? "Long time no see, I'm fine, and you?" Corners of the mouth up lightly replied. I think I must be ugly at the moment, because I can feel my heart churning like a rough sea. This feeling is not pain, but perhaps sudden sadness is more appropriate.
? "I'm all right. Where are you now? Is it easy to work? " "I have been a teacher in Wuyi Middle School for several years. I have enough to eat and drink, and my work is stable and I am quite satisfied." "It's good. If only girls were so safe. " Just like an ordinary friend I haven't seen for years, no, even an ordinary friend wouldn't be so perfunctory and polite.
? "Green light, do you want to the past? Why not ... let's talk in the coffee shop sometime. After all these years, I thought I would never see you again. " His eyes seemed to be a longing, a pleading. "Today is Saturday. I don't have to go to work. There is an opposite. Let's go there. " Maybe I still don't want to find out the truth of the past, or maybe I really miss this tall and thin man. After all these years, I don't know if I still hate him. The moment I saw him today, I knew that my hatred over the years was just a reason why I wanted to forget him, and I couldn't forget it after all.
Eason Chan's "Long time no see" was played in a dark coffee shop, and there were not many people in the afternoon. We chose a window seat to sit down, much like an old friend meeting in an idol drama.
? The waiter ordered a meal, I said a glass of lemonade, and he said me too. My little sister looked at him, then at me, and turned away. "It's a little strange to drink two glasses of lemonade at the same time in a coffee shop. I guess people will discuss us backstage and say that we are stingy. " He smiled half jokingly. I looked up and looked at him, and his smile froze at once. "Yes, I didn't expect that we would order the same thing. Can't you order an expensive cup of coffee when you come to a coffee shop? " In order to break the embarrassment, I can only perform "asking questions" that I am not good at. He said, "I'm used to it. Every time I go to the cafe, it goes smoothly. " He hung his head when he spoke.
About lemonade, it will haunt me for the rest of my life. What used to be an idea has now become an indelible habit.
When I was in high school, every time he invited me out to play and asked me what I wanted to drink, I would think for a moment and say, "Lemonade is cheap, it can detoxify and beautify the face, and it can also whiten the skin." This is what I heard from my aunt. The thought of this guy should not have much living expenses, so it's lemonade every time. When he saw me say lemonade, he said he wanted it, too, so we sat by the river all afternoon, each with a glass of lemonade, or talked about the interesting things that happened in class, or discussed which university to go to in the future. Over time, lemonade became our only drink.
? He still looked up, and we smiled at each other, tacitly.
? "Dachuan, when did you come back? Where do you work now? How is your aunt and uncle? " I still couldn't resist opening my mouth first. The last time I left silently, I left so many questions for myself. Do you really want to know how you are today? I can't wait to forget the girl's reserve and ask three questions at once. It feels too abrupt.
? "I have been back for some time and have been working in a Sino-foreign joint venture. I often travel abroad, and I have almost settled down recently. I should stay in China in the future. They're all fine. I don't live with them now. They are still in the original house. I live in the west of the city, and I will go back to eat when I am free on weekends. " "That's good. After all, they are old and often go back to see. " There was another brief silence. He hesitated for a moment, then asked, "Are you still alone?" I nodded. "I talked a few times in the middle and felt inappropriate. I broke up." "I thought you would be with the one you talked about in college." He has a wry smile. "When did I talk about this in college? I just ... broke up with you. I am wholeheartedly preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination and work. Who told you that I talked to others in college? " After listening to his words, my anger finally broke out, just like the unscrupulous high-decibel shouting in front of him, completely ignoring the fact that we are no longer that kind of relationship. There was even an impulse to rush up and hit him on the head, but I finally restrained myself.
? I don't know where he got it through the grapevine or who his boyfriend was in college. Obviously, he was frightened by my sudden reaction and just looked at me blankly. "Tell me, where did you hear that I talked about a boyfriend in college?" I tried my best to suppress my anger, as if I had been ruined at this moment. "Do you remember your junior year? There was a time when you said you were busy as soon as we called, and you hung up after a few words every time. I said you wouldn't let me visit you at your school. To be honest, it was a really hard time. I think listening to your voice is extravagant. Sometimes I don't call you in a rage, and you don't even send a message for a week. I don't have a girlfriend and I can't feel your love at all. "
? He didn't tell me the answer I wanted to know, but suddenly I felt stabbed by something. I said, "Is that why you broke up with me? You think I'm in love with someone else, so I ignore you, don't you? " As if in a questioning tone, "then, you heard someone say I was with someone else, right?" There seems to be a sudden impulse to cry that is misunderstood and wronged. I stared at him, waiting for his answer. "No, I trusted you from the first day I met you, and I never thought about anything else. Just, do you remember that winter? Once I asked you if you wanted to go out for two days so that we could meet briefly, because you always said you were busy and I wanted you to relax. It was a waste of time for you to sayno. In fact, I went to school to find you later. I'll wait for you in front of the library, watching you and a boy come out of the door laughing. You walk together and look at each other while talking. At that moment, you smiled so happily as if I had never seen it before. I want to call you. Just as I was about to speak, you got on his bike and left. I don't know how to describe the collapse at that moment, as if everything fell apart in an instant. When I got back to school, I texted you and said I wanted to have a good talk with you. You call me back after half a day. You are very busy. I said it was urgent, and you said to call me back tonight. I waited all night, staring at the photos we took when we graduated from high school, remembering the dribs and drabs from high school to college, looking at your simple smile and waiting until dawn with your eyes open. That was the first time I felt the feeling of despair. You know, I forced myself to calm down and tell myself that you have your business. I can't bother you all the time, but the scene of the library still comes to my mind. Later, I sent you a message saying that I wanted to calm down and felt a little tired. You went straight back, okay. At that moment, I was really disheartened You didn't ask or say anything. I feel a little cold and violent. "
Then he looked up and smiled bitterly. At that moment, I seemed to see the expression I saw when I broke up. I am in pain and despair. This is what I have been trying to understand for years. Since it was so hard at that time, why should I say it?
? He went on to say, "We haven't contacted each other for nearly two months. I thought you had forgotten me in your heart and regarded me as your predecessor, but you were too embarrassed to tell me and let me know in this way. Then you called me and said you were coming to see me. You have something to tell me. I thought you were going to break up with me, so I agreed. So we met for the last time. The first thing to say when we meet is let's break up. Do you know why I said it first? Because you said that the bad guys broke up first, I don't want you to be that person. Even if I am miserable in the end, I want you to feel that I owe you because it is my fault. " I finally stuck my head out of the window.
? This is the so-called truth. I finally understand what he said before, "My boyfriend in college". I tried to speak, but I was so choked that I couldn't open my mouth. He hung his head. After so many years, it seems that the dark switch has been turned on again, and I can't wait for a moment.
? Calm down for a few minutes, I calmed down and said to him, "I didn't expect so much to happen in those years." I seem to be used to you calling me. During that time, I was really busy with my own business and ignored you. One day, I found that I haven't heard from you for a long time. When I called you, the first thing I saw you was that sentence. I froze for an instant. I don't know how to face you, so I think. I gave up. I'm sorry, I thought too simple. I was too young then. I thought as long as I worked hard, we could stay in a city earlier. I keep telling myself that now is not the time to call every day. The gap between us is not one to three. Maybe the values are not equal in the future. I dare not tell you, for fear that you really don't like me, so I tried my best to go to your city in my junior year. I made up my mind when I knew you were going to graduate school. I can't let you give up your old life because of me. I should tell you that I'm going to take the postgraduate entrance examination. I felt so inferior at that time. I really hope to be by your side one day. It's funny to think about it now. You are so close to me. Why should I keep it from you? I can resist such a big surprise. As long as I fail the exam, I will go to work at your place. It's strange why you take such a question as three views. "
? I watched his eyes get wet. "You know, I wanted to suggest that you take the postgraduate entrance examination, but I prefer you to make your own decisions. I don't want to affect your life, but since I told you that I took the postgraduate entrance examination, I found that you are becoming more and more indifferent to me, so I had my later narrow-minded idea. " I don't know what to say. This person seems to be familiar with it at once, or the tall and thin boy of that year.
? "You said we walked from high school to college. I thought we had developed a tacit understanding, but we were still naive. It was all because I was too impulsive and thought too little. I thought we could understand each other. I thought it didn't matter if I didn't say it. I think too much. "
? This time I finished writing this passage with a smile, but my heart was filled with too much helplessness. "That boy is my classmate, and he is also going to take an examination of graduate students in your school. We often discuss topics together. The bike broke down that day, and it was too far to go to the canteen. I was anxious to come back to review before taking his car. By the way, his girlfriend is also in your school. Later, they were together there and got married last year. " I don't know why I have to explain it, but I probably want to prove my innocence. "Later I went to another coastal city, and a few years later I returned to my hometown to become a people's teacher. This is all my possessions over the years. Is there anything else I want to know? " Finally relieved, I still can't change my pride. I can't let others be wronged, even an imaginary boyfriend.
? He said: "In fact, I have always believed in you, and I don't know which tendon was broken at that time to give up such a good girl. Why didn't I make it clear at the time? I'm afraid I won't meet again. " Said and shook his head, a pair of at a loss, Suet Nei smiled, "said he seems to be poor, why do you want to leave early?" Suddenly feel the atmosphere is full of the feeling that we have said such stupid things before. The most familiar strangers are pretending, and they are familiar with each other by accident.
? But we can never go back, can we? The ring on the ring finger of his left hand sparkled in the sunset, which has already indicated his identity. That girl came to him when he was hurt by me and didn't believe in love, or when his career was not smooth and he was most helpless, caring for him, taking care of him, giving him warmth and giving him everything I couldn't give him.
? "She ... must be a very good girl?" He nodded. "She cooks delicious food, and she takes good care of her family. Uh-huh, quite good. " At the moment, like an old friend, with the appearance of being accused and disgusted, "you are too old. Don't say anything in the future, just say it, otherwise how will people know that you are good to him? When you meet the right one, remember not to settle. " I nodded hard and said I knew.
? I looked at my watch. It is getting late. I got up and said I was going back. He said, "OK, let's go out together." After paying the bill, we walked to the crossroads together, which was just the green light. We crossed the road together without saying a word. When we walk past, I will turn to the south, you will turn to the west, and we will really go further and further.
? At the moment of turning around, he turned and stopped me: "Xiao Duo, let bygones be bygones, and let's look forward together." I nodded and turned around, tears have flowed to the corners of my mouth.
This man who once loved me deeply once loved me so much and finally disappeared into my life in the long river of time. Fate makes us know each other and love each other. After all, we can't overcome our fate and move towards each other step by step. We had the best time in five years, and after another five years, we met new people. Let those less important truths pay homage to those youthful years and forgive the doomed misunderstanding of love, hate and hatred.
? Today, I can finally say goodbye to the old you!
? See you next time, I think I can keep a straight face. I can stop being emotional and just say, "Hi, old friend, how are you?"