While waiting for the result of the second crossroad in my life (the result of postgraduate entrance examination), I was idle and raised. I was alive in the early stage, and I was used to being lazy in the later stage. After all, I can't escape the questioning of fate and soul ... I think I will make good use of the last holiday of this university after all, and I still want to leave something to be proud of, so I chose to read and choose Ditan and I, a book that has haunted me for a long time, from the heart.

? "Ditan and I" mainly tells the author Shi Tiesheng's life experience and feelings, the author's unique view and interpretation of fate, memories of relatives and friends, memories of childhood, memories of youth and admiration for love ... all of which are moving and thought-provoking. It's hard to find a bosom friend for this big topic of life, this lifelong problem, and it's easy to say it. Even the closest people will find it difficult to find a singer because of their different experiences and values. This has both advantages and disadvantages. Why do you say that? It's an advantage because you can collide with more sparks from more viewpoints. If it's a disadvantage, it's because it's difficult for you to determine whether your choice is correct, but you have to bear all the consequences yourself …

? In the process of reading, I have a deeper understanding of the various forms of the world and the impermanence of fate. As the author said, "So there is a most desperate conclusion waiting here: Who will play the role of those suffering?" Who will embody the happiness, pride and happiness in this world? It is unreasonable to leave things to chance. As far as fate is concerned, let alone talk about justice. "Yes, if my disability suddenly happens to me, I will try my best to live, I don't know how to live all day, and I will have suicidal thoughts several times like the author, spending days and nights in confusion, not knowing where I will go in the future, and not sure whether I will see the sun tomorrow. But did you hear the author's persuasion? If misfortune happens to you, there is nothing to complain about, because if everyone is happy, the world will become monotonous or even boring, which is not the original intention of God to create the world. Therefore, some people will be unfortunate and some people will be happy. For a person, it may take too much misfortune and too long, but there are thousands of landscapes and people in the world. Whoever is lucky is accidental and random, which is fate and makes no sense.

? It suddenly dawned on me that all the misfortunes I experienced were arranged by fate. God created countless destinies. Very few lucky people are carefree, safe, healthy and happy all their lives. For example, children from rich families are pampered from birth, and they have various opportunities to contact all kinds of people and places to play from birth. Therefore, their personalities are lively, cheerful, generous, enthusiastic and confident. There are also very few people who, in the eyes of outsiders, have been tortured by tragic fate all their lives. For example, the poor in Africa, open-air toilets, narrow and dark spaces, face hunger and dirty environment every day, and live a inferior life. But it seems that because of this, a full meal can make them happy for a day. Their happiness is as simple as that, and there is no sadness tomorrow. As long as they can fill their stomachs today, it is the greatest happiness … so humble and simple about the happiness in the dust. Yes, God finally gave more opportunities mixed with more sufferings to most people in the middle. Most people can't have everything, such as their parents' identity or the wealth accumulated by their parents, or their grandparents' glib words or wealth. Even if they have normal love, if they don't, even if they are encouraged by their parents, or want the care or attention they deserve? ! Maybe it's still too much. Actually, as long as you are healthy and happy, what should orphans do? Aren't orphans more pitiful? Without friends, I was alone from beginning to end. Fortunately, I have friends, and I have a companion in every journey when I was growing up. Although I lack the encouragement or care of my parents, I may not even know who and where my parents are, not to mention my grandparents and a large group of relatives who can help me. However, orphans still have to grow up, pursue happiness, and probably meet love, then get married and have children. I think they are orphans.

? I was thinking while reading a book, and unconsciously my thoughts drifted far away. My mind echoed with the author's words, "Nietzsche said' love fate'. Love fate is the realm of love. " Love fate "means love God-God has created infinite kinds of fate. Do you hate such an unforgiving person? "Love fate" is also love for all beings-if that ruthless fate turns to others, you will breathe a sigh of relief. What? "At the same time, my early experience caught my eye. Luck and misfortune are destiny and destiny takes a hand. That is to say, life is like a play, no matter what kind of cards God deals, since the original setting cannot be changed, and since life will inevitably end one day, it is better to let go and do it, even if you get a bad hand, you will never show your cards; Even though I know that the final outcome is a tragedy no matter how hard I try, I will still try my best to perform this drama of life, because tragedy is sometimes more powerful than comedy, because giving up means that I have lost before I start, and because this tragedy of life will eventually become less sad because of my own efforts ... just as the depth of life is getting stronger and stronger with the development of my own potential and the release of my own charm, I am convinced of this.