Sitting in front of the desk in the library, quietly looking at the books on the shelf and smelling the mimeographed smell of retro paper, I really don't want to come to the library to do anything that has nothing to do with learning. I just want to be in a daze in that dignified and quiet environment.

I'm a little lazy this semester. I will sleep for a long time when there is no class in the afternoon. Besides, as soon as the alarm clock rings, I pretend I can't hear it, or press the alarm clock angrily and continue to sleep. Suddenly I feel that time is too precious. I sleep so much every day, but I seem to have no other strength except to gain weight. Looking at the dribs and drabs of time, I found that I was no longer young and should be responsible for my life.

I slept for an hour this afternoon, although it was still a little long. I got up at once, packed my things and rode my bike to the library. Grandma often teaches me that if I want to do something, I will do it at once. Don't complain. I would rather do it than hesitate. Just like today, I said I didn't bring my cell phone to class in the morning. I will never make any excuses for myself. Although it is inefficient to go to class without a mobile phone, at least I won't repeatedly browse boring web pages in class.

I remember Lu Sihao once said, "Don't disappoint people when you love, the scenery when you play, the bed when you sleep, and yourself when you are alone."

I think when I'm alone, I should be responsible for myself, and I don't have to study, but at least I should do something meaningful, even painting and doodling, even reading novels, even exercising. Anyway, I should have something to do.

I am not a very self-disciplined person either, but I know I can achieve real self-discipline and really make a lot of progress than my peers. My grandmother is a self-disciplined woman. She gets up at five o'clock every morning, exercises, makes breakfast and goes to bed at ten o'clock every night, except for insomnia. Grandma can arrange her life to the fullest every day. In her spare time, grandma will read books and tell me stories of her youth. I really admire her.

No matter who I talk to now, I will praise my grandmother in my speech. This may be the light from a self-disciplined person, and that kind of power will attract me to be equal to her, even better than her.

Every time I am in the library, I will reflect on myself. It's different in the dormitory. I just want to play in the dormitory. It seems that the study venues must be separated. Don't try to play in the library or study room, nor try to study in the dormitory.

Now many articles are encouraging self-discipline, and I think self-discipline is indeed a great advantage. But the premise of self-discipline is that we must know what we really need, and then stick to it unswervingly and restrain some of our bad behaviors for this goal. Such self-discipline will give people the motivation to persist. Blind self-discipline is not worth advocating.

People need to be alone, and being alone can find their true self. I never fit in. I think gregarious is really lonely. Don't step into some circles if they are not suitable, because such circles can't help individuals grow at all, but only kill energy and time. Tetris tells us that as soon as you blend in, you will disappear. It is really sad to be a unique person, a special person, and not like being polished into the same soul by society.

Maybe in this flashy world, don't lose yourself. Keep a clear head and go forward, and your steps will be lighter.

Love what you love, do what you like and write what you think. This is not a happy thing.