I am a college student. I used to hate this identity, and I thought it meant inferiority and not being looked down upon. I was in pain for a while. I blame myself for being lazy and regret my choice. It is not so easy for anyone to let go of the failure of the college entrance examination. Besides, I didn't get comfort from my parents after the failure, but I got blame and ridicule from my parents. I can accept the blame, but when I am laughed at, I feel as if I am not from this family. Three months after the college entrance examination is the most difficult period in my life. I am physically and mentally exhausted and stressed. Because I didn't do well in the exam, my father asked me to take a summer job. I'm tired and don't like it. He said I asked for it, and I got the black eye from my brother. What's the use of reading so much? And I also envy those students who travel outside. When I am tired of dust and sweat, I even envy them for living so well. I really want to escape, and even expect to go to a distant school as soon as possible. However, school life is not satisfactory. I feel depressed because of the hesitation when I first arrived in a distant place, the indifference of interpersonal relationship and the isolation of my classmates from other places. I want to go back to the home I once wanted to escape from. The two friends I just met are from our class. I introduced them when the three of us first got together, but later they were all locals, and the local dialect was so high that I was embarrassed. I felt isolated, so I left and started traveling alone. ). At that time, I was very painful and felt wronged everywhere. I was the only one who suffered all this and had nowhere to tell. When I first started alone, it gave me great pain, and it was hard to walk on the road. Later, I began to soak in the library, enjoying the quiet overflow of my soul and feeling the peace of my original soul. I found a place to vent, and I started running to the library crazily, without stopping for a day. I like reading, or I like the feeling of learning something. I feel calm, comfortable and enjoy reading. I began to learn to be alone, to accept my emotions, to accept those injustices and injuries, and to become confident. The transformation of my personality and the liberation of myself began from the moment I decided to soak in the library.