You see, it's been seven years, and you enter your initials on your mobile phone, and the name still appears; For another example, if the mouse stays on those two words, there will still be a "fixed first place"; Or for example, if I type my name on my mobile phone, the third place in the following traction is also your name. Do you know how long it took me to change you from first to third?
You, never know, for you, I was lonely for many years. ...
I, every day, record the number of my music. The lonely patient has been played 1087 times, but I haven't seen you for 73 1 day.
( 1)
I will always remember: the weather is very cold, but your neat smile adds a touch of warmth to the desolation; Until now, I still have in my mind the cry of my grandfather who took out sweet potatoes at school.
When eating sweet potatoes, I always like to smell them first, then blow them, and slowly peel off the skin. I always show off in front of you when attractive red soil appears. It seems that my peeled sweet potato is the best in the world, but I will often give it to you.
Naturally, you won't argue with me, you won't argue with me, you won't joke with me ... I just quietly take out the paper towel in my bag for you, or wipe it for you myself. You just said, "Thank you, Jun."
I'm used to saying nothing, but sometimes I can't help but say "you're welcome."
Today, the grandfather outside the school gate is still alive, but his hair is all white, his back is hunched, and his shouts become horns, from the steelyard at that time to the electronic scale now. ...
You know, for you, I was lonely for many years. ...
(2)
I like the word "childhood friends" very much. I always thought this word was a true portrayal of you and me. Although we have never ridden a bamboo horse, we had childhood friends together. You always say that green plums are sour and bananas are delicious, and you always laugh at me why girls like to eat green plums.
Of course you don't know the meaning of childhood, but I do.
Whenever I eat too much green plums, stomach problems always follow. You will give me your hot water cup to warm my stomach, and then you will ask me, "Why do you like to eat green plums?"
And my answer has never changed: "Eat plums if you have nothing to do!"
You should have heard this answer for many years, so you turned back to your seat and said, "Eating too much is not good."
"Well," I twirled my glass, "I know."
Your cup is transparent. When the afterglow of summer passes through it, my desktop is like a golden ripple, but it makes my heart lonely for a long time. ...
You know, for you, I was lonely for many years. ...
(3)
Your favorite animal is still a turtle, your favorite color is still gray, your favorite scenery is still the sea, your favorite food is still wonton, and your favorite drink is still green tea ... I really want to forget these things, but you don't know that the last page of every diary of mine records "your favorite" ...
"Jun, sometimes I especially wish I could escape from this place." You look at the math problem in front of you quietly and say, "But it will take a long time."
I don't talk, just bring the math problem to you and explain it to you, but I know you're not struggling with a problem; However, I know your math is not that bad; However, I know that your math has always been better than mine. ...
Now, that math problem is just a few lines of notes, but I seem to have lost something, and I can't solve that problem anymore. Even if I know it, the answer is "∏".
Maybe, you know, I was lonely for many years for you. ...
(4)
Only when I put all my dreams in the starry sky did I know how scared I was. The pen in my hand is just my pen, the happiness in my heart is just my happiness, and the sweat on my forehead is just my efforts. They can't be the stars in the sky that you and I appreciate.
On the day of the college entrance examination, the grandfather who took out sweet potatoes at the school gate didn't come to drink; You must recite ancient poems in the college entrance examination in your hand, and I have Chinese notes in my hand; The moment you enter the examination room, you should say, "Jun, we all have to refuel."
I nodded and said, "Well, you too."
At the end of the college entrance examination, you came to me and said, "Jun, I will definitely escape from this place."
"Why do you have to escape?" I asked.
"Why?" You shook your head, "Jun, you don't know that all my dreams are full of stars."
This is not like me, it is my capacity and your container. ...
Do you know that I have been lonely for you for many years? ...
(5)
I remember when I saw you 73 1 days ago, I spent almost my whole life saying "I like you."
"Jun, we are good friends." Your surprise seems free and easy to me.
"Do you know about this?" I can't help asking
"Yes," you nodded, "but we are good friends." You still answer like this.
"Well, I know." I nodded as if I had known the answer for many years ... "When did you know?" It's like I'm talking to a close friend.
"On April Fool's Day, you gave me a grapefruit, and I seem to understand." You are also remembering, "grapefruit, grapefruit, does it mean" like you "?"
"Actually, it's not, it's to cherish you, it's to cherish you …" I turned my head and clenched my skirt. "Maybe we will never meet again ..."
I left, not because of sadness, not because of disappointment, but because of dignity and self-esteem. I have been lonely for so long, maybe I should be aloof once, but I didn't expect my aloofness to be so cheap. I have cried a few steps since I turned around. The only relief is that I didn't look back.
(6)
So you know I like you, then you know I like you for many years; So you know that I liked you, then you know that I have been lonely for you for many years; So, you know I like you. Do you know how much I like you?
Now, between the second person and the third person, I use the second person to write the story between you and me. I'm afraid your name will appear, and then the line "Thank you for coming" will appear. I haven't changed its existence, at least, it's true. ...
In May, this year, I will listen to the lonely patient for the last time:
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I really admire my humor.
When you cry, you hide it with a smile, and you are afraid of being seen through.
Let alone loneliness, we are all happy.
I won't sing love songs at the top of my lungs.
Doesn't mean there's no heartbreak.
No one knows until I open my wound and let it heal.
I am very lost in my heart.
Like a lonely patient pulling himself.
What's wrong with extroverted lonely patients?
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