned up the courage to ask the shopping guide if he knew her mobile phone number. Dial on the spot, and then hear the phone ring: the number you dialed is power off. I went to ask her address again, but I was told I didn't know. He suddenly lost his mind.
By this time, she had boarded the train to another strange city.
Some people have been.
Just keep it at the bottom of your memory.
Occasionally accidentally turn it out.
It's just distant sadness