One day three years ago, I accidentally brushed QQ space and mobile phone Tencent. I browsed Bai's article "No Peace, No Happiness" and read an interview about Huang Lei's family life. The internet sometimes feels too fancy and noisy, but sometimes it will be a little refreshing to make your eyes shine or a few thought-provoking blog posts make people suddenly enlightened. Maybe it is true that there is no simple bad or extreme good in this era.
Therefore, this is the most complicated era of human nature.
While holding a red envelope, the doctor performed several operations in succession and finally collapsed on the operating table; On the one hand, teachers punish students and resolutely take exam-oriented education. On the other hand, they have neglected their children at home for many years and devoted themselves to their work. On the one hand, officials may be corrupt, but on the other hand, there is no weekend, and business is doing well. No wonder sometimes people say, "I'm afraid you won't do it if I'm not afraid of your greed!" "
In fact, when it comes to yourself, I'm afraid so. Half seawater, half flame, falling and rising. Who's not struggling? Right, wrong, how to evaluate? Good, bad, how to evaluate? The coast, where? (Part of the original quotation)
Because the society is too diverse, the personnel are too complicated, and the operation of various social systems is too complicated, we often get lost when we walk and have to stop running around.
However, after confusion and a short rest, what attitude should we take to continue the next journey? Do we often forget why we started? Sometimes, it is not the confusion after a trip that catches our feet and refuses to let go, because most of the confusion will make people think, and then continue on the road, but it is too comfortable, completely losing the fighting spirit, or more appropriately, it is a hopeless life.
It seems that there is always a hope in life, no matter how humble it seems to others, but at least in your heart, you recognize it.
This September 1, we finally didn't have to start school as usual. Finally, I don't have to pack my bags in the last few days of August, and then I have to transport myself from one city to another by cold transport. Waiting for us in the distance is the unknown scenery for half a year.
What we don't know is that we will miss this September 1 many years later. Say miss, not all miss. Because, in the university campus, not always happy. We will also face complicated class affairs, stick to our own opinions in front of bad-tempered people, worry that the computer will hang up, feel that those thick and boring medical books can't be finished, and be afraid that we won't survive the exam month of Grade Five. In the library, there is little time to really lean back in the chair and quietly turn over extra-curricular books. Where have you been these four years? ...
Perhaps what I really miss is that here, no one knows your past, no one knows your past, and everything is a new beginning.
I also miss the ripples of the unnamed lake in Guangyi, as well as my group of Iraqis, my lovely roommates, several people with similar interests, and occasionally a few teachers who have a deep influence on me. I think that's all.
Four years of college campus life can be introduced in just a few lines, which is pitifully simple. Of course, these four years, in addition to these, in addition to campus, hometown association, editorial team, part-time life, internship in affiliated hospitals, are also indelible.
But after all, I don't miss it very much now, probably because I haven't been hit too hard at work, and I haven't reached the point where I want to escape from reality and return to campus to study. It's just, I know, I will miss it eventually. Just like my high school, although it has too many imperfections, what time reminds us is the good times that make us intoxicated enough.
Last night, I quietly flipped through the photos of high school over and over again. Some moments are so real, some smiles are so innocent that people are speechless, for fear that any sentence will break the truth. This is beyond anyone's understanding and interpretation from the angle of man-made and selfie. Of course, selfies were not popular at that time, and every time we had an unknown photographer, Jingjing, who was often accidentally ignored. It is Jingjing who has been recording warm moments for us with her own camera. Sometimes, when A talks about B in front of everyone, she always feels: What a kind and good girl she is. Then everyone immediately turned their eyes to B but ignored that A was the one who could read B. A saw the side that everyone could not see B. However, whose eyes turned gently to A? When everyone was laughing wantonly, who noticed Jingjing with a camera?
High school is not all good. Too many regrets. I was still racing with high school in my dream, but I suddenly woke up when I was about to catch up. Then there is endless loss, just like being poured a bucket of cold water from the top of your head, becoming more and more awake. However, those memories left in the dust of the years will always stay in my heart and will not be forgotten.
Just, in a blink of an eye, it's time to choose a city and meet people. And it will be hard to escape in the end.
Sometimes I wonder, which city to choose, there seems to be not much essential difference. Or go to work alone, cook porridge and buy food, be silent in front of everyone, sleep on my knees at night, and sometimes stay in a daze until dawn. There are many tall buildings and crowded roads in the city, which do not belong to your prosperity. The farther away from home, the more tired my heart is. However, the closer to home, will there be a place to put your heart?
We will get older and older, but I hope we don't get more and more sophisticated. This will make the road of growth full of thorns and loneliness, and will make the uneasy heart more afraid.
Sometimes, it's really sad to live in the same era as people on another planet. Maybe we will eventually become the kind of people we opposed. But I hope this day will not really come. But I really feel that I am slowly approaching that dead end.
I don't know when I started talking loudly. I almost forgot that I hate people who speak loudly and have a bad tone. I don't know when it started. Every time I pass the company intersection after work, it is often normal to run a red light. People may be too busy to wait for the red light to turn green. Many times, I have become more and more unfamiliar with myself, which is really a very sad thing. Man, if you give yourself up, who can save you?
Therefore, a high-quality circle of friends suddenly becomes particularly important. However, if you are not Niu X, what capital do you have with Niu X's people? Sadly, in the face of this melodramatic thing, I admit that I have never really defended it.
I like Huang Lei, or rather, I appreciate his rare silence. This year, inner peace has really become a real luxury. When you are alone in the world, no one will understand you, and even risk being labeled as eccentric and difficult to get along with. It's probably time to use all my courage to defend and protect the pure land of the soul. It doesn't matter if no one understands, but don't abandon your heart.
It is a great blessing to meet someone who understands you, tolerates you and treats you sincerely. It doesn't matter if you don't meet, take root quietly and bloom quietly.
Treat your heart sincerely. Be sure to keep the bottom line, the rest, just work hard, and the rest, give time.
Finally, I wish you all, no matter what city, how many jobs are not understood by others, you can be sincere from the heart, don't forget your active mind, keep the bottom line, and then try your best to bloom silently. Happiness is never the evaluation of others, but your inner feelings. So, from this moment, be happy.
Finally, I hope everyone will wait for you to pass by your bloom.
May we no longer drift from place to place