I first saw my favorite star, and recently made a short film. In this short film, he read the text of a novel On the Road.
The intersection of sound, words and images is quite moving, especially the slightly mysterious soundtrack, which left a deep impression on me. So I wanted to look on the road, so I wanted to find that background music.
The background music is called "Self-defense", which is a quite classic piece of music in the movie "Kill Your Favorite". Then, as if following the trace, I saw the brief introduction of the film-based on a real event, telling the story of how the core writers of the "beat generation" gathered, dispersed and "reborn" after World War II.
At that time, I had not started reading on the road. Out of curiosity about the author's early experience and understanding of the thought of "Beat Generation", I decided to watch the film translated into Kill Your Love.
I just didn't expect this movie to have a homosexual plot, and I didn't expect that the narrative protagonist of this movie is not Jack Kerouac, but allen ginsberg, another famous poet in the "Beat Generation".
The film begins with Allen being admitted to Columbia University.
He changed the course of his life because he met a handsome classmate named Lucian Carr. Through Lucian, he met William S. Burroughs, Jack Kerouac and David Camaro. These defeated literary giants who will write famous works such as Howl, Naked Lunch and On the Road in the future have come together, because they are all rebellious and crazy about reality.
At that time, they were young and frivolous, and launched a cultural movement called "New Vision" with Lucian as the core. They are addicted to drugs and alcohol, they are addicted to sexual desire and madness, they try to break the traditional writing form, they sneak into the restricted area of the school library and try to bring banned literary works back to the public's field of vision.
However, just as the "New Horizon" movement became more and more mature, the relationship between Lucian and David began to be chaotic. From the beginning of the film, David appeared to be very ambiguous with Lucian.
He seems to be Lucian's guardian, but he seems not. He can be a professor, but he is willing to be a cleaner for Lucian. He took great pains to approach Lucian, but Lucian tried his best to escape David's pursuit.
With Allen's affection for Lucian gradually developing into admiration, the film reveals the true relationship between David and Lucian to the audience. In the constant pull of the two, Lucian and Jack meet and escape from the sea, which finally destroys this relationship.
After David stopped their escape plan, Lucian broke up with David and ended David's life with a knife on the night of the argument.
Jack helped him hide the murder weapon, and William helped him find a lawyer, so he went to prison. Finally, Allen was left alone in the prison, so Lucian begged him to help him write a defense.
Lucian expects Allen to describe David as a homosexual who pesters heterosexuals in exchange for almost innocent punishment. But when Allen returned to the "New Horizon" stronghold that David had provided at the beginning, he realized that Lucian had been lying. He is deceiving others as well as himself.
He obviously loves David. According to the conclusion of the film, the author has doubts about the real situation.
At the end of the movie, Jack and Allen were released on bail and left new york respectively. Allen wanted to provide suspicious evidence for the prosecution by speculating on his novels.
But he didn't stay until the last minute. He didn't make the so-called disclosure, but gave the novel to the teacher as a final assignment.
This novel full of eroticism and homosexual complex will naturally not be affirmed, and the school will even expel him for it.
He insisted that his works should not be withdrawn and dropped out of Columbia University.
Lucian was convicted of "honor murder" and released from prison two years later to start over in new york.
Since then, the "new vision" has completely disintegrated, and the four of them have embarked on their own literary journeys.
I think "killing the person I love to be reborn" is the most important theme of the whole movie.
Lucian loves David, but he refuses to admit that he is gay. He denied his love. However, that beautiful but taboo feeling finally became an inevitable part of his life.
So in the end he chose to kill David and bid farewell to his old love. Break those things that have been revolving around him.
He was destroyed, he was rebuilt and he started a new life.
But I am more interested in the rebirth of the whole New Horizon without movies.
Some people say that Lucian is the muse of the other three people in New Horizon. With his talent and charm, he gathered these restless young people and showed them a completely different world.
They sing, they burn, they are crazy. The "new vision" led by Lucian is the embryonic form of "broken literature". Finally, it was Lucian who ended the organization by killing people.
After the murder, Allen left Columbia University to continue writing, and later published his masterpiece Howling and Others. The title page of the first edition of this collection of poems was "Dedicated to Lucian", but this sentence was deleted at Lucian's urging when it was reprinted.
Jack left new york and embarked on a journey, which allowed him to write his masterpiece during the journey.
Later, based on Lucian's murder, Jack and William co-wrote a classic tough guy mystery novel "And the hippo was boiled to death in the sink".
The New Horizon died, but it didn't destroy Allen and others. On the contrary, it merged with them and brought "broken literature".
Jack wrote in the novel On the Road: "I like to follow people who interest me all my life. Because in my opinion, real people are crazy ... they never get tired, never say anything ordinary, but like a wonderful yellow Roman fireworks tube, they keep erupting fireballs and sparks. "
I think Lucian must be one of those crazy people in his life. His beauty, talent, innocence, rebellion, elegance and charm nourished the "Beat Generation" and laid the foundation of this far-reaching literary school.
But he is so unreal that someone in Zhihu asks:
Of course there is. The answer is undoubtedly unification.
When I came up with this idea and conceived this article, I walked alone in the campus late at night, and I couldn't help but recall the past and the muse that never belonged to me.
It was a very magical feeling, and his existence itself was already a source of inspiration. His manners, his language, what he talked about and what he experienced all inspire your strong and creative heart.
When he exists, what you want is not what to write, but how to write, how to write better.
Mr. Kitajima once said: "Writing is a lonely craft."
I am convinced. But Muse, but Lucian, their existence can make writing less lonely after all.
So, unfortunately, I can only endure loneliness until the next muse comes.
Give this document to the muse in my life.