I felt the same way when I was at school, but since I graduated from teaching primary school, I have solved the doubts left over from my school days. Now think about it, there are many reasons. On the one hand, it is a good face, and I am embarrassed to ask questions that my classmates and teachers can't. After teaching, I developed a cheeky topic. When I don't know how to teach students to understand easily, I will ask other teachers more. Gradually, my teaching level will come up and students' grades will also improve.
I think you find math so difficult, mainly because of your own feelings and consciousness. Nothing can beat you as long as you want to learn math.
Cheer for you!