Because I have no money to rent a house outside, I can only live in the school, which is two hours away from the company. These two hours include an hour of bus and an hour of subway. The company starts work at eight forty-five. Every morning, in order to catch the bus and squeeze the subway, I have to get up at six. You know, I usually get up at half past six in class, have a leisurely breakfast and brush the news. Now that I get up at six o'clock, I will pack myself up as quickly as possible and go out by car. I feel embarrassed when I have breakfast on the bus every morning.
Because I am an intern, my daily salary is only 50 yuan, not including room and board, no transportation allowance and no insurance. On my first day at work, I left my umbrella in my bicycle basket. I lost my salary today. Later, I got out of the subway and walked to the company. Suddenly it began to rain again. I'm wearing this suit and walking in the rain in a hurry. I felt really helpless and sad at that time. I'm not sad about losing my umbrella, but sad about my life. I feel that nothing is what I want.
While waiting for subway line 3, during rush hour, I waited for the subway five times in a row, but I couldn't get on. I'm getting ready to go to bed. I'm retired. Besides, I was still wearing high heels and my shirt was wrinkled. It hurts my shirt and myself.
At noon, I eat in the company, and the takeaway is my half-day salary, and I have to pay the round-trip fare. I'm not talking about how much money an internship costs. I think I should at least support myself. I can't practice and I have to ask for money from my family. So, I bring my own food at noon. In such a hurry in the morning, I can only cook some convenient food in advance at night, such as a potato and a corn. If my parents know that I am eating lunch outside like this, I don't know if they will let me stay outside.
In fact, the above said so much, not complaining. Only at that moment did I feel out of place in this big city. Maybe people like me should go back to small cities and live a stable life. But I'm not reconciled.
It's normal to be out of place When you are not strong enough, I tell myself so. Only in this way can I hold on and go further.
In fact, most ordinary people will experience such a process, humble, nameless and indifferent. Many people can't see it, and feel that they are out of tune with their surroundings and the big city where they live, but it doesn't matter. It is important to always believe in the meaning of hard work.
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