At the freshman registration meeting, many strange students lined up. It was a hot autumn afternoon, and the bright sunshine was dazzling. Suddenly a girl turned to July and said, let's go around the playground. The girl's smile is happy. July ran away with her for no reason.
After a long time, July told Jia Ming that between her and An Sheng, she was the result of a choice. It's just that she wants to
Although she wants to, she can't explain more.
My name is July.
When Anson asked her, July told her that it was the month of her birth. It was very hot that summer. For mother, high temperature and dystocia are a disaster. But she gave July a bland name.
Just like many things in the world. People can't guess the undercurrent from its silent appearance. For example, the encounter between one person and another. Or their differences.
And Ansheng, she said, just confirmed her life. She spread out July's palm, drew simple strokes with her fingertips, and had a self-deprecating smile on her face. This is the first time they have met. The autumn afternoon sunshine jumps on Ansheng's back. Like a flock of lively birds flapping their wings and flying away.
At that time, she had not told July that she was a child without a father. Her mother gave birth to a child for a man. Because she loves him, she is destined to keep her mouth shut for him all her life. I didn't tell Ansheng in July. At that moment, Ansheng's name had left a mark on her hand.
Because of Ansheng, summer has become a season full of illusion and confusion.
Thirteen to sixteen. It was July and Ansheng went hand in hand for three years.
Sometimes July is the shadow of An Sheng. Sometimes An Sheng is the shadow of July.
Do homework together. Run to the store to see underwear. On weekends, An Sheng goes to her house for dinner and stays overnight in July.
You should hold hands when walking on the road.
When I first went to Ansheng's house in July, I felt that Ansheng was very lonely.
An Sheng lives alone in a big apartment. Her mother is abroad all the year round. Hired a nanny to live with An Sheng. An Sheng's room is decorated like a princess's palace, and the wardrobe is full of beautiful clothes. But it looks cold because there is no one.
I felt shivering after sitting for a while in July. An Sheng turned on the air conditioner and all the lights. She said that she often does this when she is alone. Then she took July to see a tank of tropical fish raised by her mother. When Ansheng threw down the feed, the beautiful little fish trembled like colorful silks and satins.
An Sheng said that the water here is warm. But some fish, they will cross the cold ocean in droves and migrate to vast distances. Because that's their home.
An Sheng looked gloomy at that time.
In school, Ansheng is a headache for teachers. He is sharp-tongued and unruly, and is often driven out of the classroom because of fighting with the teacher. The young Ansheng sat alone in the open space outside the classroom. The sun shone on her stubborn face. In July, I secretly took out novels and plum blossoms from my schoolbag and threw them to An Sheng outside the window. Then she knew that Ansheng would run to her nest to read a book.
That's the big tree they found when they ran to the playground after school in the afternoon. Very old camphor tree, the leaves will give off a pungent smell.
An Sheng kicked off her shoes and climbed to the top of the branch in a few minutes. She hid in the bushes like a bird. Shaking two naked calves, overlooking the empty grass and the distance on the playground. July asked her what she could see. She said there were green rivers, fields covered with golden daisies and stone bridges. A long, long railroad track, I don't know where it leads.
Then he held out his hand to her and shouted, Come on, July. July looked up and twisted her fingers, excited and scared. But she never learned to climb trees with Ansheng.
Finally, one day, they decided to see the railway. They walked for a long time. I haven't walked into that field until the twilight is blurred. It suddenly rained heavily on the road. Two girls hid in a broken thatched cottage by the roadside. July said, let's go home. An Sheng said, I'm sure I'll arrive soon. I have vowed to walk on this railway that I can see every day. So in the heavy rain, two girls flew forward with umbrellas. Skirts and shoes are soaked to the skin. Finally, I saw the long tracks. Spread to the vast distance in the twilight and rain and fog. The daisies in the field have withered.
An Sheng's hair and face were covered with rain. She said that in July, one day, I will get rid of all the shackles and go further.
Looking down in July is a bit sad. She said, what about me? An Sheng said, you come with me.
She seems to have made plans for July.
Graduated from junior high school, 16 years old. I was admitted to the best key middle school in the city in July.
An Sheng went to vocational high school and studied advertising design.
Became an outstanding girl in the school in July. Good grades, good temper and beautiful. She joined the school literature club. Although the composition often wins prizes in competitions, she knows that the person who really writes well is An Sheng. They borrowed a large set of foreign novels to read, and their favorite writer was Hemingway. It's just that An Sheng always disdains to take part in these activities.
And her composition is always criticized by the teacher as unhealthy decadence.
July seems a little lonely without Ansheng's company. The first meeting of the Literary Association was held in early July. The classroom where the meeting was held was full of sunshine and osmanthus. A boy is writing on the blackboard. July pushed open the door and said, I'm sorry. Then the boy turned and said, July, come in for a meeting. His smile is gentle.
Su Jiaming is the most handsome man I have ever seen around July 16 years old.
After meeting in July, I couldn't help saying to Ansheng, what kind of man do you like? An Sheng said, I won't like men. Duras said that unless you love this man very much, men can't stand it. As she spoke, she took out a cigarette to smoke. An Sheng has already started to work. She has long lost interest in learning.
She went to McDonald's as a timekeeper, to a bar as a waiter to chat with foreigners, and to the Academy of Fine Arts to study oil painting. She can't wait to get rid of her lonely life. I just want to constantly experience new things and experiences in my life. In order to sketch in the mountains with a group of students from the Academy of Fine Arts, she skipped school 1 month. The school will expel An Sheng for this reason. Mother Ansheng appeared for the first time. Solve the trouble brought by Ansheng. I also met with July.
She is wearing a delicate wide-brimmed satin cheongsam and a small diamond ear pin, and her voice is very feminine. She said, July, you two should be together. I will go back to England soon. You must control her. July said, An Sheng wants you to stay with her. Why don't you stay? She smiled and let out a sigh. Many things are not as free as you children think.
I don't understand. In July, she just felt calm and lonely. An Sheng refuses to leave every time she comes to her house. Eat together and sleep together. She likes the warm lights and sounds in the room. In July, there are four people in her family: her parents and her brother. An Sheng will spoil everyone.
Looking at Ansheng's mother in July. I think she looks like An Sheng's room. Empty and gorgeous. And the cold goes deep into the bone marrow.
That night, at home in July, I had dinner with my parents and my brother, and I felt very warm. She thought, she has more things than An Sheng. She doesn't know what she can give Ansheng. It rained at night, and I was revising the article in the July school magazine, vaguely remembering the smiling faces in the sunshine and osmanthus fragrance. Jia Ming likes her very much and invites her to the movies on weekends. Maybe it would be better for Ansheng to fall in love with someone.
Late at night, I heard a knock at the door in July. When she opened the door, she saw An Sheng, who was soaked to the skin, leaning against the door frame with her hands on her chest.
She left. An Sheng said to July with a straight face. I took the plane at night.
In July, I boiled hot milk for Ansheng, put hot water on her and took clean clothes. After Ansheng lay down, she closed her eyes and said nothing.
In July, I turned off the light and slowly lay beside Ansheng. Suddenly she hugged her tightly. She buried her head in July's arms and sobbed like an animal. Warm and sticky tears flowed down July's neck. Hug her in July. All right. Be quiet, be good. Everything will be fine. We will grow up. It will be fine when you grow up.
Talking and crying in the dark in July.
Go to the movies with Jia Ming in July. After walking out of the theater, I remembered that An Sheng told her that she was working the night shift in the nearby blue bar. Jia Ming, let's go to see An Sheng. I mentioned my best friend to him in July.
Jia Ming said, good. He gently put July's hand into his coat pocket in the night wind. Both are quiet and gentle people.
So even in key middle schools, teachers don't have any opinions. Because they are all students with excellent grades and personalities. See the ancient blue carved wooden door in the distance. As soon as I pushed it away, deafening music and choking smell of tobacco came to my face. The narrow dance floor was crowded with dancers. Others play cards or chat. In July, Jia Ming took his hand and squeezed into the circle. He asked a long-haired man who was mixing wine. Is An Sheng there? The man looked up at July coldly, and then shouted, Wei Wei, someone is looking for you.
Then a girl appeared from the crowd.
In the dim light, July almost didn't recognize this as An Sheng. A thick dark hair is tied into bundles of braids, and the hair is slightly decorated with colored glass beads. Silver eye shadow, purple mascara, burgundy lipstick. Wearing a black cut-out lace top, she tightened her beautiful chest. An Sheng paused at the first sight of Jia Ming. Then he smiled at July and said, Let's have a drink.
Heineken with ice, Jia Ming drank a bottle. Then he asked Ansheng if he would like to skip class for a month to sketch.
An Sheng said, we are making coffee in wild fire. Take a bath in a cold stream. Lying in a sleeping bag at night watching the stars all over the sky. At that moment, I asked myself, what am I living for?
When I look at the starry sky, I will think that life may be like this. When I came back, I painted an oil painting "Starry Night". There are dark blue and tearful stars on the canvas. Someone asked me if I could sell it for 100 yuan. I said sell.
Why not sell it? It is valuable when it reaches people who can understand it.
An Sheng finished reading Jia Ming. She said, Jia Ming, your eyes are very bright. Jia Ming smiled.
After sending July to the door, Jia Ming said that An Sheng was an unpleasant girl.
But she is like a plant with a strange and rich fragrance. Will produce frightening fuzzy flowers.
On July's birthday, Jia Ming wants to take July to climb mountains in the suburbs. In July, Ann said that she would accompany me every birthday. Jia Ming said, of course we can be with Ansheng.
An Sheng and Jia Ming happily rode their broken bikes to the suburbs in July. When I climbed to the top of the mountain, I found a small temple on it. The sun is shining brightly. On that day, An Sheng wore faded jeans, a white shirt, barefoot and a pair of sports shoes, and returned to her usual round appearance. Jia Ming and July are wearing white T-shirts. An Sheng suggested that everyone take off their shoes, sit barefoot on the steps of the mountain road and let the camera take a selfie. Everyone took a group photo with joy and then walked into the temple.
It's a little weird here. Said in July. She felt that there was a mysterious atmosphere in this small temple, deep and decadent.
She said she was tired and didn't want to climb up to see the Buddha statue. I'll take care of the bag and camera. Come down when you're finished.
Jia Ming and An Sheng climbed the high steps and walked into the dark and cool hall. An Sheng sat on the futon, looked at the Buddha and said, Do they know everything? Jia Ming said, maybe. He looked up and felt the wind and sunshine passing through the empty eaves. Then he heard An Sheng say softly, Do they know that I like you?
I saw Jia Ming and An Sheng walking down slowly in July. She smelled the fragrance of flowers in the wind and thought it was her happiest moment. The man she loves and her best friend are all around her. Many years later, July realized that this was her happiest time. It's just that nothing can solidify at the best moment.
Jiaming, jade bracelets are being sold in the temple. July said, I just went to see it alone. It's beautiful. An Sheng said, OK, let Jia Ming send one. There are only two left. One is light green inlaid with dark green, and the other is brown and yellow with white silk thread. Jia Ming said, which one do you like in July? Said in July, also want to buy it for Ann. Which one does An Sheng like?
An Sheng looked at it and quickly nodded at the white one and said, I want this.
She put a white bracelet on her wrist and happily put it in the sun. It's really good, July. In July, I was also happy to see my child safe. I still remember the ancients saying that rings jingle, and whether two bracelets make a nice sound when put together. Halfway up the mountain, An Sheng had another whim.
Come on, July, bring your green bracelet and let me have a try.
An Sheng happily put the green bracelet she picked in July on her wrist.
It was a moment. As soon as the two bracelets touched, the white bracelet broke in two and fell off.
The mountain road is covered with white jade chips.
An Sheng stood there. Only the green bracelet that belongs to July in her hand is still shaking gently. Jia Ming is pale.
In July, I'm leaving.
An Sheng told me in July that I would go to Hainan to work and then go to Beijing to study oil painting.
In autumn, An Sheng decided to drop out of school and leave the city where she had lived for 17 years. She said, I'll go with Pan.
Pan wants to turn off the blue light. Is it the man with long hair? Asked in July. Yes He can mix wine, play saxophone, drive fast and draw pictures. I like him very much. An Sheng lowered her head and smiled gently.
A man, you must love him very much to put up with him.
Can you stand him?
I don't know. An Sheng pulled out a cigarette. She started smoking heavily. Sometimes painting an oil painting leaves a dozen cigarette butts in one night. But Ansheng, your mother begged me to control you. Hold her in July.
It's none of her business
An Sheng cursed rudely. Whether she exists or not has nothing to do with me. An Sheng took a sip of his cigarette coldly. I hate her. The person I hate most is her father, whom I have never met.
July bowed his head sadly. She remembers that when she was a child, they ran to the tracks in the rain. She said, An Sheng, what about me? You will enter the university and have a good job. And Jia Ming, of course. She smiled and said, tell me, will you marry him? July?
Yes If he doesn't want to change, July is a little shy. After all, there is still a long time.
Not long. It won't be long. An Sheng looked up at the window. I don't know how far forever is.
Maybe everything is short-lived.
On the day when An Sheng left, she took an overnight train. She wants to save money. She is used to a hard life. Appen has already arrived in Hainan first. An Sheng left alone.
An Sheng only carried a simple luggage bag. Still wearing old jeans and a down jacket. At the beginning of July, I was a little numb, just staring blankly at An Sheng checking her luggage, checking in and getting on the bus to sort things out. She gave Anson the washed group photo. That picture is very good. Sunny, three young smiling faces. Full of love.
Jia Ming is really handsome. An Sheng smiles at July. Put the photo in your coat pocket.
At this time in July, I saw a red silk thread sticking out of her neck. What is this? She took it out and looked at it. This is a jade pendant. Jade brand is very old. One corner is still a little incomplete. The whole piece of white has been covered with light yellow. An Sheng said, I found it at a stall in Chenghuang Temple. Avoid evil spirits for yourself. She quickly put the pendant into her clothes.
July, you should be fine, you know. I will write it.
The whistle sounded and the train began to slowly leave the platform. An Sheng leaned her head out of the window and waved to July. In July, I felt a sharp pain in my heart, and suddenly realized that Ansheng was leaving her. An Sheng, who goes to school, eats and sleeps together, will never be seen again.
An Ansheng followed the train in July. An Sheng, don't go.
On the empty platform, July cried and squatted down.
It's time to go home, July Jia Ming, who came in a hurry, hugged July.
Yes, Jia Ming. Time to go home. July held Jiaming's warm hand tightly. Jia Ming put her cold hand in her pocket. And bury her face in her arms. There are bright tears in his eyes.
Jia Ming, no matter what, we have been together, don't separate, ok. July asked him in a low voice.
Jia Ming was silent for a while, and then gently nodded.
Except Ansheng.
An Sheng is a person who has no home and no commitment. Think about July.
I have too many things in my hand to put down.
Just like many things in the world. People can't guess the undercurrent from its silent appearance. For example, the meeting between several people and another person, or their parting.
3, the wound is a shame given by others, is the illusion of their own persistence.
Sometimes people who don't know the truth and essence are happy. But happy are those who can pretend not to know the truth and essence.
5. It's just plain. Like a passing river. You can't see what it brings. Or took something. Just passing by.
6. I never know how far forever is. Maybe it's all a flash in the pan.
7. He sighed softly. Maybe we are both people who can't give each other a future. Maybe both of us have lost the ability to love and be loved. This article comes from data management download. They are two disabled people who have been destroyed beyond recognition by time. She found that she could only love one person at a time. And gradually become selfish. Maybe you can hand over your body rashly. But never give up your soul easily.
8. I thought I would drift forever. But how far is forever?
9. She is like a plant with a strange and rich fragrance. Will produce frightening fuzzy flowers.
10, the friendship of teenagers is as beautiful and blind as a butterfly.
1 1. Sunshine and wind silently walked through the empty eaves. At that moment, happiness was destroyed. Life has become an endless exile, full of surging desires and guilt.
12, just like many things in the world. People can't guess the undercurrent from its silent performance. For example, the encounter between a person and a person. Or their differences.
13, the wound is a shame given by others and an illusion of persistence.
14, the only night we met, An Sheng was drunk and slept soundly. I can't sleep in July, but I can't talk to Ansheng. I can only be silent in the dark alone. They still sleep side by side as they did when they were children. But Ansheng will never hug her lovingly as before, burying her head in her arms and putting her hands and feet on her.