Drinking, first you are drinking, then the wine is drinking you. Not only drinking, but also nine times out of ten.

Love can make or break a person. Unrequited love is even more so.

My whole life

Borges Argentina

I am always close to happiness and cherish painful caresses.

I crossed the ocean. I know many places.

I love a proud white girl who has peace in Spain.

I have seen the endless countryside, where I have completed the endless immortality of the west.

I have tasted many words. I'm sure this is everything. I will never see it again, and I will never do anything new.

I believe that my poverty and wealth day and night are equal to God and all people.

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From maze to freedom

Author: Liu Qing

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1June, 986, Argentine poet and novelist Borges died in Geneva. At the age of 86, he learned that he was suffering from cancer and moved to Geneva, where he lived and remembered when he was young. There, Maria Eryu, 47 years younger than him, decided to marry him. Her company gave him the long-awaited peace, and when his life was about to become ruins, the love rose he longed for all his life bloomed. He once wrote a poem "My Life":

I am always close to happiness and cherish painful caresses.

I crossed the ocean. I know many places.

I love a proud white girl who has peace in Spain.

I have seen the endless countryside, where I have completed the endless immortality of the west.

I have tasted many words. I'm sure this is everything.

I will never see it again, and I will never do anything new.

I believe that my poverty and wealth day and night are equal to God and all people.

Less than ten poems, I have finished writing all my life. He lived 86 years and 9 months. Many times, he was accompanied by bitterness, failure and neglect. He was tortured by failed love again and again, suffering from failing to meet his parents' expectations, and spent many lonely times in self-blame and shame. He felt that fate was mean to him, waiting for too many years and breaking his heart too many times.

He believes that if a person's life can be simplified into two or three scenes, then love is unavoidable in his life scenes.

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It is Borges' fate to fall in love with Nora Langer. 1924, Borges ended his study tour in Europe and returned to Buenos Aires. He ended a hopeless love that was suppressed by his mother from the beginning, and he met the writing bottleneck for the first time. At this time, his cousin Nora Langer became famous in the circle of poets because of her beauty. Borges's lame colleague wrote an exaggerated love poem praising Nora: "With the eyes of a sleepwalker, it is full of tragic sentiment and extremely sweet." Nora has red hair and is out of line. She is a tomboy. She started writing at the age of fourteen, and her childish poems showed a desire to find a substitute for her dead father. My cousin's unrestrained action and the fragile feeling immersed in the shadow of his father's death mixed into a romantic atmosphere, and Borges fell. Seeing her, he believed that the source of inspiration came again.

"Here she comes, attracting an iron like me like a magnet/She has lovely red hair and is charming." This is Borges's poem "Beautiful Red Hair" by Apollinaire and Nora. He thinks she is a guide, which will lead him to discover the poems of the inner superego. Soon, Nora became famous in the circle of poets. She was a female disciple of Borges. At a dinner party, Borges introduced Girondo to her. During the dinner, Nora accidentally knocked over the red wine. Girondo approached her and whispered, "There is blood between us." Turning embarrassment into flirting, 2 1 year-old Nora was tempted. This double veteran of literature field and love field, let her know that he is the one who is destined to be. Her gentle and sickly cousin Borges brought her to the party, but in the end, she followed Girondo.

This is a great shame for Borges. It is an open secret that Borges hates Girondo. Borges, who is short-sighted and stuttering, despises each other's redundant masculinity, and their literary concept is even more wrong. What is even more exasperating is that Nora, whom he regarded as a treasure, became an abandoned wife in Gyirondo-she was abandoned twice by this prodigal son. Girondo left without saying goodbye for the first time and went to Paris. The second time, Girondo returned to Argentina to handle his father's funeral, and then confessed to her that he had a home in London. Then I went back to Europe, ignored him and didn't hear from him.

The poor girl is deeply in unrequited love. This is a serial secret love, Borges can't stop loving Nora, and Nora can't stop loving Girondo. Borges proposed impulsively, hoping that marriage would make her forget this tragic relationship. Borges, 28, and Nora, 22, were engaged informally. However, Girondo, whose wife died, actually came back from Europe. Nora's heart was torn again, but this time she was sure that her cousin's long-term companionship could not get her love. In order to end this muddled account, she decided to stay at her sister's house in Oslo for one year.

Nora's choice made Borges very painful. He wrote in his mind: "Your voice is the voice of love, full of the power and brilliance of love. I have forgotten the voices of' I love you', but your voice enslaved me. " While writing these sentences, he fantasized that one day he could regain Nora's love.

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1929 In February, Nora returned to Argentina and refused to keep close relationship with Borges again. For Borges, this blow was huge and became a turning point in his writing. In June, Borges published an article on the theme of hell, exploring whether suffering has an end.

He wrote in the postscript: "Lonely sobriety is hell. Without any direction and clear goals, this is my destiny in life. " In August, "Notes of Saint Martin" was published, which was a farewell book of his career as a poet. He wrote a poem of 14. Facing the mess of love, he gave up. After that, he turned to prose and critical writing.

Without love, writing is almost unsustainable. He hesitated for two or three years. From 1930 to 1932, he wrote several critical articles about novel art. In the Art and Magic of Narration, he clearly pointed out for the first time that the novel is not a mirror of reality, but an "autonomous territory", and the novel is "a linguistic means" in essence. The establishment of this concept is very important. He decided to make up for his loss through novels-both emotionally and in writing. He wants to find the meaning of Borges in the novel.

Borges' creative path is controversial, and he was once commented as "an obscure brain game".

At the same time, Nora is not willing to be a heartbroken young woman in literature and art. She is determined to get rid of the name "the poet's companion" independently of the influence of Borges and Girondo. When Borges published his first collection of short stories, Biography of Villains, Nora wrote the novel 45 Days and 30 Sailors. Since then, an active female writer has appeared in the literary salon in Buenos Aires. Nie Luda, then the cultural consul of the Chilean Embassy in Argentina, and lorca, who came from afar, were both admirers of Nora. At that time, the rumors about Nora, Nie Luda and lorca spread all over the literary circle of Buenos Aires.

Of course, this word reached the ears of Borges, who was mad with jealousy. The obsession with Nora is an obstacle for him. After several years of not writing poetry, he tried to write English poetry, with tears in his eyes: "I can dedicate my loneliness, my darkness and my thirst;" Now I want to bribe you with uncertainty, danger and failure. " But that doesn't change the reality. She doesn't love him, and he doesn't even have a chance to be a spare tire.

This kind of one-way love has dragged on for more than ten years before drawing a symbolic full stop. This is an accident. Nora's family decided to move and sell their old house. That big house is where Borges' love happened, and he and Nora often date there. Once, they met and sat on the steps leading to the cellar. She told him that she thought the cellar was "a permanent and safe place". The place that embodies his unforgettable memories will change hands, which led Borges to write his most famous short story "Alef". The subtext of this novel is his failed love for Nora. The hero's lover died in February 1929, and Nora returned from Oslo. She explicitly asked for the dissolution of her engagement with Borges. The hero visits the house where his dead lover lived every year, but one day, the house is demolished. Memories will become ruins. At this moment, he knew a kind of magic ball called "Alef", which can let people see the instantaneous scene of the whole universe. And this magic ball is not anywhere else, just on the steps leading to the cellar.

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Inara, Borges' immortal wish at this time, wrote in his dedication to The Legend of Villains: "I dedicate the only remaining core to her, to an inner heart that is not disturbed by time and emotion." Even though Nora is already Girondo's spouse. He can only keep memories of his sweetheart.

After 1929, many of Borges' writing attempts failed. He was in great pain, trapped in his own thoughts and fascinated by the authorities. 1940, he wrote the library of Babel, setting the universe as a library, and human beings were trapped in a huge geometric building, trying to find out the purpose of life, but everything was in vain, and life was just a pre-advertised design. When writing this story, Borges was immersed in disillusionment, and the direction of life and writing was not clear. At that time, he had written a novel for 10 years, but he was always criticized for not writing a decent plot and was considered an unworthy novelist.

The Garden with Bifurcated Paths, which was later regarded as the "Herald Bible", was a failure when it was first published. There is a cliche in the critics of Buenos Aires that this is a decadent work with exotic colors, hovering between "detective novels and profound knowledge". Borges is ambitious, but The Garden with Bifurcated Paths missed out on 1942 "Argentine National Literature Award". This is the strongest sting that writing brings to him. He feels that he has been abandoned in the dark by himself, which is too bitter.

Two years later, he collected six short stories, which were written behind a garden with a forked path. This title clearly expresses his long-standing intention that the novel is an artificial structure, isolated from reality. Because of fiction, the Argentine Writers' Association decided to award Borges a "Great Honor Award" to make up for the prejudice and misjudgment of The Garden with Bifurcated Paths. The award ceremony was held in July, 1945, and the dinner was grand. The brilliance of fame and fortune makes Borges happy. He feels that fantasy literature is no longer a marginalized style: "The stream of the imaginary world never stops flowing through our world."

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1940 to 1942 is the turning point of Borges' life. His father's death had a great influence on him. When he was a child, he formed a wonderful and tacit alliance with his father, resisting the noble mother's ambition of "honoring her ancestors". He will embark on the road of literature and follow in his father's footsteps, although his father only wrote a few poems and an unfinished novel, The Chief. After his father died, Borges experienced the darkest days of his life. In his depression, he fell in love with Divine Comedy, Dante replaced his father, and he no longer had it.

Borges thinks The Divine Comedy is Dante's real experience. After reading The Divine Comedy repeatedly, he rekindled hope, words met experience, spiritual love was redeemed, and he would also find his own Beatrice. 1940 or so, he devoted himself to Nora's sister Heidi. Of course, the essence of this feeling is literary practice, not the love between men and women. Borges wants to write like Dante. He wanted to write an autobiographical myth, so he decided to revise the unsuccessful autobiographical novel The Road to Motasin. His goal is to "cover all my previous works and summarize and explain all my books so far." It will start with a novel and end with a myth. "The novel of this plan has been revised several times and has been delayed for nearly 30 years. When it was officially published, it became a semi-autobiographical short story "Congress".

Congress and his father's chief have deep similarities-a great leader stands between civilization and barbarism, and the love of young people urges the leader to make a decision, which tragically changes the ending of the story. Before his death, Borges's father hoped that his son could rewrite Emirates instead of him. Congress can be regarded as Borges' commitment to his father for 30 years. In the father's story, the chief can't tolerate his daughter's cross-border love, and the passion of lovers is compared to the river bursting its banks. Like his father, Borges used rivers as a metaphor for love, but he patched up the broken pastoral poem described by his father and rewrote the ending of The Chief. Based on the structure of his father's original work, he spread Dante's myth, from hell to purgatory and then to heaven. When he finalized the story, it was already 1970. He broke through thousands of difficulties and dangers, and once again issued a cry and whisper of self-salvation: he hoped that words could illuminate life, and words were both the source and the end of life; He also wants to regain the love of a woman who can take him to his own heaven.

Jorges Luis Borges (1899-65438 August 24th +65438 June+04,0986), whose Chinese translation is Bohemia or Borges. Argentine writer, poet and translator. His works cover many literary categories, including short stories, essays, essays, poems, literary criticism and translated literature. Good at talking with substance and profound philosophy.

My life

Here, lips full of memories are unique, similar to yours.

I am such a slow intensity, a soul.

I am always close to happiness and cherish painful caresses.

I crossed the ocean.

I've known a lot of land and met a woman and two or three men.

I love a proud white girl who has peace in Spain.

I have seen the endless countryside, where I have completed the endless immortality of the west.

I have tasted many words.

I'm sure this is everything. And I, too, will never see you again and can't do anything new.

I believe that I am as poor and rich as God and all people.

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