When I made an appointment with Feifei who was immersed in the sea of books, I felt a sense of accomplishment.

Feifei is my hometown, a traditional woman struggling in a modern city. She lives a life of two points and one line, and spends all the time at her disposal on reading. In her words, it is better to do something interesting with interesting people than to let the good times slip through your fingers.

I asked Feifei with great interest, what are interesting people and interesting things?

Feifei said without thinking: People who understand life, have connotation and foresight must be interesting people, and those who can keep loneliness and endure loneliness are the interesting people I understand.

I said don't just use loneliness as a shield to escape from reality, and don't get carried away by loneliness and just read. While you are enjoying loneliness, you don't know how many romantic moments pass by.

Feifei squinted at me and said: Loneliness is a kind of emotional appeal, which is more reliable than romance. I know my situation and what I need. The routine is different, so I don't have to force it.

What a unique routine, don't force it, pour my warm heart into the cold. Originally, the channels were different, so we really can't force them.

Feifei met her school sister at a hometown party, which caught my attention because she had Romeo and Juliet at hand.

That was my favorite novel in high school, so I leaned over and said to her:

17-year-old Romeo likes Rosalan, Rosalan just loves Romeo. Will the ending turn from sadness to joy?

Feifei adjusted her glasses on the bridge of her nose and said:

If the story ends with Romeo and Rosalan getting married, there will be no ups and downs and it will not be celebrated by the world. It is because of Romeo's unrequited love for Rosalan that Romeo and Juliet met and fell in love at first sight. Although the story ends in sadness, Romeo and Juliet are completely immersed in their passion and yearning for love, and Juliet's expression of the moon in Capulet Garden shows their warm emotional exchange and inseparable parting, playing a sentimental love youth carol.

From that moment on, I had an impression and a sense of shame on my junior, but I accidentally got a fellow villager with the same topic and learned that her name was Feifei in the chat.

After the party, I wrote my thesis day and night, completely forgetting Feifei. I met her again in the library. I looked up and saw Feifei when a voice whispered in my ear.

On that sunny afternoon, Feifei and I came to the lawn in front of the school square to talk about culture, study and life.

When talking about life, Feifei told a beautiful story about her past.

The reason why she loves books, endures loneliness and enjoys loneliness is because she has a crush on that boy Shu Tong.

Shu Tong's literary talent is particularly good. Articles are often published in the school newspaper and broadcast on the school radio station. But she didn't know that every article that must be written was written by Shu Tong, and she looked up and didn't bow.

By chance, Shu Tong inadvertently told her that she had won the first prize of the new concept composition, and Feifei suddenly remembered that an article she read some time ago was the one that Shu Tong said.

It was also from that time that Feifei's image of Shu Tong was upgraded from a good student to a worship. In order to let Shu Tong participate in her daily study and life, she tried to change their relationship. With the precipitation of time, Feifei hatched their relationship to the level of girlfriends.

She knew that the biggest difference between them was that they were surprised by their knowledge. Although every time she meets to talk about literature, Shu Tong always chooses simple and easy-to-understand discussions to communicate with her, but she always feels that her thoughts are empty. Every time I talk about literature, Feifei spends a lot of time catching up.

Feifei said that reading itself is very depressing, and unrequited love is more lonely. At first, she insisted a little confused. I don't know why she insists, because she can please others and speak freely in front of Shutong, or love me, love my dog? She never understood.

But in order to keep up with Shu Tong as soon as possible, she fell in love with a person's life. Eating alone, sleeping alone, sitting alone in the sun and thinking about Shutong will feel romantic. Even if the transition from classmates to lovers is lonely, she doesn't want to share her thoughts with others.

Later, she realized that there is really no need to dig into each other's lives for the sake of secretly loving someone, and there is no need to get angry inexplicably because she sees each other talking and laughing with other members of the opposite sex. Only by being yourself can others find a better self.

So that she was lonely during the whole secret love period of Shutong, especially when she thought of Shutong, the only thing she could do was to read books and read more books. She wants to talk to Shu Tong about literature with a brand-new attitude, instead of being indulged by Shu Tong to listen to his literature. The feeling of closeness is romantic.

To this end, she put an end to outside interference, canceled useless social circles, and the library became the only place to go after class. That year, she endured loneliness and read nearly 100 books, from Chinese and foreign masterpieces to inspirational literature, and then to chicken soup for the soul. When she felt qualified to exchange romantic time in literature with Shu Tong, there were other girls around Shu Tong.

Feifei heaved a sigh and continued.

Loneliness can shape a calm heart, leaving silent expectations and longings. Looking forward to romance and beauty. But loneliness and romance are two different moods. Romance can be a lie, but loneliness will never cheat.

Just like her and Shu Tong, when she is fighting for his romance by guarding loneliness, he is playing romance with his beloved girl. It turns out that loneliness is really a kind of emotional appeal, and what is more romantic is the reading habit that loneliness brings to her and makes it useful for life.

When I say romantic, I am worried about losing that romantic person. When I am lonely, I am not worried about losing loneliness. Because people are still eager for romance, they just have to be able to withstand loneliness.

There are thousands of Buddhas, but people have one side. You can think of loneliness as a more reliable mood than romance, perhaps because you are well informed. For many things that you couldn't understand before, it seems normal now, which shows that you are very talented and know how to weigh the weight between loneliness and romance.

Loneliness is not an innate sentiment, and romance is not a relaxed feeling. When you accept and enjoy loneliness, you have surpassed romance at least in the ideological level, so you think loneliness is more reliable than romance.

Then I went on to say, don't just enjoy loneliness and ignore reality, don't be swept off your feet by loneliness and only read. While enjoying loneliness, you should also tease romance appropriately.

Feifei squinted at me and said, I know my situation, and I know what I need better. The routine is different, so I don't have to force it.

What a unique routine, don't force it, pour my warm heart into the cold. Originally, the channels were different, so we really can't force them.

I really don't understand the so-called "loneliness is a kind of sentiment, which is more reliable than romance". No wonder I sit up and take notice of Feifei and admit defeat.

I said it seems more difficult to invite you shopping for dinner in the future, right?

Feifei seriously said:

That depends on the mood.

So I understand that when she defines playing loneliness as emotional appeal, she thinks romance is unreliable, because romance can be a lie, but loneliness never derails.