Many people study for learning, growth, knowledge and acquisition.

And my reading is only for companionship, which makes me feel that although I often wander around the world alone physically, I have had communication with thousands of different people in Qian Qian in the spiritual world.

A word is very good, "The book has its own golden house, and the book has its own Yan Ruyu." Although I didn't find gold or jade, I think what I found is more precious than those.

In my short 22-year career, I spent most of my time immersed in my own world, often shielding everything from the outside world, just like a wife, disconnecting from others from time to time, wandering in the sky, and often people around me are furious.

I think I really should thank them for never being really angry with me and staying away from me.

In fact, I think my hobby of reading was inadvertently promoted by my mother.

In the first and second grades of primary school, my parents worked outside, and my brother and I lived with my grandparents. Every New Year, my mother will go home all the way and lead my brother and me back to my grandfather's house for more than a month until the end of the Spring Festival.

Every time she comes back, she always brings a lot of things, which are gifts for her family, as well as new clothes and shoes for my brother and me. That time of year is always my happiest day.

One year she came back and bought two fairy tale books for my brother and me. I clearly remember that they are Grimm's fairy tales and Andersen's fairy tales.

My brother threw it away without reading it, but I was deeply attracted by the story inside. I have read those two books again and again, I don't know how many times.

Since then, I have always loved reading books such as stories, but at that time, my family was poor, there were many children at home, and my grandparents gave less care and care to each child. I only paid more attention to the younger ones, and it was even more impossible to buy books for me. It is not easy to take care of our food and clothes.

I went to look through my brothers and sisters' books. They are older than me. Sometimes there are beautiful stories in Chinese books. If I find such a chapter, I will read it several times. I remember I still kept that habit.

I still remember that after reading this article, I was immersed in it for a long time and felt sorry and sad for their sincere and short-lived friendship. So I watched it many times over and over again. When I studied that article, I clearly remembered every story in it, and I better understood the meaning of the article under the explanation of the exam.

In the next semester of the fifth grade, my brother and I were taken back by our parents. They opened a small clothing store in the town and earned a good income every day. Although they are not rich, they are not short of food and clothes.

In order to let my brother and I study hard, the level of school education in rural areas is not good, so we entrust people to give gifts. Finally, we became transfer students in the county. My brother is in grade one and I am in grade five.

My mother rented a house for us in the county, and I live with my brother. It was very cheap at that time, and the rent was only 80 yuan a month. My mother packed us up and settled in, and then I stayed for a few days and then went home to take care of the family business. Dad can't take care of it alone.

That time was the most difficult time in my memory. I am in a completely strange place, and I am not familiar with everything around me. I remember my brother and I learned how to make noodles for the first meal, but the noodles were too hard and cooked very thick, but we ate them anyway because we were really hungry.

At school, the atmosphere is different from that in my hometown. The classroom in my hometown is serious, and the teachers are quiet and upright when they enter the classroom, and dare not speak. I thought it was the same here. When I first entered the class, everyone's eyes were focused on me. I can't describe the tension and fear. When I was sitting in my seat, the bell rang, and I just sat straight without saying a word. I didn't notice the curiosity of the front and back tables, so I heard them whisper, "She is dumb ..."

It is said that the beginning is very important, and my beginning is so poor that I didn't achieve much later. I can't keep up with my studies, and I don't like talking. I always listen to Nuo Nuo. My clothes are dirty, so it is normal to be isolated.

At that time, I was reading in the corner of the classroom. After reading a little in the classroom, I couldn't put it down. I borrowed it and hid it under the covers at night. I stole a look with a flashlight and cried. I thought the girl there was me, but it wasn't me, because at least one person was with her, and I didn't have anyone. That book is called Yangmei.

So I began to look forward to change. I want to be like everyone else. I want to feel less inferior. I want sunshine. But it's not that easy. Compared with a group of people, one person is too weak.

From small to large, except for good grades in Chinese, math and English are not good. Therefore, English and math teachers have always looked down on me except the Chinese teacher who speaks softly to me. From elementary school to the second day of the second semester, I was slapped in the face and got a lot of sticks and bamboo sticks on my legs and ass. When they hit me, there was laughter all over the floor, which seriously hurt my self-esteem and made me feel more inferior and panic.

However, those teachers are occasionally gentle in private. Whenever my grades rise a little, they will smile and talk to me. I love and hate them.

So everything began to boil down to their own incompetence.

When I was in junior high school, my brother went to another city, leaving me alone in the rental house. At that time, in order to facilitate contact, my mother bought me a touch-tone phone, so listening to music became another hobby besides reading. Don't turn it off when you sleep.

During that time, apart from the school, the longest place I went was the two rented bookstores next to the school. They are small, but they are all books. The new one hasn't been opened yet, and the old one has been turned upside down. The bookshelf on the right side of the door is my frequent place. I've almost finished reading all the books on that shelf. They are all from Rao Xueman and Mingxi, and there are magazines like EG, which cost fifty cents a day. I'm always quick.

I have read a series of books, such as The Hourglass, The Golden Castle of Little Demon, Secret Fruit, Sweet and Sour, Left Ear, Parting Song, The Dress of School uniform and so on. I have read the book "There will be an angel who loves you for me" many times.

I also saw the Tibetan mastiff and was deeply moved by the feelings of people and animals in the story. I used to think that Tibetan mastiffs were sacred animals. Later, I read many novels by Shen, among which Dream of the Wolf King is my favorite. So I especially like small animals such as cats and dogs later.

Every page of the story makes my lonely and gloomy days full and interesting. In countless nights, I share joys and sorrows with them.

I am glad that my soul is not covered with dust because it stays in a dark corner, but finds a colorful little world in it, letting me know that the original world is not just what it looks like.

That may be one of the few happy times in my life.

I have never changed my habit of reading, and my favorite is stories. My two favorite books recently are The Dedication of Suspect X and Night Walk by Keigo Higashino.

Sometimes, as long as a person lives well, it is enough to save a person.

-Keigo Higashino's "Dedication of Suspect X"

There is no sun in my sky, it is always night, but it is not dark, because something has replaced the sun. Although it is not as bright as the sun, it is enough for me. With this lamp, I can treat night as day. I never have the sun, so I'm not afraid to lose it.

? -Keigo Higashino's White Night

These two sentences are my favorite respectively.

I'm Yusen, and I just want to live the rest of my life.

If you want to know whether the life in your memory is really so beautiful, then you should take a walk in your memory, and then you will have the answer. Don't trap yourself in memory. What you need to do is to live your life in reality.

Self-love is calmness, and then love.

Can you tell me your story? You speak softly and I listen quietly.

I'm Yusen, and you?