I met her at the New Year's Eve party in the department. After knowing her, I gradually began to think that women are really cheap things, and I also began to know how terrible women's impetuousness is.
Every time I see her in my dream, I feel that she is crying, calling my name and telling me that there is another scar on his heart.
Her appearance tells everyone that she is a restless person, but she is also a simple person, because only I know her simplicity and only I can understand it.
Because I really can't use all the words I can think of to explain how a woman falls in love with a man who can't be with her.
I hated that man in front of Qi and even scolded him. His appearance made Qi sad, and his appearance made me helpless.
That man, I've seen pictures. I'm a classmate of Qi's hometown. It looks like a good match with Qi. His name is Wei. Qi didn't come to see me for a while. I knew there was a phone waiting for her in the dormitory every day. However, I also know that this must be a fruitless chat. Because, distance, if she really loves him, then distance is not distance.
I know that he is in a remote rural area, and it is impossible for him to bring Qi a stable life in this city.
Beijing is a big city. Women can easily earn more money if you like. Yes, Qi doesn't even have his own body and mind. There is nothing she doesn't want to do.
In this way, she humiliated herself, lived day and night, didn't even come back to school to live, and drowned in the arms of strange men every day, while the old people in their hometown, in this way, fantasized about great love in a world where they didn't know Qi.
I said, are you going to marry him? Women's private words (//Sifang dialect)
She said, I don't know.
I can't believe she hasn't thought about it. They have known each other for five years. Although they met me in college, I am nothing. Qi knows the future between her and him better than I do.
She said she couldn't control herself. Five years is really too long.
I don't like the excuses she gave herself at all. If she wants to leave, it's simple, whether it's leaving him or leaving me. Several times, I wanted to say to her, Qi, come back, I love you more than him, and we won't be apart, okay?
But she said she couldn't let go of her relationship for five years. In these years, she has never really found a man who can bind herself. Knowing what happened to too many classmates, I was afraid to pay too much for a man like them, but there was no result.
Qi lost himself to a man in this way, no, it should be lost to himself. Does she care?