Old quiet suburban park. The leaves of yellow Qiu Feng are slowly swept away, which has been neglected for a long time, a path overgrown with weeds.
The Persian horse drove Paul to the city here. He accompanied the eccentric passenger out of the car and couldn't help asking, "why are you here?" Are there any girls here? There is no theater. Only jackals wander here ... What are you doing here? I really don't understand, Comrade Chairman, let's go back in my car! "
Kochakin's money paid for the car and the old man left.
The park is empty. Paul was on the beach, and we found a bench to sit down, facing the sun, and we have become a person who spends less time in the sun.
His car came to this secluded place to consider how to arrange his future life. It's time to summarize and make a decision.
When he came again, the family conflict between Qiu Cha and Mu reached its climax. He heard the old man's words again, and the flies were frantic and noisy at home. It was Paul who took the lead in resisting. The old man didn't expect to be strongly resisted by his wife and two daughters, and then he came to see Paul for the second time. This is to be separated, hostile to each other and hostile to each other. The old couple in the corridor leading to the room have been crucified, and a small room wing is rented out for Kochajin. Pay the old rent in advance. He seems to calm down soon, because his two daughters are independent, and it no longer asks him to pay the living expenses.
For diplomatic reasons, Albina and the old man still live together. The young man who lives in the old man's house has never been there and won't meet that hateful man, but he likes to gasp loudly like a locomotive in the yard to show that he is the boss.
After the old man goes to work, there will be two craft shoemakers and carpenters in the cooperative. Now, he has left the board workshop, where he has a freelance job to earn some extra money. He quickly moved the stool under Paul's window, deliberately embarrassing the tenants. He knocked on the nail and was in high spirits. He knew it might hinder Paul from reading.
"You wait, one day, I hope you can step down and start from here ..." He said to himself: often.
Distance, near the horizon, is like a ship spewing smoke like a cloud. A flock of seagulls screamed and jumped into the sea.
Kochakin held his head in his hands and lost in thought. His whole life, from childhood to now, flashed before his eyes. What was his life like in 24 years? Is it good or bad? He recalled that year after year, he looked at his life like a ruthless judge. As a result, he felt very happy and he had a good life. Of course, stupidity, because of youth and ignorance, has also made many mistakes. But the most important thing is that in the hot years of struggle, he didn't sleep in the cruel struggle, found his own job and seized power, but there were also a few drops of his blood on the red flag of the revolution.
Despite his best efforts, he never left the team. Now that his health has collapsed, he can't stand any longer. There's only one way to the rear hospital. He remembers the battle. Near Warsaw, a soldier was hit by a quilt, fell off his horse and fell to the ground. Comrades hurriedly bandaged his wound, rescued him and flew forward to catch up with the enemy. The squadron didn't lose a soldier because it stopped. It is accurate when playing, but it should be a great cause. Of course there are exceptions. He will see a machine gunner without legs and a machine gun that insists on fighting in the car. They are soldiers who fear the enemy. They were sent to the machine guns that killed and destroyed the enemy. Iron, they will never miss marksmanship because of the pride of each team. However, such people are rare.
Now, his body has completely collapsed and there is no hope of returning to the team. How should he deal with himself? He finally learned the truth from the entrance of the new star market: he should be mentally prepared for the future, and he will encounter more terrible things. So, what should we do? If the black hole is dark and placed in front of him, there is no problem.
Now, he has lost the most precious thing-fighting ability, so is he still alive? Today, tomorrow, in the bleak, what does he use to prove that he is not fooling around? What if I come to enrich my life? Just eat, drink and breathe? Just as a helpless bystander, watching his comrades fight ahead of time? In this way, become a burden to the team? Should the meat that betrayed him be destroyed? Just shot, chest, all the problems are solved! They can live a good life, and now they should be able to end this life as soon as possible. Does anyone blame a hanged soldier for not wanting to fight?
He touched the flat bracket of his pocket with his hand and got used to holding the Browning pistol with his fingers. He slowly pulled out his pistol.
"Who would have thought that you would have such a day?"
The gun looked him in the eye contemptuously. Paul put the pistol on her lap and severely reprimanded them:
"The elder brothers, this is false heroism! Suicide, no fool can do it at any time, is the most cowardly and simple way to broadcast the fertility dilemma, especially suicide. What kind of life are you trying to overcome? In order to get rid of this, you must make every effort. Did you forget that the seventh attack was launched near the new town of Wollensky? The odds that eventually beat all the cities? Put away your pistol. Don't tell anyone about it, even if life is unbearable, you can live a good life and live a useful and fulfilling life. "
BR/>； He stood up and walked to the road. A mountain man went into town in a carriage and threw him off the belt. At the crossroads, he bought a local newspaper. Notice published in the newspaper: Demjan, Municipal Party Committee, don't rely on club meetings on German territory. Paul came home late at night. He made a speech at the meeting. He didn't expect that this was the last time he called at the meeting.
[Opinion] The following is a description of Paul's first mental crisis. It is a way of inner monologue, which vividly reproduces Paul's desperate heart at the difficult moment when he was sick and lost his fighting ability, and finally overcame his weakness and self-abandonment. His psychological description is delicate and touching.
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[2] Paul Gao Liang and Daya went to Moscow and filed in the office for a few days. Responsible for helping Paul authorities get to the hospital.
Until now, Paul realized that when a person is young and strong, it is relatively simple and easy to achieve strength. Today, life is like a scene when you close the hoop. They can still be tenacious and glorious.
Paul admitted that a month and a half had passed since that night. This is 18 months, and his pain is hard to express in words.
In the hospital, Professor auerbach told Paul bluntly that it was impossible to restore his sight. There is little hope for the future. If the inflammation can subside, you can try pupil surgery. He suggested that as the first surgical treatment, inflammation should be eliminated.
They listened to Paul. Paul said he agreed with everything the doctor thought needed to be done.
When he was lying on the operating table, the scalpel cut his neck and cut the parathyroid gland. The black wings of death have touched him three times. But Paul's vitality is very tenacious. Daya is waiting anxiously outside. A few hours later, she saw her husband's face as pale as a human being, but he was still angry, but calm and gentle as usual: "Good girl, don't worry, will it be so easy for me to walk into the coffin and live the life I want, even those who deliberately tamper with the predictions of medical authorities?" They told me that the diagnosis was completely correct, but I have lost my ability to work. Write a certificate, and we'll make another big mistake ... "
Paul firmly chose a road and decided to move towards a new life through the team of builders of this road.
Winter has passed, and it is spring outside the window. Paul had an operation in the past and finally escaped, but there was no bleeding. He felt that he couldn't stay in the hospital any longer. In all kinds of patients' groans and laments, how difficult it is for him to endure the pain for such a long time.
The doctor advised him to do more surgery, and he said coldly, "So far, I have spent enough blood to participate in science, and I will do the rest now." "
One day, Paul wrote a letter to the Central Committee of the Communist Party of China, asking for help to settle down in Moscow, because his wife worked, but it was useless for him to stay in hospital. He turned to the party for help for the first time. Moscow, the house allocated to him by the Soviet Union. Therefore, Paul left the hospital, and his only hope was never to come back.
The house is in a secluded alley in Kropotkin Street, which is very simple, but in his view, it is already very luxurious. When he wakes up at night, he often doesn't believe that he wants to stay away from the hospital.
Full member of Daya. Her work is hard, but unfortunately, her personal life, but she did not lag behind other advanced workers. Some workers believe these words: a man and a woman: she was elected to the factory Committee. Paul became the pride of the Bolsheviks, because his lifelong companion eased his pain.
As soon as Bazarova went to Moscow, he came to see Paul. They had a long talk. Paul enthusiastically chose her own road, and it is through this road that he will be able to return to the ranks of soldiers.
Cochakin's silver hair has been found in the temple of Ba Sharnova. He said softly, "I can see that you have experienced a lot of pain, but you still haven't lost its eternal enthusiasm." What could be more precious than this? You have been preparing for five years, and now you decide to write, which is very good, but how to write? "
Paul smiled and comforted her and said, "Tomorrow they will give me a good chance to send a chessboard. The chessboard is made of cardboard. Without this board, I can't write, overlapping different lines. I thought about it for a long time and came up with such a way, that is, to carve an article in the carton, so I won't write it directly on the pencil grid. I can't see. It's hard to write, but I believe it has no law to do so. "
Paul began to work. He intended to write a novella about the cavalry division of the hero Cotoman Kovsky, and the title came out without hesitation: The Storm was Born.
From that day on, Paul devoted himself to writing this book. He read slowly from page to page, line by line. He forgot everything, and all his body and mind were immersed in the characters in the book, and he tasted the hardships of creation for the first time: sometimes, those vivid and unforgettable scenes reappeared clearly in his mind, but he could not express them, that is to say, the words he wrote seemed so pale and weak, lacking in vitality and passion.
Part of it, he must remember every word. Otherwise, the trail is one-off and the work will be hindered. The uneasy mother looked at her son's work.
At work, he had to recite the whole page or even the whole chapter from memory, so that his mother sometimes thought he was crazy. When Paul was writing, she didn't dare to go near him because he fell to the ground and picked up the manuscript. She just said timidly, "Fu Bao pulled the brake, and you learned to make other things better and use it to do it. Where am I, like someone you've met, writing nonstop ... "
Paul couldn't help laughing when he saw his mother unhappy, and comforted the old lady that he was not completely "crazy".
This is a literary work about Paul's persistent description and writing of cases of physical disability and blindness in order to continue fighting, and it is also a true portrayal of the writer Ostsky's life. Struggle with fate, indomitable spirit is the charm of the work. Vivid and humorous language sets off Paul's cheerful personality, and at the same time enhances the appeal of the product.